"You don't have any experience!" she patted me on the cheek and smiled.

"Hmm!" I said casually. I feel a little dizzy, it should be because the alcohol is up.

She didn't speak after asking, and continued to look at P4, laughing while watching, I looked at her sideways, and felt like she was the product of a marriage between close relatives in Xiaotunzi Hutong, the kind of retarded who defecates on the gutter at any time.

"Again!" she suddenly brought her face to mine, her dark face glowing with a greasy sheen, and a hint of a snarl on her fat lips.

"Ahh

"Hand me the mineral water and tissues," she sat up contentedly, and threw white paper balls on the bed and on the floor, and there was a mess of water on the ground. That night I felt like I was doing some kind of task, and I didn't like it but I did it.

The next morning we said goodbye outside the hotel. In the morning, the sun was still hiding in the clouds, and only the white of the sky like a fish's belly told me that it was dawn.

She hugged me with a reluctant face, and turned back several times to wave to me as she left. I smiled and waved at her, and watched her get on the bus before I turned to leave. But after a few steps, I felt a tumbling in my stomach, and I involuntarily squatted down and began to vomit non-stop, until I vomited out the thick sour water, and I felt better. I let out a long sigh of relief and walked towards the unit.

At night, I blocked her QQ and phone number, and I haven't seen her since, but whenever I do that kind of thing with other women, I think of the scene of that night, and as time goes by, the details become clearer and clearer, like someone has installed a video recorder in my head, and it will automatically turn on every time that time.

It was five days and then Saturday afternoon. I was sitting in my office waiting to get off work, when I suddenly heard a big mess next door, and many people started shouting and screaming. The people from the maintenance team and I hurriedly ran to the next door to look, only to see Xiao Shen (with my surname) lying on the ground with a distorted face.

Half an hour later, the ambulance came. The doctor who got out of the car examined Xiao Shen and told us that Xiao Shen was dead.

I looked at the young face on the ground, he was only twenty-one years old!

Xiao Shen has told me before that his father died of a heart attack, his mother also died of a heart attack when he was a sophomore in high school, and he could have died of a heart attack that day.

When he first entered high school, he studied very well, and his grade group was in the top five every time, and his desire was to be admitted to Harbin Institute of Technology, but after his mother's illness, he couldn't study, so he took his mother around for treatment, and the house was sold, and in the end his mother still didn't come back to life.

The death of his parents hit him too hard, but fortunately, he was optimistic by nature and slowly got better. He began to indulge in the online game World of Warcraft, made a lot of money when it was the hottest, and organized a group of people to play games to make money, but fate seemed to be joking with him, he lost all the money he earned, so he had to come out as a security guard, he said every time he wanted to make a comeback, and with the money to get a stronger heart for himself and then go back to re-study and be admitted to college, but now it is a cold corpse.

I left the unit with a heavy heart, and before I knew it, I was in the school library, and only here could I temporarily numb my mind.

I like to read books, especially classics. I always fantasize that I have returned to ancient times, becoming a graceful and suave son, with a group of servants in the house, living in a mansion like a Suzhou garden, drinking and composing poems every day, picking chrysanthemums and east fences, leisurely singing, away from the hustle and bustle of the world, without the pressure of life and the distress of money, many people like to read through novels may just like that kind of illusory feeling.

I followed the bookshelf to find the row where all kinds of classical literature were placed, and took out a copy of Wang Kunlun's "The Characters of the Dream of Red Mansions" and sat down to read the book.

Just as I was concentrating on reading, I heard the sound of high heels, and I looked sideways, and a tall girl in a white dress and a pink bow on her head, with long hair and a shawl, and a sweet appearance, sat at the table next to me with a stack of books.

The moment she passed me, a faint fragrance came into my nose, such a beautiful woman, I can only think about it in my dreams.

After reading for a while, I felt some pain in my neck and some tiredness in my eyes, so I raised my head and wanted to relax. I stumbled upon a fat boy sitting across from me with a slightly balding head and thick glasses that glanced at the girl in white from time to time. That lewd look is a bit like a Hong Kong actor "Charlie Cao." I lowered my head a little amusedly and continued to read.

After looking at it for a while, I suddenly heard a sound from the other side that seemed to be enjoying it, and I subconsciously raised my eyes to take a look. The bald man in glasses opposite was squinting his eyes and leaning back on his chair with his eyes squinted, his arms holding the book stretched straight. I took a closer look at the title of the book, "Are the Golden Scales a Thing in the Pool?"

The fat man with bald glasses slowly stood up with a satisfied and strange smile on the corner of his mouth, and I saw that the crotch of his pants seemed to be wet, and the fat man seemed to be afraid of being discovered, so he used a borrowed book in front of him when he left the table.

"Damn, this can do too." I've only heard of doing this kind of thing in the toilet, on the bus, in the elevator, in the bushes, but I didn't expect it to be okay in the library, the fat man's combat effectiveness is not low!

What's wrong with the current college students, Xiao Shen didn't enter this place that he longed for all his life even when he died, some people came and did this kind of thing, the world is really too big, and we don't understand too much.

