Chapter 164: Simple

Good morning, everyone, it's been getting cold lately, and my fingers are numb, and it's a terrible writing environment.

When the day was bright, I woke up again, rubbed my eyes, through the crack in the door, saw that everyone was already sitting in the living room silently eating simple things on the table, I couldn't help but be in a trance, pinched myself, and couldn't help but gasp in pain, and then looked at the cigarette butts in the ashtray on the side of the table, and finally understood that this morning's few words are not that I have too many big dreams, Zhang Deli is a person who doesn't like to say too much, maybe his words are no less than me and the little expert, but those things that can be called the truth and the insider, he has always refused to say too thoroughly, so he always said: "There are some things that don't have to be said. ”

But there are some things that cannot be left unsaid, just like he wants to tell me, the world is so cruel that even the closest people can't believe it, the world is so cold that even the most kind smiles hide stingers and minions, he wants to tell me all this, but the struggle and hesitation on his face make me understand that some words are unacceptable if they are spoken, even if I am all prepared, those words are ten thousand years of cold that I can't bear, I can't guess what he knows, and I can't imagine that there is anything more desperate than everything I know now, he looked at me, smiled bitterly, and shook his headI hesitated, and after a few efforts, I lowered my eyelids in a dazed and exhausted manner, until the sun shining on me in the gloomy morning, struggling to break through the clouds.

I know it's not a dream, but I'm not sure which side of Zhang Deli I saw yesterday, the Zhang Deli I know, can be warm, can be cruel, can be indifferent, can be warm, these are undoubtedly one of the roles he has successfully played, in this circle for a long time, even if you can't be so skilled, but you can easily split yourself into different roles, this is one of the most important things I learned, I can smile gently like a noble son, I can also hang my eyelashes shyly like an ordinary student, and I can say dirty jokes like a little rascal with a cigarette in my mouth, or, frowned and took out his documents and snorted coldly, these are all me, all of them are what I want to be.

I used to think that these different mes are just those characters in the movie who appear in line with the plot, but gradually, from the people around me, and even myself, I understand that these different us are not what we want to show, these we really exist in every part of our soul, reflecting our desires, complex and simple constitute our human nature, cowardice is me, strength is me, indifference is me, sympathy is me, I am not a single me, I play it, just myself, such an idea, let me suddenly understand that I have always seen Zhang Deli, maybe not what I thought he didn't exist, every role he played, was the real him, just like I had never seen him, desperate him, his desperation, and this first roar, I couldn't help but want to find an answer. This answer is not from He Qi, I think so.

"Today is a good day. "As I walked out of the bedroom, Zhang Deli raised his head and slapped his palm on the map on the table, and I looked down and saw a long red line stretching south from the place where we were standing called Yizhou all the way south to Liuzhou, where the red line surrounded the city, and the pale green map looked so desperate under the red lines.

"What are we going to do?" I sighed, asking the question one last time.

"Look at the world. Zhang Deli glanced at me with deep meaning, his finger slowly walked along the red line on the map, and said lightly: "This matter is not complicated, we just have some geographical advantages, but this matter represents an answer, an answer about what we want to do, it will tell us how to change the world." ”

"When a crisis erupts, that's when the city is in turmoil. The little expert who had been silent for a long time may be because he was about to part, sighed, lowered his head and opened his mouth, and said slowly: "There will be people hoarding bottled water, there will be people robbing supermarkets, there will be governments coming out to refute rumors, there will be rumors spreading, no matter how to deal with it, Zhao Hongwei's career will always come to an end, and when the wind and waves are calm, he will continue to walk, this matter has nothing to do with him, I'm afraid that it can't change much." ”

"False and real, no one believes in any rumors anymore. Zhang Deli chuckled lightly and said: "What we promised He Qi has been done, people like him will not let go of such an opportunity, we are just an introduction, and he will do the rest of the things very well." ”

"What about another person. The little expert was already a little disheartened, and when he spoke, he didn't have his original vitality, shook his head and said with a wry smile: "It's not the same, but some people do it more obviously, and some people do it more bluntly, everyone's life may be better, maybe it will be worse, but the good will not be much better, and the bad will not be worse, what can be changed, they are in charge, they always have to be scrupulous, and they can't be too ugly, right?"

