Chapter 85: The Finale (Part II)
After that, there was a moment of silence between us, an embarrassing silence like a dead silence, I hung my head slightly, and Zhou Yaze stared at me deadly.
After a long time, he asked softly, "Why? Just because your daughter jumped?"
I lowered my head and nodded slightly, and replied to him in a hoarse voice: "Jumping is one of the reasons, she has never accepted the reality of her parents' divorce in her heart. At the same time, I also considered a number of factors......"
Speaking of this, I raised my head, looked at Zhou Yaze, and said to him earnestly with a somewhat sad expression: "I have considered many factors, and the resistance between us...... Too much. It wasn't until yesterday that I really understood my daughter's voice, and I also knew that I had never been a qualified mother, and on the issue of divorcing Xu Minghui, I only considered my own feelings, but ignored the great harm to my daughter. Jumping this child, the personality is a little like me, stubborn, on the surface I don't care, how do you love it, I see you quarrel every day and are annoyed, just leave, this kind of thing, but in fact, she has a very heavy mind. ”
Speaking of this, I let out a long sigh and continued: "When I divorced Xu Minghui, she insisted on following her father, not with me, in fact, she wanted me to be energetic, she didn't understand my original intention of divorce, and she didn't agree with my divorce. At the same time, during my marriage to Xu Minghui, I also had problems......"
Speaking of this, my expression seemed even more bleak and helpless, I paused for a moment, and then said slowly: "I am not a woman with a particularly good temper, when I married Xu Minghui, I was still very young, I didn't know how to be a qualified wife and mother, and Xu Minghui has been married for so many years, it can be said that I have been groping through." Xu Minghui's derailment, of course, is at his fault, but I am not without responsibility at all, we usually lack the necessary communication and understanding, which to a certain extent prompts Xu Minghui to find spiritual sustenance in other women. At the same time, for me, although I gave a lot, I ended up with a thankless end. Maybe it was because I was unwilling, so when I really heard Xu Minghui's heart, my heart was cold, so I resolutely chose divorce to solve the problem between me and him. ”
Speaking of this, I looked at Zhou Yaze, tears gradually appeared in my eyes, and I muttered to him: "Yaze, you haven't entered into marriage yet, you may not know, in fact, ordinary people's families, husband and wife can really respect each other until they are old, very rare, many couples are sewing and mending after problems and then going to do so." Therefore, in fact, I resolutely chose to divorce Xu Minghui at the beginning, instead of reflecting on the huge problems in our marriage, and then giving the other party a chance, which is not considered. Because of this, it has caused irreparable damage to my daughter's psychology, after all, even if Xu Minghui and I form our own families in the future, this family is incomplete for Hopping, and her biological parents are only one pair. ”
Zhou Yaze listened to my statement silently for a long time, and then he raised his head and said to me solemnly: "What I can guarantee is that if we get married, I can treat Hop Hop like my own child, and I will never treat her worse than her biological father." ”
I looked at Zhou Yaze's serious and solemn eyes, I knew that he was a true husband who said that he would be successful, and at that moment, the feelings in my heart were really mixed, moving, sad, and bitter......
I stared at Zhou Yaze blankly, and then muttered to him: "I believe in your words, and I also believe that you will definitely be able to do it, and even better than Xu Minghui." In all fairness, you are much stronger than Xu Minghui in everything, no matter from appearance, to ability, to knowledge, it can be said that you are better than him in every aspect more than a star and a half, but there is only one point, you can't do it, that is, blood and family, no matter how good you are to Jump, but in this world, there is only one biological father of Jumping, he is Xu Minghui, you have to admit that blood and family are irreplaceable by anything. ”
Hearing me say this, Zhou Yaze smiled bitterly, admittedly, this is indeed something he can't reach, although he has tried his best.
He sat there with his head bowed and silent, and I felt very uncomfortable looking at his silent and slightly sad expression.
After a moment, he raised his head and asked softly, "In that case, between us, there is no return, right?"
Hearing him say this, my heart was even more uncomfortable, I couldn't meet his bright eyes, so I had to bow my head slightly, and murmured in a low voice: "I'm sorry, Yaze......"
