"Back to Westside. After getting into the car, Ma Wenrou only spit out these three words.

Li Panruo nodded, started the car and turned back the same way, the sky was bright at the moment, but his mood slowly became heavy with the atmosphere in the car, I don't know why, he was a little afraid of Ma Gentle Speaking, he was afraid of hearing a story that made him powerless.

Secretly scolding himself in his heart, Li Panruo looked at the car with his head bored, but Ma Wenrou said at this time: "Listen to a story?"

"Can I choose not to listen?" Li Banruo said stubbornly.

When Ma Wenrou heard this, a smile appeared on her originally cold face, and she glanced at Li Panruo and said, "You have to think about it, I have never taken the initiative to tell this story to others in my life." ”

"I'm the first?" Li Panruo pointed to himself in some surprise, a little flattered.

Ma nodded gently.

"Let's talk about it. Li Panruo said.

"I'm not going to talk about it, I'm tired. Ma gently closed her eyes slowly, as if at this time she showed her little woman's side.

Li Banruo's face was bitter, he really didn't know how to serve the woman next to him, for pleasing a woman, he was just a big boss, although he often pretended to be an old bird of love in front of Ah Bin, but Li Banruo knew that his trick could only be done in front of Ah Bin, as for the fairy who was gentle with the horse, his little action was easy to be self-defeating.

So he honestly shut up, and he was willing to be such a big fool.

Ma Wenrou closed his eyes, looking like he was really asleep, Li Banruo was not strange at all, after all, this was a car that had been driven all night, and no one could carry it, he quietly looked at Ma Wenrou's face, very beautiful, so beautiful that it gave people a carved feeling.

Looking down further, Li Banruo spat deeply, thinking that this woman was Ma Wenwen, he came to his senses as if he had been splashed with a basin of cold water, rubbed his dry face and continued to drive.

"When I was six years old, my mother left this poor village with my brother, and she didn't take me with her, maybe for her, I was just a burden, but a child who didn't cry or make a fuss, even if she had such a mouth, how much could she eat? ”

She finally spoke, her eyes closed, as if she was talking in a dream, and she didn't care whether Li Banruo next to her was listening or not.

Li Panruo quietly lowered the voice of navigation and did not say a word.

"My father was an alcoholic, a complete waste, the incurable kind, so I hated it, but I didn't aversion it, because without that drunkard father, I wouldn't have left the village at the age of sixteen. I didn't go to school, strictly speaking, only for half a day, and I still can't forget the lunch I had at school, which was probably the best pickle and the best porridge I've ever eaten in my life, maybe just because of that time. She said, self-deprecating, sarcasm.

"When I was sixteen years old, I was sold by my father for two thousand dollars to a mute, no wedding, no love, and even that sick man I only met once, and gave him the first time that night, a little ironic, I have forgotten what he looked like now. She said, smiling, laughing incomprehensibly.

Li Panruo's hand holding the steering wheel slowly clenched.

"A month after the so-called marriage, I fled this small village with thirty-six yuan in my hand, and went to Xicheng, although I had nothing, although I was full of strangeness to the outside world, but it was probably the happiest moment of my life, because I was free, and I could finally live as a human being, I changed my name, Ma was gentle, ambitious, and naïve enough to know how to survive in this city. She said, without the slightest wave on her face, as if what she was telling was not her story, but a drunken chatter.

"Wandering around, I met Wei, a bastard who looks a bit like you, who is more handsome than you and smiles better than you. As she spoke, Li Banruo was a little shocked, but fortunately, Ma's gentle next sentence made him find a trace of confidence.

"But he is far inferior to you, if I replaced this man with you at the beginning, maybe now I can also have a husband and children without quarrel with the world, Li Banruo, although you are a bastard, but I think that woman entrusts you with her life, it is a kind of luck, I have two or three children with you, grow old together, persuade you to smoke a few cigarettes, let you drink a little less, and occasionally have a little fight, it must be very interesting, right?" she said, like reality, but also like a fairy tale.

Li Banruo blushed, because he said such a thing, but Ma was gentle, and even this made Li Banruo feel fluttering.

