Chapter 7: What is Love?
Li Shaohui felt a pain in his heart, and remembered Lin Yue'er's sad face when he was leaving, he sighed and said, "The matter is over, and everything is irreparable, so naturally I won't blame you anymore." β
Xia Xue naturally heard the duplicity of these reluctant words, she laughed dryly, and said, "Come less, I'm at least half of your master, what do you think in your heart, I still don't know?"
Li Shaohui was told by Xia Xue, laughed, and ate again, Xia Xue stopped talking, just looked at him silently. When Li Shaohui finally eliminated the pot of food that Xia Xue had prepared for him, Xia Xue took out the snacks he had bought earlier with bad intentions.
"No, Sister Xue, I've already eliminated so much, I'm already full, how can I still eat these, besides, these are all bought for you, it's my pure heart, how can you be embarrassed to share it with others?" Looking at the bag of snacks in Xia Xue's hand, Li Shaohui was simply frightened, and he hurriedly thought of several reasons to refuse.
But Xia Xue didn't eat this at all, she once again put on the posture of seeing the Jews, pitiful, her mouth wide open, ready to have another earth-shattering coquettishness.
"Okay, I'll eat, I'll eat. It is said that heroes are sad to pass the beauty pass, although Li Shaohui knows that Xia Xue's old tricks are repeated, but he is helpless.
"It's festive. Looking at Li Shaohui's vicious appearance, Xia Xue said silently, with a soft expression on her face, without a hint of laughter.
Li Shaohui wanted to say a few words back, but looking at Xia Xue's gentle appearance, his mouth was wide open, and he was stunned for a while, and Xia Xue also stared at him.
Li Shaohui felt slightly embarrassed, didn't dare to look at it anymore, hurriedly lowered his head and ate, and after a while, he patted his bulging belly, burped, and announced the end of the meal. He wanted to experience the feeling of "a cigarette after dinner, like a living fairy", but looking at the shy proprietress who wanted to speak and stopped, he had to smile awkwardly, put the cigarette case back in his trouser pocket, and played with the lighter in his hand.
"Hui Wazi. Suddenly, he screamed softly, and his tone was affectionate, just like a small town in Jiangnan after the rain, which will always make people have some ambiguous love.
"Huh?" Li Shaohui looked at Xia Xue, whose face was slightly red, I don't know why, today's Xia Xue is really strange, and she will look so gentle at every turn.
Xia Xue looked at Li Shaohui for a long time, and the look on her face also changed and changed, first solemn to shy, and then to the bright smile of the past, she "exhaled" a breath and said with a smile: "Hui Wazi, have you ever thought that among these girls you have contacted, the two of us are the most suitable, have you ever thought about being with your sister?"
"Huh, the two of us?" Li Shaohui touched his hot cheeks, looking at the smile on Xia Xue's face, he couldn't guess what she was thinking, was she serious or did she want to tease herself?
Xia Xue looked at Li Shaohui fixedly, and said with a straight face: "Yes, it's the two of us, you broke up with your previous girlfriends, although there are various reasons, but one thing you should know is that it is really not suitable between you." β
"Huh?" Li Shaohui looked at Xia Xue and didn't know why.
Xia Xue said: "Although I don't know what is going on with you and your first girlfriend, you should also understand that first love generally does not end well, after all, everyone was still very ignorant at that time, full of yearning for love, thinking that it was perfect and could not tolerate a little dust, so once there was a little dirt, it was inevitable to break up." What's more, you have been separated for so long, and no matter how good your relationship is, it has faded and become strange.
As for Xiao Bei, who died to save you, although she is very pitiful and great, you should know that that kind of paranoid and near-crazy character is destined to go off the rails and will not end well.
And your Duo'er, she is a very good girl, but at the same time she is also an extremely sensitive woman, this kind of woman is generally difficult to enter her heart, even if you are lucky enough to enter, her sensitivity and inferiority complex will be like a small black house, trapped by you, so that you can't see a little sunshine, and you can't breathe, so you will live very tired and painful, and even life is better than death, and she still has a disgraceful experience after all, even if you don't care, you have to think about your family, so your breakup is inevitableγ β
Li Shaohui was stunned after hearing this, and said for a long time: "Sister Xue, then according to what you say, then Lin Yue'er and I are suitable after all, right? She loves me, I love her, and she doesn't have what you just said." β
Xia Xue sighed and said: "Hui Wazi, the most rare thing for a person is to see yourself clearly, although Lin Yue'er is a very good woman, she is just not suitable for you." β
"Why? Impossible, if it hadn't happened that day, she and I would have been fine?"
"Then do you know why this happened?"
