I came out of the hotel and wandered aimlessly on the street, feeling a little tired, I sat down on a bench on the side of the road, and a BMW drove down the street in front of me, and the bright signs made my heart even more disturbed.

Do I have to take the bus for the rest of my life? I feel that it is a luxury to take a taxi once in a while, and I have to spend decades of my family's savings in order to marry a very ordinary woman, and I have to pay for milk powder when I have children, why do I have to live such a life, why? I don't really ask myself.

The next day, I helped Brother Chen move all his things to his new home, the luxurious decoration made me feel the feeling in the TV series for the first time, when I walked out of Brother Chen's house, Brother Chen was very energetic and held his wife and told me that they were going to five European countries for their honeymoon, and brought me souvenirs when they came back.

Brother Chen took a plane to experience the exotic scenery. My biochemical work continued, wearing that shabby high school uniform, and every day I either carried the keys to show the houses to those clients, or followed my colleagues to the toilet and light bulbs, and went back to school in the evening to have a bite of food and go to the library to read a book.

One day I was looking for a book on the bookshelf, and the silent mobile phone in my pocket vibrated a little, I took it out and saw that it was a message sent by Lan Ying, instructing her to ask Chen Bin about it, I wanted to delete it immediately, but after hesitating for a while, I opened it

"Chen Bin is married, why don't you tell me? Why do you lie to me?" The two consecutive question marks were filled with deep resentment.

When I saw these words, I remembered what Brother Chen did the day before he got married, so I could only smile bitterly and put my phone in my pocket again.

After a while, the phone vibrated again, and I took it out to see that it was still Lan Ying, "You are all TM not a thing, Chen Bin, that king and eight calves, I have called him countless times, but he is still not in the service area, he plays with my feelings, and I will not let him go." ”

"Sick!" I frowned and looked at the text message, and I was also very unimpressed by Lan Ying's behavior.

I don't want to care about her at all, in this city of steel and concrete, don't talk about the care between people, the air we breathe every day is unfamiliar.

Lan Ying can complain, but who can she complain about? Complain that Brother Chen likes the new and hates the old and plays with feelings, but Lan Ying is also an adult and should have her own judgment, the reason why she chases Brother Chen is that she still thinks that Brother Chen can bring her a happy life, in the final analysis, she is just a woman who pursues what she wants to live, but her pursuit fails.

Of course, Brother Chen is also a little unauthentic. Especially the time before marriage, but in this kind of society, in the thoughts of different people, there is really no clear judgment on the right and wrong of this kind of thing. In short, one is willing to post upside down, and the other is willing to play, it's as simple as that.

"Lan Ying, I don't know what to say to you, and I don't know why you want to send me a text message, this kind of thing can only be thought about slowly, I have to drink when I encounter troubles, lie in bed when I am drunk and sleep, and I will continue to live tomorrow" I thought about it for a long time and sent her a text message back.

Because I thought of myself when I saw her like this, I drank too much at home, and my parents would help me clean up no matter what, and I would only get complaints and disgust in the dormitory. I have a cold, I want to drink a bowl of ginger soup and brown sugar water, and no one will do it if I sweat, and it is not easy to go out and break into the world!

"Can you come over and have some wine with me," Lan Ying replied to me after ten minutes.

"Beer, liquor, where?" I felt the urge to get drunk the moment I texted her back.

"Where I live," Lan Ying said.

I bought a box of cans and went to the store where she lived, where she worked.

She lives in the basement where the goods are stored in the store, and a so-called "room" is separated by a curtain, with a single bed and a small cupboard.

Lan Ying was in a very bad state, her face was pale, and her eyes were red and swollen and bloodshot.

"You're here" Lan Ying looked at me with bloodshot eyes, and I could see that I felt a little hairy in my heart, and I didn't know if it was right or wrong.

"I'm coming," I nodded, putting things down. It feels like it's a bit like a martial arts novel character dialogue.

She walked over and took a can of beer from the crate, opened it, and drank it in one gulp. I also took out a can of beer and drank it, and we drank a dozen beers in this silent atmosphere. Lan Ying suddenly began to cry, constantly telling her about her, from how poor her family was when she was a child to how she met Brother Chen.

"I gave her the most precious thing, but he was with another woman, and he did that with me the day before he got married, it's really not a human beating" Lan Ying looked back and cried full of pain.

In the eyes of poor women, their first time may be the most valuable thing they can have in life, they have no other capital than their bodies, but in the eyes of rich people it is nothing but a tool to make them more stimulated.

"We're just the people at the bottom of this society, we don't have money, we don't have houses, and the most uncomfortable thing is that we don't have the ability to earn these things. I leaned back on the head of the bed, drank the wine in my hand, and said slowly.

"I've been working since I was sixteen years old, washing dishes for people in restaurants, serving food, and working as a waiter, I don't want to find a poor man to suffer, isn't that okay?" Lan Ying looked resentful.

"Okay, no one wants to sleep in the basement, they all want to drive and live in a big house, and you can still pursue the life you want" I looked at Lan Ying quietly.

