Outside the door of the care room, a man with desperate eyes in his eyes.

"Mr. Zhou, this is what our entire hematology department has made up, although it is not much, but it is also a heart. The short-haired female doctor handed Zhou Xiaohu an envelope.

Zhou Xiaohu's pupils trembled a little, as far as the dignity of a man is concerned, he has hardly received any charity in his life, even if he was born in such a broken family, he stepped into such a society at the age of fourteen or fifteen with nothing, so poor that he had no money to hold a decent funeral for his deceased wife, and he still owes Zhou Yier's school bus fare, although life has squeezed him almost without a drop of water, but he has never given up, what he did was just the smiling face that could redeem his broken soul.

"Take it. Dr. Wang said that although she was very sympathetic to Zhou Xiaohu's suffering, she had seen too many tragic stories in this hematology department full of humanity, and even she, who was full of enthusiasm, became a little numb. But no matter how numb you are, you can't turn a blind eye to that extraordinarily strong child, this incomparably great father.

Zhou Xiaohu took the envelope, and it seemed that this envelope had some extremely heavy weight, making him feel that he couldn't bear it.

This woman, who took off the white coat and may still be quite charming, looked at Zhou Xiaohu and sighed deeply, she is already thirty years old and is still single for no reason. Perhaps for most people, she is extremely lucky, has a good family, has not endured any hardships since she was a child, although she chose a path that was strongly opposed by her parents, but at least she staggered away. In this place called the hematology department, she stayed for ten years, and although her best years passed like this, she didn't seem to regret it at all, and she had a clear conscience about everyone who made a decision with death.

"If a person is born thirty years early, and in the seventies he has acute promyelocytic leukemia, sorry, terminal illness, no matter what you do, he will not live for three months, but now if you have the same disease, you have to give up, the doctor will tell you that you can cure it, don't give up. For decades, it was through science that it turned from a terminal disease into a curable cancer. Maybe in 30 years, ALL will become like this, we all hope to be the beneficiaries of the change, but who will be the victims of the change?" she said with a sigh, she did not give Zhou Xiaohu any extra hope, but just stated the facts, for a person full of hope to suddenly face suffocating despair, this impact is too great.

For every leukemia patient, even if the success rate is 99.99%, what if the failure is 100%, and it is 0.01 in you, are you willing to accept it?

Zhou Xiaohu moved his lips very weakly, but he couldn't speak.

The noisy footsteps interrupted the almost suppressed conversation between the two, Zhou Xiaohu turned his head and looked in that direction, it was a picture that was difficult for him to let go of in his life.

Li Banruo, who was carrying a black plastic bag, was followed by Abin, who was holding a big bear.

Li Panruo walked up to Zhou Xiaohu, looked at the man who was crushed by life, threw the black plastic bag directly into Zhou Xiaohu's arms, and said breathlessly: "Two hundred thousand." ”

Zhou Xiaohu was stunned, opened the plastic bag, it was money, the shocking red, but everything that happened suddenly, although it was a pie falling from the sky to him, he just panicked and didn't know what to say.

"Don't look at Lao Tzu with that expression, this money is lent to you, and you have to pay it back in the future, not a penny. Li Panruo was very disdainful of these children's expressions, not to mention the hypocrisy he thought was, perhaps because he felt numb to these inexplicable emotions.

Zhou Xiaohu looked at Li Panruo like a savior, and ran out with a black plastic bag, and finally showed that joyful expression on his face, as if at this moment, it was not Zhou Yier in the ward who was redeemed, but him.

"Hey, you're the kid's attending doctor, aren't you?" said Li Panruo to the somewhat stunned woman.

The woman came back to her senses at this casually dumped 200,000 ruffians, she had never seen this kind of scene in the hematology department for ten years, but the guy in front of her was so vulgar and unbearable.

"I have a name, not a name. She said, seemingly dissatisfied with the disrespectful ruffian.

Li Panruo gritted his teeth, if a man dared to talk back to him like this, he would have thrown his fist on it a long time ago, but he just suppressed the anger in his heart, looked at the badge on her chest, and then showed a good expression and said in a weird manner: "I said Doctor Wang, are you the attending doctor of the child?"

"I am. Wang Xialuo replied with her thick black-rimmed glasses.

"Excuse me, what is the success rate of this child's bone marrow transplant operation?" Li Panruo's teeth almost clenched, and he didn't like the appearance of this woman in his heart, in his heart, this kind of elite person is not a good person, and he will only squeeze them.

