Chapter 79: I'm Afraid
"That's only ...... Two years?" Xu Yunqi was stunned.
Ye Nan's birthday will be four years old in the next year, and most children go to school at the age of six, so Lin Xiangwan really only has two years left.
Two years, more than 700 days, passed from the palm of her hand in the blink of an eye, and she faced her upcoming death, she was so calm and calm, as if she had been preparing for a long time.
"yes...... Two years is too short, isn't it? So I have to work hard to make money, make a lot of money, and then when I die, Ye Nan will not live on the streets. When it's cold, someone will remember to add clothes to him, and when it's hot, open the fridge and there will be popsicles to eat......"
She thought very simply, if there was a void that could not be filled with affection, then fill it with money. She knew that such an exchange was not equivalent, but she had no choice, she didn't want Ye Nan's life to be the same as herself, she was trapped by money at a young age, and she was forced to do something she didn't like at all for the sake of money.
She wants to give him the greatest freedom, let him be who he can really be, let him do what he really cares about, and not stop dreaming because of money.
She wants to teach him that in this world, as long as money can solve the problem, it is not a problem. Because when he grows up, he will understand that there are so many things that you can't change the outcome at any cost.
If you are sick and die, if you want to raise a child, you don't want to be a parent.
"Aren't you afraid?" The more calm Lin Xiangwan was, the more Xu Yunqi felt uncomfortable.
He would rather she be like the woman he had seen before, and when she met a bug, she would scream in fright, and her face would be discolored. And don't be like this, like the night before the storm, so calm that it makes people's hearts palpitate.
"When I first learned the news, I was so scared that I could barely sleep. Thinking of when he first heard the doctor talk about his condition from an authoritative hospital, Lin Xiangwan couldn't help laughing at himself, "But then I was busy making money, so I didn't care about being afraid, and I didn't have time to be afraid." In fact, what I'm most afraid of is not death, but when Ye Nan grows up one day, he won't remember me. I'm most afraid of this. Xu Yunqi, you said that when he grows up, can he still remember my unqualified mother?"
Xu Yunqi was speechless, facing the woman in his arms who was approaching death minute by minute, he didn't know what words to use to express his feelings.
Only to hold her tightly and warm her with his body heat.
That's it, it doesn't work. He knew that his arms could not hold her life, and that there was nothing he could do about her fate.
How could there be such a feeling, as if as soon as he let go, he would lose her.
Xu Yunqi has never cared too much about the person he met in Pingshui, unless that person was his mortal enemy. But she's different...... Can't let her go, can't let her disappear......
He hugged it so tightly that Lin Xiangwan felt very uncomfortable, in order to avoid being strangled to death. She struggled, stretched out her arm, and patted the man on the broad back, "Oh, don't do this, like I'm going to die now." Isn't there still two years to go, in case a miracle happens? ”
Although they all know that the reason why a miracle is called a miracle is that it will never appear.
However, after Lin Xiangwan's interruption, Xu Yunqi also knew that he was a little out of shape. So he let go of his arm and didn't really let go of her, but helped her up.
Lin Xiangwan had been lying in his arms for a long time, and her body was sour, so she was massaging the major acupuncture points on her body, while chatting with Xu Yunqi about her appearance when she first became ill, and suddenly something flashed in her mind, Lin Xiangwan asked anxiously, "By the way, when I was sick just now...... Is there anyone near me?"
"What do you mean?" Thinking of what the man had said to him, Xu Yunqi had a little more heart, and did not answer the question directly.
Lin Xiangwan lowered his head and thought about it, then smiled self-deprecatingly, "It's nothing, he can't be here." It's me who thinks too much. ”
There was a feeling on her lips as if she was being burned by fire, and she couldn't help but think of the man. Only he would like to kiss, suck and bite in such a bad way, make her hurt and make him happy.
But he would never have appeared in this place, because if he had been there and had caught her, he would never have spared her easily.
Maybe it will kill her, maybe it's not enough.
I must be so sick that not only my heart is sick, but my head is also broken.
It's just that such a familiar feeling is really upsetting, pushing away Xu Yunqi's assisting arm, Lin Xiangwan groped the wall alone through the dark aisle, and walked outside the ring.
At the beginning of the lanterns, the city is like an empty playground, a few people laugh, who complains about the injury.
The flying snowflakes, like pear petals scattered in the wind, are white and cold, with a refreshing fresh taste. The snow has been falling for two days, and it has accumulated a thick layer, and all the unbearable and ugly have been covered up by this layer of snow, and the ground is like a white quilt, so clean that people have a desire to destroy.
Grabbing a large handful of snow from the ground, Lin Xiangwan smeared them on his lips fiercely, so hard, as if he didn't know the pain.
"Who is that person?" Xu Yunqi looked at her hand, he thought, even if he died one day, he would definitely remember this scene.
In the silence of the night, this woman, her fingers were red from the snow, and her joints were still very bad. Her lips were also red, red as blood. Her long inky hair, draped on either side of her pale cheeks, stood in the snow, smiling at him, her coat blown by the wind, her long sleeves fluttering behind her like wings, and she, breathtakingly beautiful, with the smell of destruction, was unforgettable.
"He's ......" Lin Xiangwan raised her face, the snowflakes confused her eyes, and the snow slid down the corners of her eyes, crystal like teardrops, "He is my benefactor and my enemy." ”
said that Chu Di is a benefactor, because if it weren't for him, she wouldn't be today's Lin Xiangwan, maybe until now, she is still like a fool, being used to death, and she only knows how to cry, but doesn't know how to fight back.
At this point, she wants to thank him.
"Then you want to see him. ”
Facing Xu Yunqi's question, Lin Xiangwan didn't answer at first, she walked deep and shallow into the depths of the snow, until her calf was trapped by the thick snow, and she couldn't take a step again, before she turned around and gave him the brightest smile, "It's not that I want to see him, but we will definitely meet, this is what we agreed, and he will wait for me there." ”
Wait for me to destroy him and his empire.