"You, a college student, open toilets for others, work as a maintenance worker, what's the use of studying for so many years? You are also going to college, you see that Chen Bin is much better than you, you can't compare to him in your life, and the little money you earn is not as much as I didn't graduate from junior high school. Why did you come here to drink with me, do you want to me, tell you, you still want to touch me, you are worthy of a tube to find a chicken, not to mention that the whole body of the sick that day suppurates and dies on the street" Lan Ying pointed at me with a distorted face and scolded.

I was speechless when she scolded me, because she was right, I was such a poor ghost, I silently got up from her bed and walked out with my head down.

"You men are all kings and calves, you TM is even worse, you are worse than Chen Bin, your heart is full of bad water, my mother said, the poorer you are, the worse you are, look at your worthless finish. Lan Ying scolded hoarsely, as if she wanted to vent all the resentment in her heart on me.

"You damn shit, you still scold me, what are you, aren't you also a shit. "I tried to suppress my anger.

"Haha, in a few years, your parents will kneel in front of some and beg her to marry you," Lan Ying's mocking eyes made the veins in my body burst.

"you MD" I couldn't help it, and rushed over all of a sudden, grabbed Lan Ying by the neck and slammed her on the bed.

"You TM let go of me, you are not beaten by people......" Lan Ying struggled desperately to hit and scratch me.

"You are a slut, you TM was born to marry a migrant worker, smell the life of sweat, want to be rich, and you can only sell it in a plastic shed under the overpass. "I got into a fight with her. Almost all the buttons of Lan Ying's clothes were removed by me, and in this constant fighting, I actually had a strange feeling, and the repeated friction back and forth through my pants made me uncomfortable.

"You let go quickly, I'm going to be strangled to death by you" Lan Ying's voice sounded quite painful, but there was a different flush on her face, I slowly let go of my hand full of scratches, Lan Ying retched a few times, began to gasp for breath and closed her eyes without struggling.

I trembled and pressed over, arched my mouth on her face, and hurriedly began to untie my belt, when suddenly a numbness came from my waist, and I straightened up like a fish dying out of water, and slowly stopped moving.

Lan Ying also sensed the change in me and opened her eyes to look at me.

"Haha! Haha! You're a piece ......of garbage," Lan Ying began to laugh wildly, as if sweat, as if tears were dripping down her terrible face.

I got up from her in frustration and staggered out, just wanting to get as far away from the crazy laughter as possible.

I walked down the street blankly, the neon lights shining with all kinds of lights seemed to be a charming monster, I didn't know where to go, the things stuck to my legs and soaked pants made me feel cold in the night wind, and the life of a poor ghost might really be like this.

I don't know how long I walked, I don't know where I went, but when I woke up the next morning I found myself sleeping in a bush by the side of the road, and a urge to urinate was rising, and I got up and walked to a small bush in a daze, unbuttoned my pants, and let go of the water.

"Don't let you urinate here, don't let you ask for food" Just when I was halfway through the pee, there was a sudden angry shout behind me, I subconsciously turned around to look, and an exclamation followed, so scared that I suffocated the remaining small half of the urine back, I lifted my pants and fled in a hurry, and there was an insult from the sweeping aunt behind me.

What the hell am I doing, why am I so unlucky to even pee back to the half pipe.

I took a taxi several times in a row without stopping, so I had to go to a nearby store to buy a pair of pants, a pair of pants, I wiped it with a wet towel in the fitting room and barely changed it, the salesperson looked at me in amazement, probably since buying clothes, the first time I saw a customer directly change into pants and go.

I spent the day in a daze, and when I got up in the early morning, I saw Lan Ying send me another text message, I didn't even read the content and quickly deleted it, women, especially women who were dumped by men after playing, don't touch her. That's a madman.

Two years after I left here, I heard that Brother Chen also resigned from the company and started a flower business with her wife, and set up his own company.

Lan Ying heard that she was pregnant, and then returned to her hometown, and there was no news of her after that.

At the end of the month, I got paid and told my supervisor that I would not work here, and the supervisor did not make much of a reservation, but only said a few symbolic words, and I left without telling my colleagues when I left, and after the last morning of work, I left the place where I worked for the first time in my life.

There was no nostalgia, only an indescribable relief and a certain heaviness, I went back to my bedroom and simply packed my luggage.

I'm going to stay in the East. The fourth child in my dorm called me a few days ago and said that he had a decorating shop there and asked me to come and help.

On the morning of leaving, all the people in the dormitory had actually woken up, but none of them said goodbye to me, even if they didn't say anything, they all pretended to sleep in bed, because I had no use in their eyes, and they actually looked down on me in their hearts, but I was not angry, because I really had nothing to respect them.

Every time I look back, I'm amazed at how long I worked in that unit, and then I come to understand that I don't really like that unit, but I like the feeling of living in a dorm room, living on a college campus. For some, that feeling is as addictive to it as it is to poison.