Chapter 8: Separation 3 - Matters of the Heart

"Hui Wazi, I resigned today. Xia Xue looked at the smiling faces of the crowd outside the window and said calmly.

"Ahh Why..."Although Li Shaohui had been prepared, when Xia Xue said it and the dust settled, his heart still twitched involuntarily, and at the same time, various emotions such as reluctance and pain began to roll in his heart, tearing him. After all, she still resigned, and she still had to leave after all, where was she going? Could it be that Shanghai really had no nostalgia for her at all? Li Shaohui's hand trembled, and the lighter also took the opportunity to wither, and a clang, sounded in the hearts of him and Xia Xue.

Li Shaohui looked at Xia Xue's emaciated cheeks, trembling lips, and wanted to speak, but after a long time, he still gave up, neither courage nor reason, cowardly in Xia Xue's gentle wry smile, instantly blurred his eyes, he followed Xia Xue's line of sight, looked out of the window, the glass on the window condensed a lot of water droplets, drop by drop, leaving a piece of improvised graffiti works;

"This firework is probably the fate of me and Sister Xue!" Li Shaohui smiled bitterly in his heart, life will eventually be separated, I knew today, why did I have to know each other again? Why did I wave goodbye when I just understood my mind.

I don't know when, it was late at night, the customers of the small shop dispersed one after another, Li Shaohui and Xia Xue also cleaned up their mood and walked out silently. The weather outside was still bitterly cold, and through Li Shaohui's clothes, it was cold to his heart.

"Let's just go for a walk!" Xia Xue proposed, and Li Shaohui nodded silently.

The two walked one after the other, looking at Xia Xue's back, Li Shaohui took a few steps faster and walked side by side. When I used to walk with Xia Xue, I always liked to follow her, which seemed neither very close nor very distant, but tonight, Li Shaohui was very reluctant, and just wanted to walk side by side with her, go on...

Neither of them spoke, as if they were afraid of disturbing the silence and warmth of the night. At this time, the moon stars were scarce, and the bright moonlight was gently sprinkled on the two of them, emitting a faint soft light, and there was some poignancy and confusion in the haze.

Li Shaohui suddenly thought of the story of Chang'e running to the moon, since the separation of Chang'e and Houyi is a foregone conclusion, why can't Chang'e and Wu Gang be together? Since Houyi and Chang'e are both lovers and love each other deeply, but they can't give each other happiness, why can't they let each other accept the care of others? Doesn't it mean that love is giving, and it is fulfillment? Why do they have to ruthlessly take away each other's right to pursue happiness in the name of true love? Why do they have to deeply imprison each other under the guise of love and purity?

Perhaps the thousand-year-old true love and pure obsession have long since become a dose of poison and a tool to torture each other.

Li Shaohui looked at the bright moon in the sky, and inexplicably gave birth to such a feeling, he looked down at the shadows of the two, the shadows were long and short, bright and dark, unpredictable, but they would be staggered together from time to time, regardless of each other. However, as time slowly passed, the bright moon moved westward, and the figures of the two gradually drifted apart, and they could no longer blend with each other.

"Could it be that after this farewell, I and her will never have the chance to get together again. Li Shaohui sighed, his eyes were slightly wet, as if there was sand in his eyes.

Soon, the two walked to a small bridge, Xia Xue stopped, stopped, she slowly, slowly turned around, and Li Shaohui looked at each other, staring at Li Shaohui for a moment, her sexy and plump red lips opened slightly, and said: "Hui Wazi, my sister is leaving, this time I left, I'm afraid I will never come back in the future, there is no longer something worthy of my sister's nostalgia in Shanghai, I have been drifting here for so many years, my sister has been working hard, she has been fighting, but she can't find the feeling of home anyway, so..." Xia Xue said, as if she remembered the past, her eyes began to be hazy, and there were crystal tears brewing, she looked at Li Shaohui fixedly, letting the tears flow slowly, letting the sadness rage, but her cheeks also flew a touch of redness, she slowly spoke, her voice was ethereal and coquettish, she said: "My sister has been in Shanghai for so many years, there is such a bosom friend as you, this is also the only thing that my sister can't give up before leaving, I don't know if you are willing to --- would like to go with my sister ----- ---?"

