The afternoon sun was clear, after Qinghuan parked the car, he walked slowly along the side street according to the address given by Zhao Meixin, this street has not changed much, it is almost the same as before he left, and finally came to the door of a café, and before he entered the door, he saw Zhao Meixin sitting alone by the window through the floor-to-ceiling window, with her hair pulled behind her head casually, looking down at her mobile phone.

Qing Huan pushed the door in, came to the table where she was sitting, and shouted softly: "Meixin......"

Zhao Meixin paused, raised her head, looked at her, her eyes burst with brilliance, and she stood up suddenly: "Qinghuan!"

Qing Huan put the gift she brought to her on the chair next to her, walked over, and reached out to hug her. Both of them had wet eyes. The two haven't seen each other for many years, sitting together as if they have endless words, Zhao Meixin listened to her talk about her affairs abroad in the past few years, her eyes showed a look of envy from time to time, and sighed leisurely in the gap between the pauses, "Qinghuan, I really envy you." ”

"What do I have to envy, I haven't eaten less for so many years, and I am tossed by the boss and customers every day, how can you live a leisurely life?" Qing Huan smiled, "I heard my mother say that you are already a mother of two children, why didn't you bring the children out for me today?"

Zhao Meixin smiled, with a hint of astringency in her eyes, "The eldest is in kindergarten, the second child is still young, and he usually spends more time being taken care of by his grandparents, and when I came out today, the second child was already asleep, so I didn't bring it out, and now I am really leisurely, and sometimes I even doubt what the meaning of life is, and a life like mine, when will it be a ......?"

Qing Huan watched her raise her hand and comb her hair, but there was already a very thin wrinkle at the corner of her eye. I remembered what happened to Wu Qingfeng in the mall yesterday, and suddenly felt a little uncomfortable in my heart, and reached out to hold her hand, "You weren't such a negative personality before, what has happened over the years? ”

Zhao Meixin's face showed a bitter smile, "I think, marriage is probably the way to change a person the most, only when you get married, can you deeply experience all the original longing and disillusionment feelings, and can you understand how helpless and desperate it is to really transform from a girl to a woman." ”

Qing Huan was stunned for a moment, and didn't know what to say for a while, Zhao Meixin, who she knew before, always looked heartless, where could she say such a thing.

An afternoon is spent on a cup of coffee and a sofa. Qing Huan quietly listened to Zhao Meixin chatting about what had happened around her in the past five years.

After Zhao Meixin and Wu Qingfeng got married, Zhao Meixin's father arranged Wu Qingfeng to work in his own company, Wu Qingfeng was very smart, very diligent and studious, and soon his business was thriving, and he was also appreciated by Zhao Meixin's father, and the work assigned to him gradually became important.

The work is important, naturally it is busier than before, and the time he left for Zhao Meixin began to decrease, during her pregnancy, she was still warm and warm, and many things were more attentive, but after she gave birth to a child, Wu Qingfeng took her parents over to take care of her on the grounds that she was very busy with work, and she gradually began to go out early and return late, and the time for the two to meet every day was pitiful, at the beginning, Zhao Meixin didn't care because of the reason for taking care of the child, and when she slowly recalled it and felt that something was wrong, she found on Wu Qingfeng's mobile phone that he hadn't had time to delete, and the company's new female intern's ambiguous chat history。

At that time, Zhao Meixin was so angry that her whole body trembled, she never thought that she had been married for less than a year, Wu Qingfeng actually treated herself like this, she almost smashed her mobile phone on the face of the drunk Wu Qingfeng, but after the anger in her heart gradually subsided, she thought about it calmly again, whether it was because of her own emotional factors or because of the child, she didn't want to divorce Wu Qingfeng yet, if she didn't want to divorce, then she would definitely not be able to make a big deal about it, so as not to end it in the end, so she used thunderous means to drive the female intern out of the company, and had a showdown with Wu Qingfeng, if she was found out by herself again, then the two would divorceWhen the time comes, the child and the property will be his own, and he will get nothing.