"Get rid of a Zhao Hongwei, and the person who comes up may not be better. Zhang Deli smiled faintly and said slowly: " Our situation does not have much impact on the decision-making above, He Qi may want Zhao Hongwei to pay some price for his betrayal, but this is just his idea, this situation, I Zhang Deli, what I want to see, is the power of panic, and, those foolish people, I want to know, these people, is it worth us to do something for them, you will understand, the short-term light, is not worth mentioning, they are not even qualified to enjoy our outstretched hand, you will find that they are plain, will become the person you hate the most, and then, you will see, what you want to do。 ”

"So you're going to take away their last bit of hope and let darkness envelop the world?" I was stunned for a moment, and quickly understood Zhang Deli's so-called answer, he never gave up his efforts to change us, he wanted us to become people like him, he wanted to prove that the weak people in this world are not worthy of any sympathy at all, they are not worthy of sympathy and even need us to hate people, no matter what means are used to sacrifice it doesn't matter, I can't help but be angry when I see through his last attempt, I can't even understand why in just a few hours, he once again turned back into the indifferent and ruthless him, I sneered, and sneered: "It's just a simple panic, can it prove their hatefulness, you can't help but think too highly of yourself, they may panic, they may rob, but the foundation of this society is still there, no one will do too much, and no one will prove that there is a dark and shameless soul buried in the body, this matter, I am afraid it will disappoint you. ”

"I'm just trying to prove that they're stupid enough to make people like us do whatever they want. Zhang Deli laughed, shook his head and said: " Their stupidity will make you understand that you have no way to sympathize with a group of pigs, no matter what you do for them, nothing will change for them, when they are helpless, you stretch out a hand, you will not make them become better people, nor will they know how to reciprocate, they will not try to change anything, what they care about is always their own little life, they may protect their little things, but once they can't protect their own life, they will find a way to plunder those things that maintain their small life from weaker people, fools, always stupid, these people, for us, are just numbers。 ”

"It seems that we don't have much more to say. "I was stunned for a long time, and finally felt that I was too ridiculous, and even thought that Zhang Deli had really wanted to let us move forward, but now it seems that no matter whether he has thought this way or not, everyone's path is different after all, although I have heard him comment on all beings in this world many times, but I always believe that everyone will stand together to protect the world after all.

"Let's do it. Zhang Deli smiled faintly, crumpled the map on the table, and gently threw it into the trash can on the side.

I and the little expert was isolated from this situation, as a spectator, we were a little angry, but it can only be so, Zhang Deli to do something so simple that the whole thing only took half an hour, the weather is a little hazy, but it is the best time to do it, we stood on the shore, watched Zhang Deli handed over a box to the smiling seller, and then watched a bucket of raw materials was transported onto the ship, and then witnessed the heavy wooden boat when it drove to the entrance of the Liujiang River, suddenly burst the tied rope, and the released raw material barrel rolled into the surging Liujiang River, the raw materials inside were mixed in the water, and the river surface was dyed red, the smoke rose violently with the scattering of raw material barrels, enveloping the entire river, occasionally drifting to the shore, panicked pedestrians let out bursts of loud coughs, screamed and fled to the four directions, and Zhang Deli just smiled and waved his hand, sitting in a small boat, drifting away.

"That's it. The little expert spread his hands, looked at me, and sighed: "We, I'm afraid it's hard to see him again." ”

"When are you leaving?" I smiled bitterly, glanced at the little expert with his head down, and asked in a low voice, he may be really difficult to see Zhang Deli, but I understand that maybe one day in the near future, Zhang Deli and I will still meet, determined to continue in this circle, I will always face this day, little expert, it is difficult to see, in addition to Zhang Deli, I am afraid that I will have to add me, we can't walk on the same road after all, all we can do is to say that it is cherished.

