At 22:00, there was no news, and Xiaoxiao, who had slept all night in a daze, turned over and glanced at his mobile phone.

01:36 No missed calls and no messages. With 10% of the battery left, Xiaoxiao reached out and pulled the charging cable in the bag and plugged it in.

3:53 Zhang Xiaoxiao turned on the phone screen again, so quiet that she wondered if the phone had no signal, she used her mobile phone to dial her number again, she was on the phone, everything was normal.

Zhang Xiaoxiao, who had slept for too long at 5:41, finally couldn't help but turn on the nightlight at the bedside, and started watching videos boredly, but there was still no message on her phone.

She stayed out alone all night, no one felt strange, neither the family nor Yan'er came to disturb her again, only Mu Chaoyang sent a text message at 6 o'clock, asking her if she was busy and didn't forget to eat.

So she was obedient and went downstairs to serve a bowl of fried rice and ate it cleanly.

All night, Yu Yan's phone did not come, and this continued until the next morning.

Zhang Xiaoxiao, who came out of the unit, did not go to Mu Chaoyang, she opened a room alone in the hotel by the river in Z City, and sat by the window until dawn.

It happened so suddenly, she was just sluggish before, and her fear slowly melted in her heart as time passed.

Looking down at the pinholes that were almost invisible to her fingertips, what had happened yesterday gave her a sense of unreality. Whether it's going to the detention center, scolding Ping Yanli, or waiting for news all night......

Just like Yu Yan understands Xiaoxiao, she also knows Yu Yan very well.

If the result is good, even if it is three or four o'clock in the morning, Yu Yan can't wait to tell her the good news.

And the mobile phone, which is still silent, has made her guess the result - I'm afraid it's not good news.

At this time, Zhang Xiaoxiao began to think about what kind of life she would live if she was diagnosed.

Thankfully, because of her work, she will definitely be able to get a large amount of compensation, and the state and the unit will also give her parents help as much as they can.

Before getting out of that haze period, Zhang Xiaoxiao tried all kinds of exciting amusement projects like crazy, looking forward to a dignified "accident" death, and at the same time exchanged a large amount of insurance compensation for his family, even if he was worthy of his parents.

Unexpectedly, this "wish" turned out to be so close many years later.

At this time, she thought of a person - Shu Ling.

At the Center for Disease Control and Prevention, Xiaoxiao assisted Yu Yan to come into contact with many HIV carriers or AIDS patients, but because of various coincidences, no matter whether she is living or dying now, Shu Ling is the one she really cares about.

When she received Yu Yan's call, Xiaoxiao was driving to Shuling Cemetery on the way, unlike the cemetery in N City, the historic Changning Cemetery in Z City is located in the bustling city center, miraculously surrounded by people and bustling business districts, leaving only a mountain of cleanliness.

"Positive, right?" Xiaoxiao listened to Yu Yan being there for a long time, and couldn't help but say for her: "The test results of No. 235." ”

Zhang Xiaoxiao was not surprised by this result, after she calmed down, she could guess that 235 was not only a person with HIV, but also that he knew it.

Compared with the two, Shu Ling's existence is particularly precious, he has a sense of social responsibility and is afraid that he will become a source of infection. It was precisely because of his excess sense of responsibility and self-esteem that his tragedy was caused.

"Xiaoxiao, you know?" Yu Yan's tone was full of tiredness and hoarseness, and she must have been tossing for a long time when she heard that she had got the result.

"Hmm. The laughter didn't fluctuate much, "It's okay. ”

These three words, she didn't know if she was saying it to Yu Yan or to herself.

At the bus station in the business district, a large group of people went down in an uproar, and the whole carriage suddenly became empty, and the next stop was Changning Cemetery.

"Actually...... Laugh, don't worry. Yu Yan began to persuade her, "Of the 6,135 similar cases recorded, only 20 colleagues were actually infected, you see, how low the proportion is......

"I haven't found anything in my blood sample yet, have I?" at this time it was still within the window period, and the answer was self-evident, but she still couldn't help but ask.

"No, I don't. Yu Yan tried to make her voice sound pleasant, "At least that's good news, isn't it?"

The two tacitly did not point out the meaninglessness of this answer.

"Well, good news. Xiaoxiao glanced at the bus about to arrive, "Next week, I will prepare to go back to the unit to draw blood, before the results are ...... At home, I hope I'm always on a business trip. ”

"Don't worry. Yu Yan agreed, "Director Yi, I said hello, he said let you have a good rest, don't think about it anymore, it's a holiday." ”

How many times has this been "taken off"? Zhang Xiaoxiao laughed at herself, as if this kind of thing would not be a good thing.

knew that Shu Ling was finally buried in the Changning Tomb thanks to Mu Chaoyang's information, but where he "lived", Zhang Xiaoxiao didn't know at all.

It doesn't matter, I'm afraid the most she has now is time.

The results weren't terrible, but waiting for them was long enough to torture people to exhaustion, and she needed to find something to do for herself.

Ben was ready to fight a protracted battle, but Zhang Xiaoxiao didn't expect to foresee Shu's mother here.

