You gave a heart, but someone trampled under your feet, well, since you don't want it, why should I give so humbly?

Who is he? He is the eldest son and eldest grandson of the Shen family, one of the most outstanding children of the Shen family, what he wants has always been at his fingertips, how many women of the same age as him are looking forward to him for him, and he gave his heart to a woman many years ago.

In the eyes of others, she is ordinary, she may be beautiful, but she is by no means astonishing. Not to mention that bad character, not gentle, and very stubborn. But he just likes her, he likes her little appearance of making a lot of effort for a difficult problem in her homework, likes her thin eyebrows and eyes when she is picky, and likes the slightly hooked corners of her mouth after her little conspiracy succeeds.

He liked her so much, but she disappointed him so much.

Not only because of the words she said and the things she lived, but also because she fell in love with someone she shouldn't love.

Shen Shijun felt that he had lived for more than twenty years, and he had never been so disappointed as he was today, not only because Lin Xiangwan had failed him, but more importantly, she had failed herself.

But this kind of grievance can't be said to outsiders, because others may ask him, what about you? Aren't you the same, falling in love with someone who will never respond to you, what's the point of you doing this?

"Senior brother, don't want me, don't ignore me. "He is her last supporter, but she is about to lose him, Lin Xiangwan murmured, she stretched out her hand, as if to grab something.

Shen Shijun's body trembled, and finally left.

Brother...... Lin Xiangwan withdrew his hand, and there was nothing in his hand.

There was a man who loved me as life. But he was young at the time......

When we were young, we thought that love could transcend everything, but at that time we did not understand that there is another force in the world, called fate.

Tears welled up without warning, she wanted to say to him, I know I was wrong, I'll go with you, don't leave me and Ye Nan, don't go...... But she didn't say anything, she just stood there blankly, watching Shen Shijun's background fade away in tears.

The Buddha said: Life in the world is like being in a forest of thorns, if the heart does not move, people will not move, and if they do not move, they will not hurt; if the heart moves, people will move in vain, and they will hurt their bodies and bones, so they will experience all kinds of pain in the world.

If I already knew this thorny road, how could I watch you walk into it for my sake.

It hurts, it may hurt, but if it hurts, it's fine, and it won't hurt anymore in the future.

"You really surprised me, I thought you were going to go with him. Chu Di followed from behind, and the people around him had almost dispersed, so he took out a tissue and handed it to Lin Xiangwan.

Lin Xiangwan didn't answer, she lightly covered her face with her palm, "I'm also surprised that I would say such a thing." ”

"Thank you, though, and trust me, I won't let you down. Chu Di responded cautiously, because this was the first time Lin Xiangwan had spoken to him in these days, although the beginning was not smooth...... But, at least, she didn't see him like nothing anymore.

"Who told you that I believe you?" Lin Xiangwan's indifferent rhetorical question made Chu Di speechless, "I just stated the facts you want me to believe, other than that, did I say anything else? Chu Di, there is no such cheap thing in the world, maybe in your eyes, Ye Nan and I are just like grass mustard, but in my heart, no one is more important than Ye Nan. ”

"What about you...... Why stay?"

Lin Xiangwan smiled and did not answer. Chu Di looked at her smile, and for some reason, an irrepressible anxiety surged in his heart.

Why stay, maybe soon, you'll find out. Maybe you don't like the answer, but that's okay, as long as I like it.

* It's night, 16th floor of the hospital, archives.

It's silent.

Perhaps because people don't pay much attention to what has already happened, the hospital's library-like door to the archives is always easy to open.

With a flashlight in his mouth, Lin Xiangwan searched for it in the iron frame filled with all kinds of file bags like a mountain of hills.

Finally, her eyes fell on the layer of clinical trial records from a few years ago.

The file bag made of kraft paper was covered with a thick layer of dust, and the dust danced under the light of the flashlight, and Lin Xiangwan untied the hemp rope wrapped around the round paper buckle one by one, until the slightly yellowed documents inside were revealed.

As Chu Mu said, before a new drug is put on the market, clinical trials need to be done, and what is recorded on these papers is the situation of each clinical patient at that time.

There is no name, some are just the bed number, Lin Xiangwan was in it, and saw Ye Zhen's bed number. It's just that on this piece of paper, Ye Zhen, a patient with a serious heart disease, has been tampered with as a patient who often suffers from insomnia due to muscle tension.

