"Don't be angry, I know you're angry, and I know that even if you know what's going to happen, you'll save me. Lin Xiangwan was sure that he did not waver in his decision because of Chu Di's attitude, in her opinion, he was now like a wounded beast, and the slightest disturbance would make him restless.

He didn't know that his appearance, although he was down, made her feel distressed, just because he had always been strong in front of her before, so strong that she forgot that he was actually a person, and he would hurt and hurt.

Chu Di sneered, "Heh, Miss Lin, you can't help but think too much of yourself, why do you think that?"

"Because in your dreams, your name is mine. Lin Xiangwan replied calmly.

Chu Di was silent all of a sudden.

Dreams are the projection of reality, the thoughts of the day, and the desires/desires that cannot be spoken to others, but cannot be helped. Dreams are born from the heart, but they are not controlled by him, he can make an indifferent appearance in front of Lin Xiangwan, but he can't guard against her in his dreams.

In fact, in and out of his dreams, he thought about her alone.

But so what? Aside from Lin Xiangwan's prejudice against himself because of Xu Yunqi's death, his body Chu Di is the most clear, the hospital's surgeon, neurology doctor has consulted several times, and there is only one result, recovery is possible, but the probability is very small.

For a woman, her age is a good time, the flowers are more than halfway open, charming and delicate, is it because he has a life-saving grace for her, so he keeps her by his side and watches her wither and wither?

If it had been before, he might have been able to do it, but now.

Chu Di smiled bitterly in his heart, he was reluctant, he was reluctant to see her suffer the slightest grievance, and he was reluctant to see her a little dissatisfied, so he took all the blame on himself and made her hate him, it was better than letting her keep complaining about herself.

"I didn't call you by your name because I was thinking about you. Chu Di gritted his teeth and said, this can be regarded as three hundred taels of silver here, Lin Xiangwan sighed, "Then why? Because I am too cruel to you, so I hate me in my heart? If I hate me, I will say it directly, you are not a person who dare not say or do, I know that you are not happy in your heart, I feel that I am dragging you down, if it weren't for me, you would not become like this, it is better to be like this, if you are really angry in your heart, you will beat me, and strive to beat me so that I can't take care of myself for the rest of my life, do you think this is okay?"

"Lin Xiangwan, shut up!"

The words she said cut out his heart like a knife, how could he attack her?

Lin Xiangwan rolled his eyes, "Since you don't do it, then don't blame me for not giving you a chance." Anyway, I thought about it, if I don't cure you, I won't leave, you are now a lonely person, no one wants it, I will make a good heart, take care of you, save yourself trouble. ”

This is completely the logic of the robbers, knowing that Chu's mother had just passed away, for Chu Di, this matter was an injury, but Lin Xiangwan also let it go, and did not shy away from it, and lifted all his covers at once, so that he had nothing to hide, and he could no longer excuse her.

"You take care of me? What do you do with me? If you manage me, can you still manage Ye Nan? When the time comes, you will be alone and lacking skills...... "The one who was left behind, it's not me?"

Don't give me hope, because I know that hope is followed by disappointment, I would rather be like this, quietly old and barren alone, rather than be ruthlessly torn apart after being close to your warmth.

Hearing Chu Di's words, Lin Xiangwan's expression froze, and she was silent for a while before she said to him solemnly, "Although Ye Nan is a child, he already understands many truths, and it is precisely because he understands that he will be sad and sad." He knows who is genuinely good to him, you have to give him time, and he will slowly accept you. ”

The son ignored him, for Chu Di, it was another injury, and the injury was not shallower than Lin Xiangwan's alienation of him, but this was also a sin he did single-handedly, and now it was finally his turn to suffer the bitter fruit, and no one could replace him.

"You guys are having a hard time?" Chu Di had forgotten that his injuries were messy at the moment, and he only thought about Ye Nan's stubborn little face, and when he pursed his mouth and didn't speak or accept it, he looked like Lin Xiangwan.

Lin Xiangwan thought for a while and shook his head, "How can it be considered bitter? I used to feel bitter, but now that I think about it, it's actually not a big deal." At least the two of us are together. When Ye Nan was a child, he was not in good health and didn't like to talk, even if he was in the amusement park, other children were playing together, but he was still alone. Sometimes when he was sick, I didn't have time to take care of him, so I put him in the hospital, although he didn't say anything, but when the parents and relatives of the little patient went to visit, he would always look at the people......"

At that time, his eyes made Lin Xiangwan remember it for a lifetime.

