"Senior brother, I want to see him, please arrange it. ”

"Why are you doing this, it has happened, and he ......"

"Senior brother, I'm sorry for you. Lin Xiangwan accentuated his tone and interrupted Shen Shijun's words expressionlessly, "If it's inconvenient for you, I'll find someone else." ”

Even if Shen Shijun didn't help her, she would be able to find him. Merely......

Only Lin Xiangwan knew in her heart how much she didn't want to see him, but she had to see him, she had something to ask him, she had known him for ten years, and she had never had such an urgent desire to see him.

Shen Shijun knew that it was useless to say more, so he nodded helplessly, "You must see, just see, he is downstairs." ”

In the high-end wards of the municipal hospital, the corridors are also quiet, and young and beautiful professional nurses wear well-tailored uniforms, appearing and disappearing in the corridors.

Chu Di lives in a single room, as soon as he pushes open the door, there is a whole floor-to-ceiling glass window, the autumn sun gently sprinkles in, he is half lying on the hospital bed, is closing his eyes and letting the nurse send needles to his veins, the young girl, probably once seen him in financial impurities, with a faint smile on her face, so while asking him about the lace news in the financial world, while busy with the things in hand, Chu Di does not say much, but every word can make the little girl laugh for a long time, this warm and dazzling scene in Lin Xiangwan looks like it can be used as a hospital advertisement, to show the world。

"Be careful not to get wet, and if there's anything you want, ring the bell and call me. After finishing the task in hand, the little nurse left the room, and when she saw Lin Xiangwan, she was slightly stunned, "Who are you? ”

"I'm not his family, I have something to look for him. Lin Xiangwan's voice was cold, Chu Di opened his eyes suddenly, looked at her, and felt that his heart was about to be cold.

"Miss Nurse, this is my friend, please be accommodating. ”

Although the little nurse was not happy, her heart softened when she saw Chu Di's half-pleading gaze. Turning his head, he snorted lightly, and passed by Lin Xiangwan.

The afternoon sun stretched her figure very long, and she stood in the doorway, looking depressed and sad, and even the air around her body became cold and lonely because of her breath.

"You...... Are you okay?" Chu Di opened his mouth with difficulty, his voice seemed to be blocked in his throat, and he couldn't get it out.

Lin Xiangwan didn't answer, but raised his head and looked directly at him.

Her eyes were a beautiful amber color, like a pool of honey that could not be stirred, but at the moment it burned his heart, she didn't say a word, but Chu Di could clearly hear the resentment in her heart, she hated him because of another man.

Words can deceive, but eyes don't. He remembered her gaze like this, at her father's funeral, in the hallway where she met him again.

"Xu Yunqi ......"

"Don't say his name, you don't deserve to say his name, his name shouldn't be spoken by someone like you. Lin Xiangwan opened his mouth coldly, and his eyes were still glued to Chu Di.

"Don't mention him, then what are you here for?" Chu Di's heart tingled.

Lin Xiangwan took a step forward, "I just want to ask you, do you have a heart? Will you hurt? I have always wanted to ask you a long time ago, but I have never had a chance, at first I was afraid of you, afraid that asking such a question would cause me some kind of trouble, and then later, I hate you, I wish you died, I wish I had never known you, your answer, for me, it is not important." But now, I don't know what kind of mood I have for you, I've known you for ten years, but I never seem to have understood you, Chu Di, do you have a heart?"

She was so close to him, so close that he could grab her with just one stretch of his hand, but Chu Di felt that she had never been so far away from him.

"You asked me such a question because of another man, Lin Xiangwan, is your brain broken?" Cong Cong's anger began to ignite in Chu Di's chest, if he didn't have a heart, how could he make himself so embarrassed? If he didn't have a heart, how could he have her today, and him today?! If he didn't have a heart......

All of this should have ended a long time ago, shouldn't it?

"You're asking me such stupid questions just because you feel weak. Don't you know that my solution at that time was the most beneficial to the three of us? Xu Yunqi didn't close the door, it was the three people who died, and if he had gone later, the result would have been the same! You obviously knew that what I had done was not wrong, but now you came to question me? Why? Just because he died and I lived? Then I ask you, what if we changed positions? If it was me who died that day, would you question him because of this?!"

She won't.

