Chapter 436: So Close, So Far Away
After Liu Xuan said goodbye to Dao Ye, when he returned home, he saw that Ah Meng had not come back, so he was waiting for him in the study, who knew that he suddenly received a call.
Originally, he thought that the call was either from the master or from Shangguan Jinyue. The only people he could think of calling at this time were probably these two people, but he didn't expect it to be Xue Baixuan who was other than these two people calling.
Liu Xuan and Xue Baixuan have not been in contact for a long time, and in fact, the time is not very long. However, since he came to the imperial capital, a lot of things have happened one after another, and they are all by his side, so he has no time to think about anything else.
It's not that he doesn't care about Xue Baixuan, it's just that there are too many things around him to keep busy at all. One by one, there is still no clue, and it has been under investigation, and it is still very urgent.
If it weren't for Xue Baixuan taking the initiative to call, he might have really almost forgotten how long they hadn't been in touch before, and he had forgotten to ask about the company in Zhongzhou.
I have been away from Zhongzhou for a while, and the situation in Zhongzhou was originally complicated. Xue Baixuan is alone, and she doesn't know if she can be busy, even if someone helps, but after all, Xue Baixuan is still the leader of the company's main things.
Especially in the past, they would report many things to Shangguan Jinyue, but after Shangguan Jinyue's accident, she couldn't even manage many of the company's affairs at the imperial capital headquarters. Not to mention the affairs in Zhongzhou, her mood has not been very stable.
Liu Xuan didn't know if these two people had been in contact, of course, it was a private contact, not an email exchange on official business, and they wouldn't say anything at that time.
"Hey, Xuanxuan, why did you call at this time? Why haven't you slept yet? Are you working overtime? Or did you wait until this time to call me?"
"What about you, haven't you slept either? Or maybe you've always been thinking about things at this time, I know you, I know you won't sleep at this time, I still have some things in my hands that I haven't finished doing, but I'm not in a hurry. ”
"In that case, you should actually rest early. Staying up late is not good for a girl's skin, and I'm not in Zhongzhou now, and there is no one around me who can help you, you definitely need a lot of hard work alone, and it's also very hard. ”
"If you really feel sorry for me, you won't have a phone call or a message during this time. Although we will not be inseparable, it is not necessary to care at all, even if we are ordinary colleagues, and we are not ordinary relationships. ”
"Xuanxuan, are you angry? I've been really busy during this time, you know, I just dared to go to the imperial capital because of Jin Yue's scandal. But in fact, it's not just this one thing, there are a lot of things that happened in the middle, which you never thought about, even I ......."
"Then you should tell me, too. At least, I wouldn't be waiting as stupidly as I am now. No amount of things on the Zhongzhou side are nothing to me, but the way you ignore me all the time makes me very uncomfortable. ”
"Actually, something happened in the Shangguan family in the middle, and then I also found out that the so-called Jin Yue's rumored boyfriend is actually our mutual good friend and grew up together. His life experience is also a little complicated, and he deals with some other things in the middle, makes some so-called new friends, and needs to help new friends with some problems. ”
"You're really not idle at all, no matter where you go, you're always the busiest and the most popular. It seems that everyone is very idle, only you are the busiest, as if the world and the earth revolve around you. ”
"It's not that exaggerated, a lot of things were not expected by me. I also know that it is not appropriate to leave the affairs of Zhongzhou to you alone, so I have always wanted to go back as soon as possible, but I am really busy with the things at hand. ”
"Are you really too busy? But how did I get the news that because you have another confidante, the president is angry with you, and this confidante is also a daughter. ”
"What kind of confidant? You mean to care, don't you? She's not my confidante, I've only known her for a few days, she's old and personality is like a bell or a pearl, I treat her as a sister. And I know her only because of the relationship between the Liu family and the Guan family. ”
"You see you always have different excuses, didn't you say that you don't remember a lot of things in the past? I don't even remember, how do you know which family the Liu family is still related to, in addition to the Shangguan family, how many people do you know in your family, and now they are inexplicably connected. ”
"I also feel very inexplicable, a lot of old friends of the Liu family came out all of a sudden, but I can't deny anything, they haven't shown anything bad at the moment, I can't refuse them directly, friendly things, okay?"
"I can't say anything about those friends either. Since you say that these are your father's old friends, what can I say? But do you really have nothing to do with this caring young lady?"
"So you called here because you were jealous, right? I care, if there is really anything, the first one to jump up is Shangguan Jinyue. Doesn't she stay here now?"