Wu Qingfeng assured her very sincerely at that time that things like this would never happen again, and he obediently commuted to and from work on time every day, and many so-called entertainments were also reduced, Zhao Meixin's heart suddenly settled down a little, thinking that as long as he could reform himself and live with himself wholeheartedly, then he could treat those things before him as if they had never happened, so she never mentioned this matter to anyone again.

Qing Huan couldn't help but sigh softly when she heard this, "Meixin, you are so stupid." ”

Zhao Meixin's eyes were wet all of a sudden, and she choked up and said: "I'm really stupid, stupid enough to think that I can warm a heart as cold as a stone, but I don't know that if a man doesn't love you, whether you love you or not, whether you give him what he wants, give birth to children for him, these are useless, without you in his heart, everything is in vain." ”

It's a pity that when Zhao Meixin understood this truth, many things were late, when she was pregnant with her second child, Wu Qingfeng suddenly announced that she wanted to come out of her father's company and start her own business, and the business scope of the company he established coincided with most of her father's company.

At this time, Zhao Meixin knew that he and the female intern had not been broken, and after the woman left the company, he asked someone to get her into a customer's company, and the two have been disconnected to this day. And since Wu Qingfeng opened his own company, he has become more and more unscrupulous with that woman, and many times he will not shy away from it in public, in the face of all this, Zhao Meixin is powerless, and can only swallow the bitter water desperately. Now her married life with Wu Qingfeng is only a formality, and in fact, it is normal for Wu Qingfeng not to go home for a long time.

The twilight came down little by little, Qing Huan and Zhao Meixin went to dinner at a nearby restaurant again, she ordered two bottles of red wine, poured them in the glass, and drank them slowly with Qing Huan one by one, and when the two bottles of wine were about to bottom out, Qing Huan was already a little drunk, Zhao Meixin closed her eyes, leaned on the sofa, smiled and said, "Qing Huan, do you know?" I really envy you, you have been braver and more decisive than me since you were a child, and if you say you don't love it, you can immediately turn around and live your own life, without any mud and water, which is like me, living your life like this, it is really a failure. ”

Qing Huan was silent and took another sip of wine.

Zhao Meixin smiled bitterly again: "But I sometimes think that if I listened to you, I was not so stubborn, I didn't tie my happiness to a man, worked harder, worked harder, and took over my father's company alone, would my life be different? Although I can't live as wonderfully as you, at least, I will walk on a different path." But then I thought, different is different. I can't do it. I can't work as hard as you, I can't be as brave as you, I can't suffer so much. I have also considered whether to divorce Wu Qingfeng, and I can live a good life by myself, but when I think of the wind and rain I will face after leaving him, I can't help but be afraid, and I will say to myself, forget it, bear with it. Life is not like this, why suffer that, why take that risk, in case of failure. As long as he still has children in his heart and is unwilling to file for divorce with me, I will be able to spend the rest of my life in peace, and what if the conditions are worse after the divorce. So I just wanted to make do with it for the rest of my life, and it wouldn't be bad. But ......" she cried, "I just don't want to admit that my life is a mess." Obviously I didn't do anything wrong, but like most people, I wasn't brave enough, I didn't work hard enough, I just wanted to live my life in peace. But every time I ask myself, I find that I have never really had anything in the past 30 years, but many good things have gradually left me, and now I am like a walking corpse, numb, but I can't end this life. ”

Qinghuan's tears fell suddenly, hugged her and said: "What are you talking about stupidly, it's not like this at all, Meixin, you are the kindest, most upright, and most sincere person I have ever met, you deserve a better life, who won't meet a scumbag in this life......?"

Zhao Meixin hugged her arm, tears kept flowing down, "Qinghuan, I also want to be like what you said, but I don't dare, every time I see two children, they are still so young, what if I can't give them a better life in the future? What if they suffer with me? But if they are not by my side, I can't endure that kind of life, so I have no way, I can only endure, even if it is for the sake of the children......"

Qing Huan drank the wine in the cup in one gulp, and she suddenly felt very uncomfortable. I never thought that life could wreak havoc on a person like this, it turns out that this is the true face of the years. Some people stop moving, some people gradually go away, some people are unwilling to be ordinary, and some people are willing to live in mediocrity, but in the end we are all losing and moving forward in loss.