Hello everyone, I'm Lin Qian.

Maybe many people think that I am not angry, and I actually forgave him in the face of a scumbag who has already split his legs. I don't know what your definition of love is?

I was lucky that my parents loved me more than anything. I grew up in a loving environment, so I always felt that everything in this world was good.

My dad is eight years older than my mom, and their encounter is like a beautiful idol drama, but the process of being together is not so simple.

My grandfather felt that my father was much older than my mother, and my mother was married far away. Not to mention, my father at that time had nothing but a heart to work hard. And my grandfather felt that my mother was not a local, not knowledgeable enough, and young. How can we fulfill our responsibilities as a wife and mother?

At that time, everyone was not optimistic about them, but Dad was very firm and decided that his mother was the only wife in his life.

Later, they received the certificate, there was no ring, no banquet, only two people who were firm and loving to each other. Not long after, my mother became pregnant. The burden of the family was on Dad, but Dad never complained. I work hard to make money every day, and on the day I rest, I make food and drink for my mother's body. Dad would also buy a lot of CDs for Mom and listen to songs with Mom. In my free nights, I will take my mother to see the night view, and the two of them will walk around the streets and alleys together.

Later, I was born.

What's particularly funny is that the first thing my dad said when he saw me was "why do you look so ugly", and then he successfully won a white eye from my grandmother. Grandma said that newborns are all red and wrinkled like this, and it is good to grow and grow. Although he said "I dislike me for being ugly", my father hugged me and refused to let go.

The doctor said that I lacked digestive enzymes in my body, so I would have diarrhea as soon as I consumed breast milk. So my father bought me the best milk powder and gave my mother a different way of stewing soup to replenish my body, but I was reluctant to spend a penny. When I was a child, my physical strength was very poor, and I was always sick. Often in the middle of the night, they took me to see a doctor. Every time, Dad let Mom sit and rest and run around on his own, even if he had to go to work for the next day.

In my impression, my father never stayed home at night except for a business trip, and he never came back drunk. He always thought about his mother and me at home. Dad's love is always so deep and warm, it has never changed. Later I grew up and learned about KFC. Mom and Dad took me to eat every week and collected all the toys for the children's menu.

Recently, I broke up with Chen Qing, and the whole person was very depressed. Sometimes I even think, what is still beautiful in this world? Until that day, Dad came back with another KFC. I asked my dad why he insisted on taking me to eat every week when KFC was very expensive? Dad said that in order to let me know that this world is very beautiful, I hope that no matter what setbacks and problems I encounter in the future, I can remember the happiness and beauty of that time, and go on bravely and firmly. It wasn't until that moment that I realized that I had my parents break their hearts for me. I thought I was hiding it well, but they knew it. That's why Dad packed KFC and came back. This man can't express it, but he has always guarded and loved me and my mother in his own way.

After losing Chen Qing, I no longer believed in feelings and men. But my father and mother told me with their actions that true love is always there, and people's hearts are also warm and trustworthy. But I was too vulnerable. Growing up, I had everything, but I never experienced failure. That's why it's so embarrassing and painful now.

In the first month of losing Chen Qing, I thought about him every day, even in my dreams. In my dreams, I was the one who was abandoned. I couldn't sleep well, so I was very haggard. I can't lift my energy every day, like the walking dead. Ding Xin accompanies me every day, always makes me laugh and shares a lot of funny things with me. Seeing her smile, I was also infected with laughter. But after laughing, a sense of loss came to me like a tide. At that moment, I really wanted Chen Qing. I also want to tell Chen Qing about these funny daily routines. However, we are not ordinary quarrels, and he will not appear in front of me again to wipe away my tears. The first month was really hard for me.

In the second month after losing Chen Qing, I began to have the energy to think about something else. I slowly returned to normal, I would take the initiative to share some interesting things with Ding Xin, and occasionally pull Ding Xin out for a walk and see the scenery outside. However, at that time, I would still miss Chen Qing very much, and I wanted to see those scenery with him. Sometimes when I think about it, my heart hurts. However, we will not see each other again, not even strangers. Even if Chen Qing is a drug, I have to quit him. Really, I don't want to see my parents and Xinxin worry anymore, I want to be stronger. But I'm really tormented, really. On the one hand, I know that I am in pain, and on the other hand, I have to keep persuading myself not to worry the people who love me. I always pretend to be fine, but my soul is not in my body, it is floating around......

In the third month of losing Chen Qing, I can finally do it and just think about Chen Qing instead of thinking about Chen Qing. I started to laugh from the bottom of my heart, and the old me was slowly coming back little by little. But one night, when I sat alone in the bay window and watched the night view, I still wondered what Chen Qing was doing at this time?

In the fourth month, I could finally stop thinking about Chen Qing. In the past three months, it was really hard work for Mom and Dad and Shin Shin. They were always there for me and never gave up on me. In the past few months, I have also realized how fragile my heart is and how unable to withstand setbacks. I can't stand being so weak all the time, and I can't deny all my sincerity because of this failed relationship. I began to learn to make myself stronger, even when my head was bleeding. In addition, time has made me understand one thing, that is, time can never cure everything, let alone let you forget. It will only make you face your wounds, and over time you will be able to face and face them, and you will become strong.

I finally did it, and I won't run away from it anymore. Although the process was painful, I still want to believe that better people will appear in the future. Before that person appears, I'm going to try to make myself better~