She may distance herself from Xu Yunqi from now on, and she may not treat him as a friend again, but she will never come to question him like this. Because for her, Xu Yunqi is not such a close person.

She couldn't tell what kind of relationship she and Chu Di had now, so far away, so close.

Maybe we are just easy to be unscrupulous with the people close to us, but we just rely on having their love, and we can get carried away until that love becomes cold and lost, and then we regret it.

Lin Xiangwan bit her lip and didn't speak, but her expression already said everything, and she also knew that Chu Di was right, Xu Yunqi was injured at that time, but he didn't lose his ability to move, three died, or one died, this kind of simple multiple-choice question, no one would choose wrong.

But she just can't forgive. Maybe she can understand if there is another person, but this person is Chu Di...... She couldn't help it......

"Just because I used to do things that hurt you, no matter what I do now, it's not right?Just because I used to be a bastard in your eyes, I have nothing to do, even if I live, it will make you feel disgusted?Lin Xiangwan ...... You ask me if I have a heart, I want to ask you, what is your heart made of? I have done everything I can to make up for the mistakes I have made, but why don't you even give me a chance? Even if I am a heinous criminal, the court will give him a chance to appeal, but what have you given me? What have you done other than to push me away, push me away, and push me away for all sorts of reasons? The only mercy you have given me is just to destroy me at last, what about your heart? What is wrong with your heart? ”

There are some things that I have a headache after thinking too much, but I have figured it out, but I feel distressed.

Chu Di had never said it so clearly as he did today, because in his heart, he always owed her.

Because he owes her, because he loves her, he tolerates all her willfulness and indifference.

But this time, he didn't owe her anything more.

"I ......" Lin Xiangwan wanted to explain, but when he opened his mouth, he didn't know what to say, Chu Di closed his eyes extremely tired, "You go out, I don't want to see you again, I don't want to hear your voice again, if you think what I said is wrong, it doesn't matter, the Tao is different, don't conspire with each other, I don't want to be so tired, and I don't want to let myself be so humble anymore." ”

He used to be a high-minded person, and the sight of people made people feel cold, but in front of her, he restrained all his pride and was willing to be humble, but now, he didn't want to.

Because he knew that no matter how much he paid, she was just indifferent, and such fatigue was like climbing mountains and wading through rivers to reach the utopia of his dreams, only to find that it was just another desert, desperate to the extreme.

Lin Xiangwan didn't know when he left the room, and when he left, his steps almost staggered, if it was in normal times, Chu Di might feel distressed because of this, but now, he just felt tired.

I was so tired that I didn't even want to open my eyes, and I couldn't sleep for a long time.

I don't know how long later, the door was opened again, and he opened his eyes and saw Shen Shijun standing at the door.

"Mr. Shen, are you here to see the joke? I'm sorry, you're a step late. Chu Di had returned to his usual state at the moment, and his calm and indifferent tone made it impossible to see the torment and bitterness in his heart.

Shen Shijun lowered his head and looked through the medical records hanging in front of his bed, "You are always like this, and it is not a way, she has always been stubborn, and you don't know it...... Why should you...... You're really not going to tell her about your injuries?"

"If she really cares, she will definitely ask, and she has been in for so long, except for saying something that pierces my heart, she doesn't care about my life or death, such a person, why should I bother to tell her?"

Or in her heart, a hard-hearted person like him is even made of fine iron, and he won't die, hurt, or feel pain at all?

But she forgot that no matter how strong he is, he is also a human being, as long as he is a human being, he will not escape life, old age, sickness and death.

"But if you become like this, she will know sooner or later, you just want her to blame herself, don't you? Mr. Chu, you are angry in your heart now, so you will say these words, but you are not really willing to make her sad, right? I, the junior sister, others don't know, don't you understand? She has always been stubborn and soft-hearted, you treated her like that before, she didn't put up with it in the end......

"It used to be before, now that her wings are stiff, she can't use me anymore, she can't wait to kick me away, how can she care about me and endure me? Mr. Shen, I don't have the good cultivation like you, I know that there is no hope, but I can always endure and wait. My patience has been exhausted by her, even if she regrets it one day, it is useless, what she says, the water that is spilled, is always the most difficult to take back, I have always been stingy, me and her, it is impossible in this life!"