"I'm not a good mother, I can't give him a whole family from the moment he is born, but I ...... Occasionally, I wonder if I want to give it a try...... Find someone and start a family again. Not only for Ye Nan, but also for myself, although I look quite strong, but after all, I am a woman, I also hope that someone can love me well, cherish me, and hold me in the palm of my hand as a baby...... Instead of coming and going to me, I was happy like a cat and a dog, and I was not happy......"

She couldn't go on because she thought about a lot of things from the past. Some people say that she is ruthless, and even Shen Shijun disagrees with some of her opinions, thinking that she is too desperate to do things and does not leave a way for herself and others to live.

But if it weren't for that, she would have died a long time ago.

died in the eyes of her relatives, died in the public opinion of everyone, and died in his violence that made her hurt to the extreme again and again.

The young man lost his mother, the young man lost his father, and the father of his own son, who wanted him to disappear into this world, there was no friend to talk to, no one to rely on, how tenacious she had to be in order to keep herself alive, and almost everything she had today was fought by herself.

She also wants to have a carefree relationship, as the poem says, to love, as if it had never been hurt.

But she didn't dare, whether she was in the Ye family before, or when she returned to him later, she had always been walking on thin ice, living trembling and intriguing. She felt that she had long lost the ability to trust others, and even more so the ability to love others.

She can't get carried away with love like ordinary people, she feels that she doesn't deserve such happiness.

Although Lin Xiangwan didn't speak again, the expression on her face said it all, she had never said such a thing to him, because she had never really trusted him, right?

Chu Di suddenly mourned in his heart, what did he do in the first place, so that even after so many years, she still can't forget it. It turns out that he destroyed not only her dignity and pride, but also all her illusions about love.

"Let's try......" He suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed her palm, Lin Xiangwan was startled, seeing the tightly wrapped gauze on Chu Di's palm, thinking that he still had injuries on his hand, he wanted to break free, but Chu Di refused to let her go.

"What to try?" Lin Xiangwan asked uneasily.

Chu Di looked into her eyes, "You know. Give it a try, not only for Ye Nan, but also for you, and for myself. Even if I can't do it, I won't resent it, I'd rather regret it, isn't that what you said? If I can't stand up, that's my life, my life shouldn't let us be together, if I become like that, I won't allow myself to pester you anymore, but if I can...... Lin Xiangwan, your fantasy, I'll complete it. ”

His voice was not loud, but every word was categorical, with infinite strength and courage.

This is the first time, he wants to be with her, with an equal posture with her, not coercing, not tempting, not making her feel embarrassed and sad, but still, he wants to cry.

Sinking into the deep pool, the heart that has not seen the sun for a long time seems to have been knocked open by someone and ushered in her first ray of sunshine.

*

Lin Xiangwan usually has to go to work, and after work, he has to take Ye Nan home, accompany the children to Go classes, and participate in interest groups on weekends, so there is very little time for Chu Di, although he said that he wanted to be by his side and help him recover, but when the two of them can really be together, it is pitiful.

But every time she saw Chu Di, he would be very happy, and he didn't feel the slightest chagrin because he could only see each other once a week.

This man is trying to change himself, turning the sharp blade that hurts people into bright edges and corners. He retracted all his edges, just to get her closer.

Lin Xiangwan is also changing, at least in her opinion, she has hard work. She has not burned the kitchen recently, although she has burned out four or five pots, but the chicken soup she boiled out is also decent, even if she gives it to Ye Nan to drink, Ye Nan will not secretly throw it out again.

Taking care of Chu Di, Lin Xiangwan hasn't told Ye Nan for the time being, this kid is even more stubborn than her, if she tells him directly, I'm afraid he won't be able to accept it, and when the time comes, even Lin Xiangwan can't suppress him, she has to think of a way.

Rehabilitation training is an extremely boring and painful thing, and repeated muscle stretching exercises over and over again may be extremely difficult for an able-bodied person to stick to. Lin Xiangwan has done it, so it is not easy to know it. What is rare is that Chu Di did not complain about such a painful thing, although every time he practiced, he was soaked with sweat and his whole body trembled because of the pain, but he never missed a practice, and he didn't know how many times he was honest and obedient than Lin Xiangwan.

"If you continue to practice like this, how sure are you that you can recover?" After practicing a course of treatment, Lin Xiangwan couldn't help but probe Chu Di's attending doctor.

The attending doctor knew that she was Shen Shijun's friend, so he didn't use clichés for her, and said directly, "You have also been a doctor, so I won't hide it from you, to be honest, it's very difficult, if the injury is somewhere else, it's easy to say, but it's the spine that hurts...... No one dares to give you a packing ticket and say when it will be cured. ”