"He was very good to me, really good, I was pregnant with his child when I was seventeen years old, and the year I was with him, I lived for the first time as a woman, although I was poor, although I didn't have much dignity in life, but that man, at that time, I felt that the sky was falling and I was carrying it. ”

Li Panruo moved his chapped lips, he knew very well that if the story was just that, it would not be a story, he took out the cigarette case, found the last surviving cigarette that he was not willing to smoke, and carefully put it to his mouth, but did not light it.

"In the seventh month of pregnancy, he disappeared without warning, just kissed me on the cheek at dusk, and then said go down and buy a pack of cigarettes, and never came back, if he came back, it would be nice if he came back, and when he came back, there would never be the horse gentleness he has now..."

"Seven months, I can even feel the shape of the child, I can even feel every time he naughtily kicks me in the stomach, he lives, but I end his life, I am not a good mother, but I think that if I give birth to him, it will be the greatest misfortune for him, I will not allow what happened to me to happen to him again, so let me bear all the sins alone, all this, all of which are my own fault. As she spoke, tears kept sliding down her cheeks from the corners of her eyes, this was the first time Li Banruo saw Ma's gentle tears, it turned out that this woman was stronger than anyone else.

Also crying.

It turned out that her tears were no different from the tears of a normal person.

Li Banruo bit the cigarette holder, but he was reluctant to light this cigarette.

"At that time, I was in a trance, I didn't live like a person, and the guilt pulled at my life, as if everything was the beginning of a nightmare, a nightmare that would never wake up, and even now, it is tormenting me all the time. As she spoke, the tears passed and her expression slowly calmed down again.

Li Panruo took a deep breath, he generally finally understood the idiom, that is, how much a person wants to have, how many things need to endure, Ma is gentle and bright, and the living people admire, but behind it, there is a wound that a normal person can't bear, a wound that will never heal, but it is a lifetime.

"The loan shark creditor that Wei owed me came to me, and I was stuffed into a clubhouse, like a soulless puppet, listening to four or five shirtless ugly men next to me talking and laughing, and being filmed on video, I thought that life was like this, and my own filth made me sick, and it was the darkest two years of my life, and then I ran away again, but I was caught again, and I became addicted to drugs, and then I became even more depraved. ”

Li Banruo finally lit the cigarette, took a deep breath, and continued to be silent.

And she continued: "Until I was twenty years old, I met a man, a man who was different from everyone else, and he looked at me without desire, or even any emotion, but just looked at me quietly, and then shook his head.

I learned from the mouth of others that this man's name was Wei Jiu, and he was a friend of the big boss here, and then I noticed this special man, this man who didn't seem to have any desires, didn't like to drink, and didn't smoke often, but he only liked to drink tea.

The thing in his eyes was attracted, as if the world was not all degenerate, I began to learn to make tea, I began to quit drugs, but I was born in darkness, who would allow me to see the light? That night I was beaten all over my body, I thought I was about to die, he appeared next to me, took off his suit, covered me with filth, he stretched out his hand to wipe the blood from my face, looked at my face, for a long, long time, said nothing.

He got up and left, and I struggled to get up from an unknown source, and yelled at him that I wanted to live.

He just turned around, looked at the broken me, and nodded.

That night, the club was seized, the big boss behind him committed suicide by swallowing a gun, and the businessmen who played with me all disappeared in Xicheng, just one night, all my nightmares were broken.

He walked up to me, held out his hand and said that it was going to be converted into a nightclub, and asked me if I was interested, and I looked lost, thinking that he had just taken a fancy to my filthiness, and after I had no soul to agree, I became the director of that nightclub. ”

At this moment, a smile finally appeared on her calm face again, perhaps, perhaps in the midst of losing all hope and picking up all despair, she saw hope again, life, just such a little precious, she got it all.

It was the first time she had been saved, but it seemed like the last.

Li Banruo finished smoking this cigarette, and didn't flick the short cigarette butt out until his mouth was a little hot, and continued to drive towards the crumbling Xicheng, feeling extremely heavy.

How is she moving forward?