Chapter 27: I Hide a Grain of Sand in My Heart
The aroma of the food gave people an extremely warm feeling, Lin Xiangwan felt that at that moment, her soul was in place, she raised her head suddenly, and said to Xu Yunqi, "Old Xu, what do you think of me? I think you're very good, let's get married." β
Lin Xiangwan thought very simply, since the senior sister said that if the family environment in which the child grows up will have a great impact on his future personality, and she doesn't have much confidence in her own character, then why can't she find a relatively safer person for Ye Nan to accompany him to grow up?
Xu Yunqi is a very good person, but he will not be a bad person, he has responsibility and can carry things, maybe unlike the men Lin Xiangwan has contacted in the past, he does not have their deep background, but he is also not involved, he can be his own master. Most importantly, he is single.
Most women still hope that they can rely on something, although Lin Xiangwan feels that she can bring Ye Nan well alone, but the words of the senior sister have been lingering in her mind.
She didn't dare to bet on Ye Nan's future, she couldn't afford to gamble.
In addition, although she didn't admit it, Chu Di's appearance still caused her a certain amount of trouble, no matter what the purpose was, he pestered her, if she got married, then all this would end naturally.
It was her fault before, she gave him the so-called opportunity, then later, it won't.
Lin Xiangwan feels that marriage is just two people living together, and there are many marriages without love in these years, as for married life...... Although she hasn't thought about it carefully yet, it won't be too bad, Lao Xu doesn't look like a person with x violence, and the first few years with Chu Di have already trained her, and some things, as soon as you grit your teeth and close your eyes, it will pass.
It's just that Lin Xiangwan thought that she was very thoughtful, but when she asked this, she still felt that she was abrupt, because marriage is not a trivial matter after all, although she thought it clearly, she didn't know what Xu Yunqi thought, and hoped that Xu Yunqi would not think that she was insane.
And Xu Yunqi is worthy of seeing a big scene, after listening to Lin Xiangwan's question, he was only slightly stunned, and then smiled, "This kind of thing, it's not good to make a decision now, right? β
Although the answer was not very satisfying, he did not run away, and Lin Xiangwan also felt content.
Breakfast was a little quiet, Xu Yunqi was probably thinking about Lin Xiangwan's words, and Lin Xiangwan was focused on the case, even if Su Cen gave her a marriage, but the work habits she had developed still made it impossible for her to put them aside before the work at hand was done. Only Ye Nan was very happy at the table, because he practiced kung fu with Xu Yunqi two years earlier, so he was very familiar with Xu Yunqi, and he had been talking to Xu Yunqi about his school.
After breakfast, Lin Xiangwan went to take a shower, his body was cleaned, and his mood seemed to become brighter. She felt more and more that she had made the right choice, and the next thing was Xu Yunqi's decision.
Xu Yunqi sat in the living room, and when he saw Lin Xiangwan coming out, he patted the sofa, "Sit down, Ye Nan is going to write his summer homework, I think we can probably have two hours to have a good chat." β
Lin Xiangwan sat next to him according to his words, strange to say, she usually hates being too close to strangers, and always feels a feeling of being violated, but Xu Yunqi is different, he gives her a sense of completeness, if they are together, maybe they will not fall in love in this life, but they will become relatives.
"Why do you want to get married, I thought you didn't care about this? What problems did you encounter?" Xu Yunqi is also a very rational person, of course he wouldn't think that Lin Xiangwan mentioned this to him because she loved him to the point of madness, so he didn't marry.
Lin Xiangwan smiled, "Why don't I care about this? I'm young, why can't I pursue happiness? Old Xu, you have too little confidence in yourself, can I only think of you when I encounter problems? Can't I have a soft spot for you and have liked you for many years?"
When Xu Yunqi heard this, he also laughed, "What do you like about me? You are not the owner of the boxing stadium." Well, even if what you say is true, then why do you bring it up now? I really can't understand the feeling of liking one person and dying for another. Besides, there are so many excellent people around you, how can you have such a bad vision and fall in love with me?"
Xu Yunqi's teasing of Lin Xiangwan couldn't understand, her smile dimmed slightly, and then continued, "Excellent ones are not necessarily suitable for me...... Besides, you're excellent too. Xu Yunqi shook his head when he listened, Lin Xiangwan ignored him, and continued, "The past has passed, don't look at me with old eyes, I am brand new now, new from the inside out! The past things have completely affected me, and I don't want to continue to entangle with those bad things, so let's put it this way, you give me a happy word, success or not? If you agree, we will try to see everywhere, if you can't break up again, if you don't agree......" Lin Xiangwan bit his lip," Just when I am amorous, you can treat this matter as a joke, and come to me if you have nothing to do in the future, Ye Nan and I are not short of people to take care of, to put it bluntly, we are not familiar with you. β
When she said this, she was somewhat unconscionable, if it weren't for Xu Yunqi, she would probably still be under the fence in the tea house now. But Lin Xiangwan knew that with Xu Yunqi's character, if he didn't force him, I was afraid he wouldn't make a decision so quickly.