Hearing my "I'm sorry", Zhou Yaze smiled bitterly, and he said to me helplessly: "What do you say I'm sorry for? You don't have anything to be sorry for me, I just didn't expect you to give up so easily." ”
This sentence suddenly forced my tears out, and I choked up and said to Zhou Yaze: "I'm sorry, Yaze, I actually really loved you, I swear, the love you gave me is the most beautiful relationship I have ever experienced in my life." It's just something...... It's ...... I can't control," I said, looking up at him with teary eyes, and muttering to him, "Maybe a woman like me, who has been divorced once and has become a mother, should not expect such a beautiful relationship anymore." So, if my presence has caused you harm, I sincerely apologize......"
Hearing my words, Zhou Yaze smiled bitterly again, sighed long, raised his eyes to look at my teary eyes, got up, and pulled two tissues from the paper tube on the coffee table for me.
I whispered, "Thank you......" and gently wiped the tears from my face.
Seeing that I was gradually calming down, Zhou Yaze leaned forward and approached me, looked at me and said to me earnestly: "Haichao, you said that you are reflecting on your own wrongs, apologizing for this, and feeling guilty for that." I can tell you bluntly here, I don't need your apology, I am an adult, I can take responsibility for my actions, and if I fall in love with you, no matter what the result is, I will not regret it, and I have the ability to bear all the consequences. But looking back, do you reflect on your marriage to Xu Minghui, sorry, did he accept your affection? On the other hand, did he really reflect on his mistakes? Did he sincerely apologize to you for the harm his behavior caused to your mother and daughter?"
I lowered my head slightly and murmured to him, "I think after going through so much, he should also have a deeper reflection and repentance in his heart." ”
Zhou Yaze sighed softly, he looked at me and asked, "You said that there is too much resistance, not just your daughter's jumping?"
I glanced at Zhou Yaze and whispered to him: "Yaze, to be honest, your mother and even your family are also a reason for my concerns. Speaking of this, my tone became heavy and soothing, and I said earnestly to Zhou Yaze, "Yaze, I'm not young anymore, even if I don't remarry Xu Minghui and enter another marriage, I hope it will be a calm and warm marriage, but if I really want to marry into the Zhou family, there are too many problems in all aspects." First of all, a family like yours is in the limelight, and there are many requirements for daughters-in-law. My age and my divorce and the status quo of having children will become other objects of criticism, which will cast a shadow on you and me after marriage. Besides, our marriage was originally opposed by your parents, if we insist on disobeying their wishes and entering into marriage, there will inevitably be a lot of stumbles in this married life, and the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law get along......"
At this point, I glanced at Zhou Yaze, and my eyes were filled with helplessness, and I whispered to him: "Yaze, if I were still very young, I could take these experiences as a necessary lesson in life, but I am no longer young, and I don't have that mind, and like an ignorant little daughter-in-law, I will grow into a qualified daughter-in-law in the eyes of my in-laws and even relatives and friends, Yaze, please understand my hardship." ”
After listening to me, Zhou Yaze frowned slightly, and said to me helplessly: "Haichao, I think that if this is also a reason for you to give up the relationship between you and me, it is because you are too worried." ”
Then he got up and approached me slightly, and whispered to me: "First of all, my mother is not an ignorant woman, she is well-educated, so no matter how much she is dissatisfied with you, as long as we are officially married, she will be polite to you on the surface. If she's picky about your words when you're alone, I don't think you'll be too concerned about it as long as it's not a big problem. If her words are excessive, I will not sit idly by, and I will definitely coordinate with them at that time and not let you be wronged. ”
Hearing Zhou Yaze's sonorous and powerful assurance, I felt very complicated and moved in my heart, and at the same time, I was more helpless.
I raised my head to look at him and whispered to him, "Yaze, do you believe that since you said so, you will definitely defend me after marriage." So about your mother, and your family's resistance, it's just a small part of the reason why I chose to give up our relationship, and the main reason is because of my daughter's jump. As I spoke, I said to Zhou Yaze more earnestly, "Yaze, do you know? This child is not a sensible child, the reason for this is that in addition to my lack of education, and her grandparents spoiled her too much, another reason is that this child's personality has the characteristics of being stubborn and untamable. This personality is innate, so to educate such a child, there must be someone by her side to watch her at all times and supervise her until she has the ability to distinguish between right and wrong. Jumping chose to go with her father after I divorced her father, in fact, she just wanted me to be hard, she didn't want us to divorce, and she also knew that she would go on like a wild horse for a long time, and I couldn't let go of her, so in fact, the child was the main reason why I chose to remarry Xu Minghui. ”
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