Li Shaohui's body trembled, his lips trembled, and the tears in his eyes flowed silently, wetting his entire heart.

"Now that you are single, and your sister is also single, we have no bonds with each other, and we can fly away together, leave this sad place, and start over. Xia Xue stood on tiptoe to wipe away Li Shaohui's tears, with a smile and tears on her face.

"Let's go together, let's go together!" Li Shaohui thought silently in his heart, very confused, in fact, Xia Xue's suggestion was a very pragmatic choice, now he and she are sad people, just to warm each other together and spend the rest of their lives together.

I have known Xia Xue for four years, in the past four years, I promised Xiao Bei Lin Yue'er that these women did not break into their hearts without their consent, and after staying for a while, they hurt themselves fiercely, and after being tortured to death, they waved their hands in a chic manner, without a little nostalgia, they abandoned themselves in place and left away, and they and they were just a hurried passerby, maybe after a few years of spring and autumn, when they remembered themselves, there was only a vague shadow, which would neither make them feel joy nor pain。

But now when the song is over, there will still be such a sad woman who cares about herself, and wants to fly away with herself, Li Shaohui looked at Xia Xue steadily, and thought of her care for her mother and sister on weekdays, thought of the gentle and kind heart under her bold and pungent appearance, thought of the innocent and ambiguous years that she had walked with her, and also thought of the first meeting in the bar where she promised to compete with her, and also thought of the four of them gathering in the bar, Lin Yue'er's heartbroken face...

Thinking wandering to this moment, Li Shaohui's fiery heart calmed down a little, and he thought of the scar between himself and Xia Xue--- He Yonghui, so he paused, and asked very slowly and seriously: "Sister Xue, I have a question, can you tell me truthfully?"

Xia Xue said softly: "Just ask, my sister said that she wouldn't lie to you in the future." ”

"Sister Xue, if I leave with you, can you let go of your husband --- ex-husband? Can you forget him forever? Can you always forget the beautiful past between the two of you? Can you love me wholeheartedly? No longer treat me as a shadow of him?" Li Shaohui asked in a dumb voice, looking extremely expectant, as long as Xia Xue can decisively answer "yes", he decided to accompany her to wander the world, and now Li Shaohui, who is tormented by love, also understands that compared to an earth-shattering love, a home that knows cold and hot is the most important.

"Nature is possible. Hearing Xia Xue's words, Li Shaohui breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, and wanted to grab Xia Xue's hand and walk with her, but Xia Xue's next words made him fall into the abyss, "Two people got married and formed a family, not only have moral constraints, but also have responsibilities and obligations. ”

"Haha, haha!" Inexplicably, Li Shaohui suddenly laughed, he laughed for a while, and then said bitterly: "Isn't what you're talking about living together?

Xia Xue smiled bitterly: "Isn't life like this? When we pick it up, it is vigorous, and when we put it down, of course, it takes a period of time.

Who hasn't tried to fight for what they want, but when they have to put it down, those moments of picking it up have been engraved in your life, and it has become an inseparable part of it, and it is no longer beyond our control. ”

Li Shaohui smiled bitterly: "When two people are together, if they don't even have a water-melting love, how can they be happy?

Xia Xue looked at Li Shaohui, suddenly smiled again, and said angrily: "Fool, say that you are a child, you really can't grow up, love is a gift that children ask for, we are all adults, in the world of adults, only talk about appropriateness, no matter what else." ”

Hearing this, Li Shaohui's heart was filled with a sense of sadness, don't adults need love? Is this really the case? Is life really just need to be suitable, and does not need love?

Isn't it good to be suitable, suitable, suitable? Aren't the older generation all coming over like this? They also seem to be very happy, they often say that life is very short, and a short moment of opening and closing eyes can be over, so the secret of two people being together is to be confused, confused in a trance, and a short life is over.

But I understand the reason, why can't I let it go? Why do I always care about what my lover thinks in my heart?" Li Shaohui smiled gloomily, he looked at Xia Xue, and said resentfully: "Sister Xue, you are so ruthless and cruel, you should understand my mind, I just want to find a high-sounding reason for my escape, but why do you have to expose it?"

Xia Xue smiled bitterly: "Hui Wazi, it's not that my sister is ruthless, it's very simple to lie, a matter of one or two sentences, but don't you find that the two of us are very similar?