"I want to go to Liuzhou. The little expert hesitated for a moment and said in a low voice: "Even if I want to leave, I want to say goodbye to this circle, I want to see if what he said is true." ”

"Even if it's not true, he'll do it. I smiled bitterly and said, " My words, do you really think I will believe it, people are vulnerable, I have already checked the incident in Jilin, that kind of panic is simply expected, for you and me, knowing such news, will also worry a lot, self-preservation is the nature, no wonder they, don't even need us to put any rumors, the rumors are enough to destroy their confidence in the world, want to incite them against a stronger force, it may be difficult, but to let them mess up the city with the rumors, it is a simple thing。 In the era of panic, there is nothing difficult to incite a thing, Chen Sheng and Wu Guang are like this, Han Shantong's Red Turban Army is also like this, this matter will not be an exception, not to mention, there is still a tiger eyeing He Qi in Liuzhou, as long as he is willing, I am afraid that there is nothing he can't do, Liuzhou, will be in chaos, this is a doomed ending. ”

"Do you really want to go to He Qi to have a look?" The little expert was silent for a moment, sighed, looked at me and said: "He Qi there, I'm afraid it won't be better than Zhang Deli here, they are all characters in the dark ink, although their temperaments are not very different, but they will inevitably choose the same madness, He Qi is not necessarily as unbearable as Zhang Deli said, but it may not be better than we imagined." ”

"I'd like to go to my husband's. I shook my head, nodded again, and said, " Zhang Deli was a little wrong last night, and said a lot of words that sounded a little meaningful, but I asked again, but he refused to say any more, I want to know what the things he didn't say were related, I have an intuition, this matter has something to do with me, and him, the same, he hides so deeply, and even said that fate cannot be changed, I want to know what my fate is, and I want to see how Mr. changed my fate, although it is just a guess, but it should be like this, what Zhang Deli did not tell you is that it is not Mr. who has been wandering around to escape, but he Zhang Deli, Mr. must be somewhere, He Qi may tell me where Mr. is, I think Mr. will not refuse to have one more of me by his side, follow him, and there will be an answer to these questions. ”

"The answer?" the little expert laughed, shook his head and said, " They are all saying that Mr. is a contradictory person, he can be a great person, turn around, maybe the most despicable person, behind him, there are believers who follow his ideals but stand on the opposite side, Mr. tells them different truths at different times, and then makes everyone stand apart, from such a person, where will you get any answer, even if there is, maybe it is just an answer that cannot be explained at all, from Zhang Deli, don't you see this?"

"He, too, is very contradictory. I was stunned for a moment, shook my head again, and said: " But maybe it's still different, his contradictions are more like a lie that he can't justify, when we find that he can't justify himself, he creates another explanation, every loophole has an explanation, and every loophole in the explanation has more explanations, these explanations are like a puzzle, so that we can't see the road under our feet at all, but I always feel that the answer from Mr. will eventually have an answer, Zhang Deli, he, is too confused. ”

"Are these things really important?" the little expert looked at me seriously and said sincerely: " Bai Mu, really, if you want to continue to stay in this circle, you will never find the answer, we, until now, can only be chess pieces, compared to them, we are too far behind, their scheming, their planning, we will never be able to catch up, just like Mr., the layout is far-reaching, it takes decades to calculate, maybe as early as when we have not come to this world, there are some things, he has made arrangements, I don't know how Zhang Deli told you his views on fate, if let me say, if there is such a person, it took decades to lay out, then the fate of the people in this bureauIt has already fallen into his hands, and if you want to get rid of this fate, you have to stay away from the changes and decisions made because of him or them, and if you are willing to leave, no one can do anything to you. ”

"If I don't leave, I will never be able to get rid of their fate of manipulating me, right?" I smiled, shook my head, and said. However, if this is the case, then when you get old, will you be unwilling, will you think, if I have ever looked for this answer, will everything be different, I have not tried, how will I know, what this answer is, I have not tried, how will I know, will there be such a day, my fate will return to my hands, and those who try to control my destiny will not be trampled under my feet, ridiculed by me, controlled by me. ”

"It's dangerous ambition. The little expert was silent for a long time, looked at me again, and said sincerely: "Bai Mu, forget it, don't pursue these things, you have such unwilling thoughts in your heart, you will eventually go mad, if that answer makes you hate, make you angry, then, your road will be narrower and narrower, you will live in these things all day long, and you will not find that there are other joys in life, forget this answer, as long as you are willing, this world is still full of freedom, it is a shackle, it will tie you for a lifetime!"

"But I really want to see their faces. I smiled and said, "I really want to see what our husband is like, and if he really does anything to me, then I want to repay him one day." ”