She and Shu's mother only had a few faces, and after the funeral, Shu's parents made a special trip to invite her to have a meal with Mu Chaoyang, saying that they were grateful.

She didn't know how the two old men who had lost their children were in to feast on the people who helped them bury their sons, but if they didn't eat it, she was afraid that she would be even more upset.

When she came to the bottom of the mountain, a car stopped beside her, and the window rolled down, revealing Shu's mother's face.

"Doctor Zhang, ...... you" Shu's mother originally wanted to ask her what she was doing, but she didn't think it was appropriate. Also, what else can you do here?

"Hello Auntie. Xiaoxiao greeted her obediently, "Chaoyang said that he dreamed of Shu Ling, so I came to take a look." ”

This lie was very clumsy, Mu Chaoyang dreamed that why did he let Zhang Xiaoxiao laugh?

But when Shu's mother heard this, she was sad, and she didn't even notice that something was wrong.

"It's good that you remember him...... I'm also here to see his ......" But after saying a word, Shu's mother burst into tears at the corners of her eyes and reached out to wipe it.

"You don't know the exact location yet, do you...... I'll take you there, get in the car. Feeling her gaffe, Shu's mother immediately changed the topic, wanting to make the chat between the two seem less awkward.

Shu Ling's tomb is still a new tomb, surrounded by plots of land, and no monuments have been built, only he "lives" here alone.

The chrysanthemums by the tombstone are fresh, Shu's mother brought them over just now, she took a smile and walked over, "Son, look, who came to see you?"

Zhang Xiaoxiao was a little embarrassed, she made a temporary decision and came in a hurry. I met Shu's mother at the door again just now, and the two came over after chatting all the way, at this time she was empty-handed, and she didn't even bring incense.

"I ...... Go down and buy some incense. She said embarrassedly, "Auntie, I also know the place, and I'll come up by myself in a while." ”

"It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter. Shu's mother waved her hand, "He must be very happy if you can come, don't stick to those false things." ”

When her aunt said this, she couldn't insist on smiling, so she bowed twice in front of the tomb and stepped aside.

Shu's mother actually just went down from here, and she had already cleaned up the weeds and dead branches here, but when she came up again, she started to work again.

Xiaoxiao stood aside to help her, and the two chatted.

"Why did Auntie come to see him today?" asked Xiaoxiao, unless she had such a special situation, it stands to reason that everyone would only come here during special festivals.

Shu's mother was silent for a while, making Xiaoxiao think that she was too presumptuous to ask and was remorseful, she said, "Actually...... I come every week and come when it's okay. ”

"I'm not afraid of your jokes. Shu's mother stroked the cold tombstone, a little in a trance, "His father said that I was stunned, and I came here as diligently as buying groceries, running at two ends in three days." ”

She pointed to the car at the bottom of the mountain, "Originally, I learned a driver's license, and I haven't driven it for so many years, but I run every day, his father is annoyed, and I can't scream, so I bought a car myself and learned to drive." ”

"Look around him is bare," said Shu's mother, "and if I don't come, how lonely he will be." You young people are busy and have no time to spare, and I, an old woman, have nothing to say. ”

In less than a year, Shu's mother in front of her has aged a lot, and her whole person has lost any brilliance, she just stroked Shu Ling's tombstone over and over again.

"Hey, I'm here for my son......" Her mobile phone rang, and Shu's mother picked up the phone, "Can't you cook lunch yourself......?"

The other end of the phone seemed to be accusing her, and Shu's mother's tone rose, "If you don't come, forget it." Don't talk too much......"

The two quarreled over the phone, and Zhang Xiaoxiao, who was standing on the side, couldn't say a word.

When Shu's mother hung up the phone angrily, Xiaoxiao asked her carefully: "Auntie, is it...... Uncle's phone?"

"yes. She put away her phone and looked aggrieved, "I didn't hold back my temper just now." ”

"Uncle is also for Auntie's good, don't be angry. He smiled and persuaded him.

Shu's mother shook her head and said, "I know that too...... He's afraid I'll be sad when I come, but won't I be sad if I don't come......"

"Forget it, Dr. Zhang, I'll take you out, and I should go back and cook for the old man...... Save him from worrying. ”

"Auntie, go back first, Mu Chaoyang will come to pick me up later. She politely declined Shu's mother's kindness and lied again.

Shu's mother sorted out her sad emotions, tried to squeeze out a smile, and told Xiaoxiao: "Xiao Mu is a good child, cherish it." ”

Xiaoxiao was stunned for a moment, and responded randomly, she thought that she was acting so obviously, so that Shu's mother could see the clues?

"Shu Ling, do you regret it?" After Shu's mother left, Xiaoxiao squatted in front of Shu Ling's tombstone and asked him, "Look, your mother is so sad." ”

Is it useful? She was asking Shu Ling and asking herself, what if she left a large sum of money to her parents, and what about the arrangements left for her parents to spend their old age in peace, no matter how hard they tried, the pain they had could not be healed.

If they choose to leave on their own, they are doomed to fail their loved ones who love them.

Zhang Xiaoxiao is now left alone in the entire park of Changning Mountain, who is in the downtown without cars and horses, giving her the illusion that this is her homecoming.