At the end of all the documents, on the signature file of the person in charge of the main shareholder of the hospital who agreed to conduct the clinical trial, the signature of Chu Di Long Feifeng Dance, even after so many years, is still so bright.

Reloading the documents back, Lin Xiangwan's hands were shaking all the time, not because she was sad, but because she couldn't control it. Throwing his hand on the iron shelf, there was a muffled sound when the back of his hand hit the iron, Lin Xiangwan put the file away and leaned against the shelf.

Dead silence returned, and a burning sensation came from the back of her hand.

She was a little surprised that she didn't feel sad or hurt when she saw those things.

Grief is greater than heart death, there is nothing to make her feel pain anymore.

She is not a person who trusts others easily, although under the conditions at the time, when Chu Mu said such things, she was so angry that she lost her mind all of a sudden, but afterwards she also thought about whether Chu Di would do those things...... What would she do if he did...... Hate him, spurn him, and don't get along with him for old age? And even if she did, what kind of harm would she do to him? Would a hard-hearted man like him feel sad about a woman's departure?

Does he know what it means to be sad?

But if she didn't, she would stay with him? It wasn't easy for her......

This is like a logical paradox puzzle, Lin Xiangwan suddenly found that she was trapped in the middle of the net, whether she was advancing or retreating, it was like a jungle covered with mist, making her unable to see the direction clearly.

* When Chu Di came to visit Lin Xiangwan the next day, she happened to be removing gauze.

Putting aside a large handful of perfume lilies given to her, he stood at the end of the bed and watched as the doctor untied the gauze from her wrist layer by layer.

The wound on the wrist had healed, but it had left an extremely ugly scar.

"These scars can be difficult to remove with medication, but laser scar removal is very popular right now, and you can try it in a few days. Lin Xiangwan's attending doctor said to her that when he saw Chu Di, he nodded to him slightly.

At first, they thought that suffering such a severe sore, coupled with Ye Nan's complacency, would make Lin Xiangwan face a collapse, but in fact, her reaction was completely beyond their expectations.

She recovered at a very fast pace, although she hated rehabilitation, but she was never absent, she was like a weed growing in the ground, with extremely tenacious vitality and tenacity.

But because of this, Chu Di felt even more worried, he was worried that she would accumulate and bury all those unpleasant things, and wait until one day they broke out together, he would rather let her make a big fuss about him, blame him for his negligence, and not want to wait for that day to come.

Because he knew that if that kind of thing happened, what kind of devastating disaster it would be, and he and she really couldn't get it back.

Lin Xiangwan shook his head, "Why do you want to remove it, it's not very good." This scar will remind me of what has happened. Besides, there are not some people abroad who specialize in getting some scars on their bodies, what do they call it?Aesthetics of violence?Do you think it's beautiful?" She raised her wrist and shook it towards Chu Di.

The mottled and messy scars, the faithful recording of all the pain she had suffered, coupled with her childlike innocent smile at this time, made Chu Di feel shocked, and he turned his face away and couldn't look at it anymore.

"I don't think there's anything beautiful about this, I think these people with beautiful scars are somewhat psychologically flawed. The attending doctor shrugged, "Okay, now that the gauze has been removed, it means that you don't have to stay in the hospital anymore, you can be discharged next week, and you just need to come to the hospital on time for rehabilitation in the future."

After he finished speaking, he left very interestingly, leaving only Lin Xiangwan and Chu Di in the ward.

"After being discharged from the hospital...... What are you going to do?" Chu Di asked, the perfume lily exuding a rich fragrance, and the whole room was filled with a sweet and almost suffocating scent, and he felt a little breathless.

Lin Xiangwan rolled down the sleeves of the hospital gown, tilted his head and thought for a while, "What do you think I should do?" To be honest, I don't have any ideas now, Aunt Zhang will go back to her hometown in a while, and I can't take Ye Nan with me alone, if it was before, it might be easier...... But now ......"

"You can stay with me if you don't mind. Of course, I won't force you to do anything you don't like, I can take care of Ye Nan with you, even if you go to work, it doesn't matter, Ye Nan can go to the company with me......"

"Chudi, what are you kidding. Lin Xiangwan couldn't help but giggle when he heard Chu Di's words. She raised her hands to him and said, "What else can you do with these hands? Can you still pick up a scalpel? Please, I can't pick up a pair of chopsticks now, what mother do you think would dare to give me the life of her and her children? Don't you always dislike my work, why don't you raise me." ”