She's an impatient, and once she's determined to do something, she doesn't procrastinate. If Xu Yunqi said that he couldn't make a decision now, if he planned to think about it for four or five months, Lin Xiangwan felt that he would collapse as soon as possible.
Xu Yunqi didn't think that he would think about marriage again, because when Lan Duo died, he told himself that he would not have anything to do with anyone in this life.
People like them are too heavy to kill and abuse, and they should be lonely for the rest of their lives.
But Lin Xiangwan now has a problem for him. The woman sitting opposite him, with shoulder-length hair, was a little thin, but she didn't look weak, and people who didn't know her would be surprised if they had been with her for a while, how could such a stubborn soul be hidden in such a thin body.
And those who know her well......
She must have had very few friends, because only very patient people could put up with her irascible little temper, and then, after a long time together, they found out how much a lovely woman she was.
If he refuses, she will definitely do what she says, she will push him far away, so that he can no longer enter her life, just like what she did to another person, what she wanted, rarely missed.
Xu Yunqi knew that Lin Xiangwan would not give up if he didn't get his answer today, so he thought for a moment and made his own answer.
* Chu Di waited in the convenience store for a few days, but he didn't wait for Lin Xiangwan. Lin Xiangwan disappeared from the community as if the world had evaporated.
In fact, Chu Di was not very sure about what to say and explain when he saw Lin Xiangwan, but he was always panicked in his heart, feeling like he had missed something, just like before Lin Xiangwan's accident, he actually felt that something was wrong, she was such a hard person, but she was willing to live with her, willing to restrain all her temper, like a cat, hiding her sharp claws just to please her master and staying with herself, which is abnormal in itself, but he closed his eyes because he didn't want to believe it, thinking that everything was fineγ It was only in the end that things got out of hand.
Now he knows it's wrong, and he wants to make amends, but he doesn't know if it's too late.
When she saw Lin Xiangwan again, it was already a week later, she pulled Ye Nan, and the two of them passed by the convenience store as if they were nothing.
Chu Di caught up, she was not too surprised, she just asked Ye Nan to go to the side to play first, and then walked with him to the shade of a relatively secluded park.
She wore a lake-green dress, her hair was tied up high and coiled behind her head, revealing a smooth forehead, her face looked very healthy, she sat on a swing made of tires, letting the swing sway at will, like a naughty little girl, Chu Di didn't speak, she didn't hurry to speak, two slender legs overlapped together, with the swing shaking, the tips of the shoes drew a strange pattern on the ground.
Chu Di stood next to her for a long time, and finally spoke, "You haven't been home for a few days?" β
"Oh, you have something to do with me? I took Ye Nan on a short trip. Lin Xiangwan replied casually, as if Chu Di was an old friend she had known for a long time.
"Where did you go?" Chu Di saw that her mood was good, and her heart calmed down a little, and her tone of voice became much more casual. Ye Nan looked very happy. quot;
When the child saw him for the first time, he didn't blow his beard and glare at him, nor did he pull Lin Xiangwan to run away from him like a refugee, which made him a little excited.
Lin Xiangwan raised his eyelids and glanced at him gently, "Does this have anything to do with you?"
With just one sentence, he extinguished all the small flames of hope in Chu Di's heart, he smiled bitterly and rubbed his palms, and his palms rustled. I haven't done heavy physical labor for many years, and now I have to carry dozens of buckets of water up and down the stairs every day, and many calluses are quickly worn out on my palms. His hands hurt very much, but he didn't feel bitter, and he slept well every day, because he didn't have to worry about getting up the next day, something bad would happen, he ate with his own physical strength, didn't steal or rob, didn't do things that hurt nature, and wouldn't be ashamed of anyone.
And occasionally I would meet her, and every day when he carried the bucket through the floor where she lived, there was a feeling that the distance between me and her was not far away, and that she could see me as long as she opened the door......
Such a mood can't be told to anything, he hides it in his heart, like a mussel, burying a piece of sand in his flesh and bones, enduring a long pain, and will eventually turn into the most brilliant pearl.