My sister's name is Chen Shuang, and she is only 7 years old this year, and she suffers just like me. If it weren't for worrying about her, I would have left this world a long time ago.

"Xiaoshuang.I'm sorry, my brother really can't hold on."

I closed my eyes, I really didn't want to think about her, I was afraid that I couldn't bear it, I would hesitate, and finally give up and leave this world.

"I'm really, really sorry.Xiaoshuang.Brother is completely desperate.I'm sorry.I'm going to leave you alone in this world to suffer.I'm sorry......"

But why, all that came to mind was images of her, my poor little sister, and I remember one time, she was beaten and cried by her mother, and then she ran to me, and she shook my hand and cried, and I coaxed her." Don't cry, brother, I'll get you sugar water to drink."

Xiaoshuang stopped crying, blinked and looked at me, and when I got her a bowl of sugar water and let her drink it, Xiaoshuang smiled happily." Brother, it's delicious."

I touched her head." I'll get it for you next time."

No, I can't think about it anymore.When I think of her, I feel sad.She's still so young.The suffering of this world is still waiting in line for her to endure.But there's always a voice in my heart saying to me: "Chen Yu.Do you really worry about her?"

"Chen Yu, your life can be ruined, but she is still young, are you really willing to abandon her, let her face the cruelty of this world alone?"

"Chen Yu, why can't you be a man, stand up and protect your weak sister."

"Chen Yu, you shouldn't be afraid of this world, you should conquer this world."

"Chen Yu, get out of here, you don't have an umbrella, but you can be someone else's umbrella, your sister needs your protection."

Chen Yu.You really can't be cowardly anymore.Even if you can't go to high school.You can still break out of the world on your own.This world is extremely cruel.You can be more cruel than this world.No matter how many difficulties there are.It's just waiting for you to break down step by step.They are just tools to make you stronger.

It's getting late, the night breeze is blowing, my tears are dry, my fists are clenched.

I've decided. I'm going to get out of this place.

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I turned away from the top of the hill and went back to my house. I didn't say a word, I just thought nothing had happened, I stepped into the house, my mother told me to go to the stove and make a fire as if nothing had happened, I ignored her, and went straight to the hall. Xiaoshuang was sleeping now, I wanted to talk to her, and then I ran away from home.

"Chen Yu, tell you to burn the fire, you are deaf."

My mom was yelling again, and I was afraid that she would scare Xiaoshuang, so I turned around and glared at my mom." If you bother me again, I'll kill you."

My mom was startled, her face changed, she couldn't help but take a small step back, and then I turned and walked into the room, ignoring her, she seemed to notice something, and she didn't bother me anymore.

I walked to Xiaoshuang's bed, sat next to her, looked at her, she slept peacefully, breathed evenly, I couldn't help but touch her forehead, and then said, "Xiaoshuang, brother is leaving, I can't protect you for the time being, you have to wait for me to come back, believe me, wait for the day I come back, no one in this world will dare to bully you."

Xiaoshuang has her eyes closed, it's so cute, but her hands are still bruised, she was beaten by my mother, and I feel really distressed when I look at it.

"Xiaoshuang, after I leave, you must be obedient, don't make that devil angry, you have to take care of yourself, wait for me to come back, brother promises, let you live like a princess in the future."

"Xiaoshuang, I have to leave tonight.I don't want to stay in this house for a day.You really can't reassure my brother.Brother wants to cry again.You'll take care of yourself.Right?"

I let go of Xiaoshuang's hand and put it under the covers, and I stood up and decided to take one last look at her, and then turned away.

"Brother, you'll be back soon, right?"

As soon as I turned around, a childish voice came from behind me, and my tears flowed, and I didn't dare to look back, and I didn't want her to see me crying.

I was choked up, speechless, nodding, and walking out quickly.

Walk out of the room.My mom is making tofu.She's always like this.Either tofu or hemp candy at night.My dad might have something to do outside tonight.So he hasn't come back now.

I went into the bedroom, a dilapidated mud house, packed up my clothes, threw myself out the window, walked out of the bedroom, opened the door, looked back at the house one last time, and stepped out.

"Why are you going?"

As soon as I walked out the door, my mom was right behind me and asked, "Go to the bathroom."

"Come back early and light the fire.

"Oh."

I replied faintly, I walked out of the bedroom window, it was pitch black outside, I found my luggage, put it on my back, and then left Chenjiagou.

When I walked to the entrance of the village, I looked back at this quiet little village, and my heart was mixed.

Chen Jiagou, and all the people in Chen Jiagou, you wait, I, Chen Yu, such an unknown man who is destined to live an ordinary life in your eyes, will one day, return here with dazzling brilliance, let all of you be impressed, let you understand, how wrong your life is.

You'd never have imagined that tonight, I left this place on foot, walked to the county 30 kilometers away.

When I arrived at the county seat, it was already dawn, my legs were sore, I didn't have a penny on me, I didn't starve to death, I started looking for a job without resting for a moment, and after three hours of hard work, I finally found a job washing dishes in a restaurant, a thousand yuan a month, including food and housing.

I didn't eat that morning or noon, and I finally had food in the afternoon, and I was relieved that I wouldn't starve to death.

I stayed in the county for two months, I saved 1,500 yuan, I decided to leave this place, I was going to Wenzhou, I was going to a bigger city.

When I quit my job, it was the start of the school year, and the students were going back to school, and I had to leave with my luggage.

When I got on the train, there was no one to see me off, I didn't have half a word of blessing, I looked back at the city, I didn't have any feelings.

In contrast, I longed for the outside world more, although I remembered Wen Xiaoxue at the moment, but I still didn't call her and tell her that I was leaving.

(Don't react too violently; the character was originally arranged, I just chose a different narrative.)