It was late at night, but I couldn't sleep.

I turned my head to look at Lin Qian, she was lying quietly next to me, already asleep, it seemed that she slept well tonight. The two days she spent home were probably the best she slept in recently. I feel sorry for her, and I know why she is in such pain. I have known Lin Qian for eight years, and she has been with Chen Qing for three years, and I am also a witness to their relationship.

In the second year of junior high school, Chen Qing suddenly appeared in Lin Qian's world. The window after class, the cafeteria during lunch break, the bus stop after school, and even the gymnasium on weekends...... His offensive against Lin Qian is so strong, I think that ordinary girls may not be able to resist it for a long time, after all, at that time, we were in a very vague but longing for love.

To be honest, I was really not optimistic about Chen Qing at first. On the one hand, he felt that Chen Qing was too bells and whistles, and his liking was too strong and suffocating. On the other hand, because he actually doesn't know Lin Qian that well, he and Lin Qian are really not people of the same world.

Lin Qian, whom I have known, is an independent, determined and warm person. She can complete everything the teacher explains with great efficiency. She is goal-oriented and decisive and does not let anything else shake her faith. She never looked at anyone with any colored glasses, even when I was at the time.

As for Chen Qing, he is playful and casual, and Lin Qian is completely from two worlds. Lin Qian also thought so, so he rejected him from the beginning. We all thought that this would only be an episode of junior high school life, but we never expected that the only thing Chen Qing insisted on doing at that time was to like Lin Qian. Even though Lin Qian rejected Chen Qing again and again, he still persevered in Lin Qian's world. Later, I didn't know who gave him the idea, he actually asked Lin Qian to make up for him, he said that in this way, he would be able to merge with Lin Qian's world. Lin Qian couldn't stand his soft grinding and hard bubbles, so he had to help him make up for his lessons. Since then, we've often eaten together, gone home together, and done homework together on weekends. When you think about it, it was the happiest time.

In the process of getting along with each other, Lin Qian and I gradually learned about the other side of Chen Qing. The reason why Chen Qing is so rebellious is because his parents are so busy that they can't even remember what floor Chen Qing's class is on and who the head teacher is. Every family has a scripture that is difficult to read. But at least, they must all love their children deeply, but in different ways. Later, before our high school entrance examination, Chen Qing confessed to Lin Qian again. Lin Qian told Chen Qing that if he could be admitted to high school, then they would be together. Later, you also knew that Chen Qing really tried his best to be with Lin Qian.

Actually, I envy Lin Qian. I envy her for having such a loving family and parents who love her so much. And my family brought me only endless darkness and pain, which once made me feel inferior and couldn't raise my head.

My parents were in an arranged marriage and there was no love between them. My dad, no, I don't want to call him that anymore, he doesn't deserve it. At that time, my grandparents were very poor, and they had to raise two daughters, and life was extremely difficult. One year, my grandfather fell, and the burden of life fell on my mother and grandmother. My mother and grandmother got up early every day to do farm work in the fields, and my aunt took care of my grandfather at home. At that time, I thought that everything would get better over time, but I never thought that happiness and misfortune would not go alone. There was a great drought that year, and the crops were all dried up, and there was no harvest.

Just when the whole family was anxious about how to survive, the man appeared. He is a Murakami mother, and he has fallen in love with his mother before and called the matchmaker to kiss. But my mother heard others say that he likes to drink and has a bad temper, so she didn't agree. My grandparents also scolded my mother, thinking that my mother was hypocritical. She lives in a small two-story building and has a formal job, and she is blessed to be able to see her mother. Unexpectedly, at this juncture, he came again. looked at my grandfather who was still lying in bed to recuperate, my grandmother who was crying helplessly, and my sister who was dazed. This time, Mom didn't refuse him.

The man took his mother with a bag of rice and twenty yuan. After my mother got married, life did not get any better. The man was very rude to his mother, he felt that his mother looked down on him, and in the end he was exchanged for his home like a cargo, so why not agree with it at the beginning. Mom is in pain and wants a divorce. But thinking of the helpless three people at home, I finally gritted my teeth and endured it.

And I, too, was forced by that man to force my mother. The moment my mother learned that she was pregnant, her first thought was to beat me, but in the end she couldn't bear it. And the man was very happy when he learned that his mother was pregnant. He no longer treated his mother so roughly, and even began to be gentle. Mom was amazed at the man's change, but then no one would refuse to get better, wouldn't she?

Unfortunately, happy times are short-lived. Ten months later, I was born. When the grandparents learned that their mother had given birth to a daughter, they turned around and left. Although the man didn't turn around and left, the disgust in his eyes couldn't be hidden...... And Mom, happy and sad. Happy October conceived and gave birth to a healthy baby, sad that I am a girl, and my mother is afraid that I will suffer like her in the future.

Later, the man returned to his previous appearance, always bullying his mother and even worsening it. In the past, my mother endured it for my grandparents and aunt, but now she endures it for me.

For as long as I can remember, there was always the sound of things breaking in their room and the sound of my mother sobbing inpatiently, but my mother never showed a single thing in front of me. Later, when I was old enough to go to school, my mother wanted to send me to a public school in the town to get a good education. The man disagreed, saying that I was a money-loser, just raise and marry casually, and I didn't need to study. In order to let me go to that school, my mother took the initiative to cater to the man, and promised to have another son for him, as long as I could go to a good school. In the end, he agreed. When I went to study, I realized that there was such a big difference between people, and it turned out that my family was different from others.

A year later, I had my younger brother. That man didn't have me in his eyes.

My clothes are old, but I don't think there's anything wrong with that. However, that day, I was ridiculed by my classmates, and everyone laughed at me for not having nice clothes or hairpins. It was also at that time that I learned what it means to have low self-esteem. Later, I was afraid to go to school every day, but when I thought that my mother had earned it for me, I had to bite the bullet. Reading every day in torment, reading desperately, hoping that one day I can take my mother away from that man.

Then, go to junior high school. My grades were good enough to go to the best school in town. But this time, the man said that he would not pay for my tuition, and he spoke ill of my mother. I couldn't take it anymore and confronted him. As a result, the man gave me a backhand slap in the face. This slap hurt me and woke my mom up. My mother rushed into the kitchen with a kitchen knife, pointed at the man with red eyes and shouted, "You dare to be rough with my daughter again, believe it or not, I fought with you!"

Fortunately, my aunt thanked my mother for sacrificing her happiness for the sake of the family, so she raised me with my mother.

I went to the best junior high school in town, but I still had low self-esteem. Because I don't have a complete family, because I'm poor. I became more and more afraid of getting around people, so I didn't have any friends. It wasn't until later that he met Lin Qian.

She never cared that I didn't have nice clothes, or that I didn't have nice hairpins. She would share her mother's sandwiches with me, and she was not afraid of other people's opinions and walked with me.

Over the past eight years, she has warmed my fragile and sensitive heart. I also want to be as confident and determined as she is.

She was the one who brought me back from the abyss eight years ago, and now it's me who protects her.

Shallow, you've been saying thank you to me lately. Actually, I really want to say thank you to me, thank you for pulling me back from the brink of death, thank you for being my good friend.

Good night