"It's not because of you..."Li Shaohui stopped talking and didn't continue, what's the point of saying this now?
"I admit that I took advantage of you, that I couldn't help you, but have you thought carefully about the nature of this matter? You are a bit of a macho person, and in your heart, you are not very able to accept that women are stronger than men, and you can't see others despise you for this. Maybe for three years and five years, you can endure this for Lin Yue'er, but after a long time, this kind of demon hidden in your heart will torment you, all because of your low self-esteem, and your low self-esteem will lead to your suspicion, which is also the main reason for that incident.
Also, can you really be yourself in front of Lin Yue'er? You just try to show your good side in front of her, and completely package your shortcomings. When falling in love, everyone does this, and they try to show their good side, but when it comes to marriage, it won't work, this kind of blind please, of course, is your unconscious please, and there will always be gaps.
Besides, if this kind of life is too long, will you be happy? Can you live a relaxed life? Life and marriage are originally honest and mutually tolerant, and when you love each other's advantages, you should also tolerate each other's shortcomings, after all, no one is perfect, so you and Lin Yue'er and you have been walking on a dangerous road for a long time, and if you go further, there will be cliffs in front of you. β
Xia Xue's outspokenness made Li Shaohui very uncomfortable, he smiled and said, "Sister Xue, you really know how to say, I don't see where the two of us are suitable?"
Xia Xue said: "I said that we are suitable for a reason, don't you find that you are particularly open in front of your sister? Speaking of this, Xia Xue glanced at Li Shaohui and chuckled: "Hui Wazi, besides, we have known each other for so long, my sister knows you well, and it is natural to take care of you." β
Xia Xue's words made Li Shaohui's heart "plop" for a moment, he couldn't figure out Xia Xue's intentions, so he had to smile and say: "Tsk, Sister Xue, you are really the princess of the new century, you are really good at selling and boasting of your kung fu, I really admire you, but you still ignore a little bit of your benefits?"
"What's the benefit?" Xia Xue was a little happy when she heard Li Shaohui praising herself.
"You should add that you have had a marriage, although you are only a failure, but you also learned from it how to manage marriage, and you will not make the same mistake when you start a family in the future - make mistakes---- why are you kicking me?
Xia Xue kicked Li Shaohui fiercely and scolded: "I let you be poor, I let you give me a mouth." β
After a while, Xia Xue was discouraged, and said: "Hui Wazi, don't worry, if we form a new family, my sister will definitely not bully you, when the time comes, the affairs of the family are outside your lord and my lord, and I am in charge of small things and you are in charge of big things, isn't it good?"
Li Shaohui rolled his eyes, "Is that so? Why don't I believe it at all? I'm afraid that the thief ship will be easy to get on and off, when the time comes, you will be angry, and the things at home are estimated to be all trivial, will there be a little big thing?"
"Well, even if you know each other, although there are some errors in your understanding, it is generally so. Xia Xuejiao smiled and gave Li Shaohui an approving look.
After Xia Xue and Li Shaohui finished telling this joke that seemed to be true or false, there was a short silence, the two stared at each other, and time seemed to freeze at this moment, after a long time, Xia Xue seemed to feel a little embarrassed, and turned her head to look out the window.
Li Shaohui was also a little nervous, turned his head to look away, he has known Xia Xue for so many years, if he has no other thoughts about Xia Xue, I am afraid that even God will not let him go, but does he really love Xia Xue?
After so many years, on this cold night, Li Shaohui began to seriously examine his relationship with Xia Xue for the first time.
After thinking about it for a long time, he didn't quite understand, maybe there were some, otherwise when he promised to eat his own and hers' vinegar, although he was trying to defend himself, he didn't have the courage to resign and cut off all contact with Xia Xue, of course, material work is also a factor, but the restless mind in his heart is probably there!
As promises believe, there will never be true friendship between men and women, and everything is ill-intentioned under the guise of friendship. And if it was really friendship, why did he eat Xia Xue's vinegar? Why did he get angry when he knew that he had a relationship with that hooligan Xue Gong, and even wanted to beat her severely? Why was that kind of grief and humiliation no less than seeing Lin Yue'er with his own eyes, why did Yonghui shed tears of sadness?
Perhaps, unconsciously, he has fallen in love with Xia Xue, but this kind of love is not as young and ignorant as Tang Fengling, not as pity and guilt as Xiao Bei, not as full of **naked** and hot love as He Promise, and not as indifferent and warm as Lin Yue'er.
In fact, if you think about it carefully, you have coveted it from the beginning. However, as time goes by, the relationship between herself and her has become complicated, there is a friendship between master and apprentice, there is also the love of sister and brother, and of course, there is also the ambiguity of men and women.