When asked this question, Wang Xialuo's expression suddenly fell, although it was a good thing to see Zhou Xiaohu finally scraping together the money. But what follows is the real problem. Although she had experienced this occasion countless times, she still couldn't say that percentage calmly at this time, she looked at the ruffian meaningfully and said, "Twenty-seven percent, but it's actually even lower." ”

Li Panruo's expression froze, and Ah Bin stopped smiling, but hugged the big bear in his arms tightly.

"How low is it?" Li Banruo didn't know why, his voice trembled a little.

"You don't want to know this. She shook her head.

"There's no better way, there's no better way not to gamble?" Li Panruo said with wide eyes.

She still shook her head and said: "With the current medical conditions, this is the best way, not gambling seems to be conservative treatment, but in fact, it is not, the choice is different." In fact, for terminally ill patients, whether they choose or not, choose this or that, whether they act or do not act, they are gambling on their lives. Active gambling is gambling with people, and passive gambling is gambling with the sky. ”

Li Banruo was stunned in place, perhaps because of Wang Xialuo's words, he seemed to have come into contact with a world he had never imagined, he just popped out a cigarette and lit it slowly, Wang Xialuo didn't even dissuade the man who was smoking in the hospital corridor, just a sad face.

"In the future, the survival rate will decrease rapidly, and it is not easy to count. The fact is that many people relapse within half a year of transplantation, except for a very few conditional options to be re-transplanted, broken pots, dead horses, and live horse doctors. Unfortunately, it is difficult to have a positive and effective effect on recurrence after transplantation, and you can only fight fires everywhere, and you can only survive in passive and passive actions, and there is little hope. That's the real countdown to life. Day by day, weight loss, anorexia, insomnia, bloating, hydrops, coughing, etc., the life line is like a dam, there are more and more pipes, more and more, bigger and bigger, and then the dam collapses, the end of life, the end of treatment. This is the path that leukemia patients have to take, every step may be clear, and every step may be doomed. No one can replace her, and what the family can do is have a clear conscience. ”

The atmosphere was depressed to the extreme, Li Panruo felt unprecedented despair, extremely powerless, just leaning against the wall, as if he had aged countless times, smoking a cigarette, this hurdle seemed to tell him how difficult it is to live alone in this world.

Ah Bin hugged the big bear, quietly walked into the custody room, looked at the little child lying on the bed, he walked to her lightly, rubbed her cheeks slightly, although the action was so light, but still let her wake up, through her tightly frowning brow, it seemed that her pain could be seen.

But the moment she opened her eyes, there was the big brown bear in front of her, which was picked by Abin, and it was Li Banruo who paid the money.

Zhou Yi'er looked at the big bear with a flower-like smile on her face.

"Do you like it?" Abin put the bear next to her.

She stretched out her little hand, stroked it, and smiled, "I like it." ”

"His name is Abin, and he will always be by Yi'er's side, Yi'er doesn't need to be afraid of anything, he will never leave. Abin smiled, smiling so innocently, without mixing anything.

"Abin—" she muttered, caressing his softness, and fell asleep.

Abin quietly left the custody room, the atmosphere outside the custody room was still so depressing, and the depression made Abin feel particularly uncomfortable, Wang Xialuo, who had a particularly chic style of doing things, had left, leaving only the very depressed Li Banruo squatting at the door, maybe it was this ruffian who was not emotional about anything, and he really felt the pain that his heart was almost torn.

"Does she like it?" Li Panruo asked when he saw Ah Bin come out.

"I like it very much, her smile is like a crescent, very beautiful and beautiful. Abin said, as Li Banruo squatted down, so the two of them squatted at the door like this, no one thought this scene was so weird, maybe in this place, there were too many stories like this.

"Master Pan, why do you want to help Zhou Xiaohu?" he asked, looking at the snow-white walls.

If Li Panruo, who thinks he has no heart and no lungs, does not answer, maybe for ordinary people, this kind of story will never happen in the rivers and lakes that he thinks, and even Li Panruo hates himself a little, why does he, who has not received any salvation, still do everything to redeem others so desperately? He thinks that this is a special, very shameful weakness, just like this Jianghu abstraction.

"Regret it?" Bin asked, perhaps this was a meaningless gamble for Li Banruo.

Li Panruo shook his head.

"But I think this kind of master is very handsome. Abin patted Li Banruo's shoulder, learning from Li Banruo's appearance that he often thought was old-fashioned.

Li Banruo smiled helplessly, and muttered a sentence to find death, but it was just a mutter, maybe it was the reason why the guy in front of him was really out of line.