"Don't use the president as an example of me. The president and I are not similar at all, whether it is in terms of origin or all aspects, there is no comparison between the two of us, but she is compared with this young lady who cares. I don't know what she thinks. ”
"I don't know how to explain this matter to you, but if this matter has become a crooked wind blowing to you? maybe, I can really go and clarify with the concern that it is really just an old friend's daughter having a meal together, nothing. ”
"Do you think that the president will not tell me anything, especially with your emotional world. Although the two of you, no, the three of us, have been entangled for a long time, the relationship between the two of us is not as bad as you imagined. ”
"Xuanxuan, what do you mean by that? I don't quite understand. ”
"I've known the president for a long time, I know her and she knows me. Sometimes, I understand with a look from her that she needs me to cover up with her and do some false actions in front of the merchants. Her circle of friends, send some inexplicable moods, and I will understand in an instant. ”
"So she posted some strange mood in the circle of friends, and you saw it, and she mentioned concern in the middle, right? And then you guessed, it must be because of me. ”
"Yes, and by now you should know that she posted that mood to the circle of friends. Probably blocked some people, among these people is you, I don't know why she didn't block me, why let me see this, anyway, after seeing this, my mood is similar to her. ”
Xue Baixuan paused, and continued, "I have always warned myself, don't pay so much attention to you, even if I still like you in my heart, but I must refrain and restrain again, I must be a sane Xue Baixuan." ”
"Xuanxuan, in fact, you don't have to look like this, you can vent when you're in a bad mood. If you have any discomfort in your heart, you can also tell me directly, sometimes we can quarrel, only in this way is the most real you, don't hide it, suppress yourself. ”
"You're wrong, I don't want to be like that. Even if I maintain a high level of tension at any time, but if I want to become like that, Xue Baixuan must also be that image, that is the character I set up for myself, and death must be completed. ”
"Why bother, no one has ever asked you to do this, no one has said what Xue Baixuan is already like, and no one has said how perfect Xue Baixuan must be, you must know that there is no perfect person in this world. ”
"I'm not trying to be perfect, I'm trying to be perfect, I have to be perfect. Because only in this way can I get close to the presidents and their status infinitely, so that I can get what I want. ”
"I thought you had it now, didn't you? Isn't it enough that you have a lot of things that people like you don't have?"
"Liu Xuan, I don't know when I started, I found out that you don't understand me anymore. What do you think I want, a car, a house, or an endless amount of money? Before I met you, I was always a person with aspirations, and I haven't changed yet. ”
"I'm not saying it's bad, I just think there's no need for you to put pressure on yourself. Stress can be dispersed and resolved, although sometimes pressure can become a driving force, but sometimes it can also crush people, especially your family situation, which is not very simple. ”
"But I know what kind of person I want to be, and if I want to be that kind of person, I have to push myself, as long as I don't force myself to death, even if it's a little bit short, I have to do that. ”
When Liu Xuan heard Xue Baixuan say these words, his heart was very uncomfortable. He always thought that Xue Baixuan was a very strong person, but his heart was still soft.
Especially, when a lot of things happened, he felt that Xue Baixuan was that very virtuous person. There was even a time when he thought that he would be with Xue Baixuan, and the other party was simply a typical good wife and mother.
When he was in the Snow House, he was really interested in Xue Baixuan. Later, I also paid attention to the other party's emotions everywhere, for fear that the other party would feel uncomfortable. Later, because he put the other party in danger, he was also very guilty.
Although the two of them only met when they grew up, and they didn't know each other as long as they had known Shangguan Jinyue, Liu Xuan believed that sometimes feelings were not judged by the length of acquaintance.
He likes Xue Baixuan, and Xue Baixuan also likes him. It's just that I don't know when some contradictions gradually began to arise between the two people, and it seems to have become irreconcilable.
The most strange thing is that the original identities of the three of them are not so embarrassing, and the relationship between them is good. But now it has become the most embarrassing triangular relationship, inexplicable.
The contradiction between himself and Shangguan Jinyue is sometimes the same as Xue Baixuan. He thought that such the same thing could be solved, but he found that such a contradiction seemed to have been encountered more than once, and in the end, it was all over.
"Liu Xuan, do you know? The distance between the two of us is never far. Even now that you are in the imperial capital and I am in Zhongzhou, the distance between the two cities is not very far, but I feel that the distance between our hearts is getting farther and farther. ”
"Xuanxuan, I ......"
Liu Xuan didn't know how to explain, he had to admit that what Xue Baixuan said was correct, and he himself had that idea. So close and far, such a distance, this is the last thing he wants to see.
They all know the problem, and they all know the cause of the problem, but they don't face the problem squarely, and they have been avoiding it.
Their way of solving problems is to escape, always thinking that as long as they endure for a while, they will be fine, and the result is gradually faded, like invisible*.