I lost an arm, and I opened an eye..... Gu cheng.

After graduating from junior high school, I was admitted to a key high school in the city, but because my family didn't have any money, I had to drop out of school and work as a farmer.

My name is Chen Yu and I will be 18 years old soon.

I was born in one of the poorest villages in the poorest county in the country, and the head of the village was called Chenjiagou, and there were about twenty families. The village was very poor, and the poverty was outrageous.

I've been through a lot of darkness in my life, but only this village has given me the most terrifying childhood, and people outside can never imagine the world, and how twisted and terrifying the people in this world are.

That day, I took out my admission letter from a key high school and went home, but I was nervous, because I had already expected that my parents might not let me continue my studies.

Not only has Chen Jiagou never produced a college student, not even a high school student. In the minds of the older generation, it is useless to read too many books. When a girl reaches the age of graduating from junior high school, she should get married, and when a boy reaches this age, he should marry a daughter-in-law and start a family.

My mom has been talking about me since I'm older, that I'm going to start a family, that I don't have to be separated, that I don't have to raise me, that I look at the notice in my hand countless times, and that I'm worried about my future.

When I got home, I handed my dad the letter of admission, and he looked at it in silence for a moment, shook his head, and gave it to my mom.

As a result, my mother threw the notice into the stove, and my nine years of hard work turned to ashes in an instant.

"I ......."

Looking at the notice that was quickly burned to ashes on the stove, I was completely stunned and speechless.

"What high school do you go to, what high school do you go to." My mom is still throwing a tantrum." I don't know how to work in the fields when I'm such a big person, how can my family have the money to send you to study, I don't want to study, I marry a daughter-in-law as soon as possible, and we won't support you for the rest of your life."

Listening to these words, my tears flowed uncontrollably, but I could not say a word, looking at my mother's ugly face, I felt the urge to do something to her, but at last I resisted, I ran out, ran to the top of a mountain in the village.

It was dusk, the setting sun was reddening the clouds on the horizon, and all I could see was despair.

In the future, I have no hope, the wind is blowing on me, I think back to the events of these years, an unbearable depression is circulating in my heart, really, I am tired, I don't want to live in this ugly world again.

I've always been reticent, and when I was in school, no one knew what was going on in my heart, including my first love, Wen Xiaoxue.

I have inadvertently revealed what I have seen and heard to others, but no one has believed me, and I have never said anything about it, and I am convinced that the flowers in the greenhouse will never believe that human nature can be so cruel.

I stood on the edge of a bottomless cliff, tears streaming down my face, I couldn't understand why my parents were passing down despair from generation to generation, I couldn't understand why my world wasn't as beautiful as others said it was, why my parents were so ugly.

Let's not talk about how bad my mother was to me, just say that my grandmother, a kind old man, was killed by my mother.

I was about 10 years old, the day my grandmother died, my dad was working outside, I was swimming in the river with a few children, I came home that day, I asked where my grandma was, my mom didn't know how to answer, I didn't know how to answer at the time, I didn't ask much, but the real horror was that my grandma was missing, my dad didn't even ask.

Many days later, a passer-by found my grandmother's body in a cave, her fingers and toes had been eaten by rats, and the man who found her body said that my grandmother had scratched a lot of bloody handprints on the stone wall, probably because she didn't die after falling.

It was much later that I found out that my grandmother had been pushed off a cliff by my mother, and that day, my grandmother was a little hungry, so she went to my mother's bedroom to find something to eat, and she found a handful of noodles, and she cooked them and ate them.

When my grandmother's body was discovered, I thought my mom was going to be arrested by the police and taken to jail, but it didn't, because no one would call the police, and the police wouldn't come to investigate.

Since then, I've been so scared of my mom, I'm afraid I'm afraid she'll kill me, and she'll throw me into a dark cave. As for my dad, he's not capable of anything, and he's ugly. In rural parlance, he's very lucky to find a daughter-in-law. he's a rake.

So, my dad didn't give me any security, and when I was a kid, I had to try to please my mom so that I felt a little better than safe.

I have three scars on my body, one on my head, one on my back, and one on my calves.

When I was a child, my mother beat me out of anger when she was angry, and once she hit me with a flat pole, and hit me with a deep wound in my calf, and even the flesh inside turned out, and it was swollen for a month, and another time, she chased after me, and I ran as hard as I could, and then she picked up a rock and threw it at me, and it hit my back, leaving me with a scar forever. I remember bleeding very badly, but my mother was very happy, and after she caught me, she said, "You can't run now."

Another time, I was doing my homework, and there was only one last question left, and my mother suddenly called me, and I didn't know why, and I thought to myself, there was nothing urgent, so I decided to finish the last question, and then go and see what was going on with her.

This is my childhood. This is my family.

But going through these things doesn't get anyone's sympathy in Chenjiagou, because in this place, these are ordinary things, and some seemingly incredible things happen in Chenjiagou every three days, except for children, no one will feel terrible.

Chen San at the east end of the village is a celebrity in the neighborhood, and what he has done can be said to be angry and resentful, but in Chenjiagou, it is just a joke in the mouths of everyone.

Chen San was unmarried, he made a living by raising a breeding pig, his father died at an early age, leaving his mother to depend on him for his life, and one day, when his mother had nothing to do, he went out to the village to walk around, but he didn't expect to go home. Chen San was furious, and he even yelled at his mother: "Are you in estrus?

Chen San did what he said, and finally really pulled his mother into the pigsty, and then rubbed the breeding pig's JY on his fucking body.

After this incident came out, everyone just used it as an after-dinner conversation, and no one would blame Chen San.

There is also a widow Zhang in the west of the village, who loves to rub mahjong, and in order to rub mahjong, she even let her son be burned alive.

It was winter, and Widow Zhang and her son, who was not yet a year old, were making a fire in front of the stove at home. At about 10 o'clock, someone called her and told her to play mahjong. Widow Zhang came to the house, hurriedly changed her clothes, and left her son in front of the fire. When she came home in the middle of the night, her son had been burned to the ground, and only a few charcoal black bones remained.

There is also Chen Xiaohua in the village, who failed to graduate from elementary school at the age of fifteen, and was forced by her mother to marry a man who was twenty-five years older than her with a kitchen knife.

And when I was 13 years old, two three-year-olds died in the village, and they were bitten to death by snakes.

Here's the thing: When my mother gave birth, she was forced to make ends meet, my father was working outside the home, and after giving birth, my mother was lonely, so she left the child to her grandparents and went to my father.

Three years, the two of them did not go home once, two old men pulled the children up with a handful of and urine, father and mother did not even send a penny to the family, that spring, the busy farming season, the two old men delayed many crops because of old age and frailty, and with children. In order to finish planting the land as soon as possible, they decided to put the two children in the cellar where the sweet potatoes were stored, and covered them with stones, and then went down to the field.

The child's parents came home and scolded the two old men, and within a few days, both old men hanged themselves.

It's such a tragedy. It's a tragedy that keeps happening in our little village, I'm afraid of this village, I'm afraid of the world, I want to get out of here, I thought I could leave this horrible place forever if I got into a big high school and then went to college.

How many times have I stood here and longed to jump, to escape from this hellish world once and for all, but in the end I still didn't have the courage to jump.

Except for my poor sister.

(This character is too important, so I wrote it with a double-line plot. I was going to describe Chen Yu from Chen Song's perspective, but I found that it was not delicate enough to write like that, so I used the way of the two protagonists. What kind of story will happen between Chen Yu and Chen Song, so stay tuned.)