I glanced at the girl in white, who looked as quiet as a lily with morning dew, and had she ever thought that a fat man had just done something to her. Alas, I didn't have the heart to read and get up and leave.

The phone rang as he walked out of the library door. I opened it and saw that it was Brother Chen's.

"Brother, I'm getting married next Sunday," Brother Chen said excitedly on the other end of the phone.

"Yes, I said, why haven't I seen you these days, I was going to get married, you and Lan Ying have come to this point, why don't you have a letter for a long time? "I was surprised. These two people didn't leak a trace of wind at all.

"It's not Lan Ying, it's a girl from my hometown" Brother Chen's voice was a little embarrassed.

"Well, that's also congratulations, when the time comes, you'll get drunk, so that you can't enter the cave room. "For a moment I didn't know what to say. I held back for a moment before I came up with a sentence.

"Rub, I'm still counting on you to block the wine for me," Brother Chen's voice returned to normal.

"No problem," I laughed.

The two of us chatted for a while, I didn't ask about the girl who was going to marry Brother Chen, and I didn't mention Lan Ying, I guess Brother Chen didn't want to talk about it either. I put down the phone and felt even more depressed, went to a small restaurant where I often eat sauce bones, asked for a plate of big bones, two dishes, and began to drink non-stop until I was drunk and hazy before staggering back to the bedroom.

Next Saturday came in a flash, and after getting off work in the afternoon, I had something to eat outside and walked to the dormitory, and as soon as I walked to the front of the dormitory building, I saw Lan Ying standing there in a water-blue dress. I didn't know what I was saying to her, I turned around and wanted to leave, but Lan Ying saw me at a glance.

"What are you doing, don't you see such a big beauty standing here?" Lan Ying beckoned to me with a warm smile on her face.

I adjusted my mood and walked over with a smile. At the same time, I wondered in my heart, "Brother Chen is married, why does this Lan Ying look like no one." ”

"Why did you have time to come over today, still standing here, careful of causing an accident. I laughed.

"Causing an accident?" Lan Ying frowned, tilted her head, and stared at me with a pair of big eyes full of doubt.

"Someone is peeping up there, what if you are too excited to see it and fall down?" I said, deliberately looking up.

"Hehe, that's well deserved. Lan Ying smiled cheerfully. Subconsciously pressed the clothes on his chest.

"Chen Bin, I haven't seen him for almost half a month, he always says he's busy when he calls him, I'm not worried so come over to take a look, he won't blame me for coming to him without asking him!" Lan Ying suddenly asked me.

At this time, Lan Ying was still worried about Chen Bin's mood, and I really didn't know how to answer for a while. Just as I was hesitating to tell her what happened, Brother Chen walked out of the dormitory building with his laptop.

Chen Bin was also stunned for a moment when he saw Lan Ying, because Lan Ying was talking to me with her back to the bedroom door, so she didn't see Chen Bin. Chen Bin took the opportunity to turn around and go back. He retreated a little hurriedly, and suddenly bumped into a boy, who was very unhappy and said loudly, "What are you doing, walk and look at it." ”

Lan Ying, who was shocked by the voice, looked back, and immediately showed a surprised expression, and quickly stepped forward and said, "Chen Bin, you are in the bedroom." ”

"In" Chen Bin's expression was also a little embarrassed.

"Where are you going?" Lan Ying then asked.

"I'm hungry, I'm thinking about going out to eat," Brother Chen said casually

"That's right, I didn't eat either, let's go together" Lan Ying happily pulled Brother Chen's arm.

Brother Chen is not going to go at this time, nor is he not leaving. I don't want to turn around and leave when I see this.

"Xiao Shen go together" Brother Chen saw that I was leaving, shook off Lan Ying and grabbed me.

"No, I've eaten. "I wanted to push Brother Chen's hand, but he held it tightly.

"Let's go together, what's the matter, you still want us to catch you!" Lan Ying smiled and walked over and grabbed my other arm.

The two of them almost drove me away. At the time, I felt like it was the worst thing I'd ever experienced in my life.

The three of us found a small restaurant on campus and asked for some food, I just drank with my head bored, and Brother Chen drank for a while and became the same person again, talking and laughing with Lan Ying. When the twilight was deep and the sky was full of stars, he and Lan Ying walked into a hotel. I silently returned to my dormitory.

The next day I went to Chen's wedding, which was held in a rather luxurious local hotel, and the banquet was also high-end. The bride is very thin, I know from other people, the bride is also a college graduate, the family also grows flowers, and there is a modern flower greenhouse in the city, and the family is very rich. I gave a BMW as a dowry.

I saluted, and waited until Brother Chen and his bride finished toasting and got up and left, I still can't do it It doesn't matter about anything, it stands to reason that Lan Ying is just a working girl with no money and no status, and I am just a general friend with her, Brother Chen is indeed the upper echelon of the company and I have a good relationship, I shouldn't show my displeasure in front of Brother Chen, but I still feel uncomfortable, this may be where I fail, I am not very good at being a person.