I also have some unspeakable pasts, maybe I don't want to look back on this life, but now I endure the heartache and sit on the edge of the bed to tell Tang Xi eloquently. The reason why I said to him was not to win his sympathy, but to make him understand that liking me would be a point of no return. If he chooses to quit now, I won't blame or resent him. [Look at my little bit of interest, if Gu Yan is going to be buried by the sanitary eye again!]

I called Gu Yan before, and asked her to take care of my Xiaobai for me at these times. Gu Yan choked up on the phone and made my eyes red, and I knew that she felt sorry for me, just like she had guarded my side at the beginning. I can live alive and kicking, except for my friend Xiao He, only Gu Yan is left to me.

"This is my second miscarriage, did my parents tell you that they took their grandson's life two or three years ago?" I stared at Tang Xi with red eyes.

Tang Xi stretched out his hand to wipe the tears from my face in distress, and wanted to reach out to hug me in distress, but I pushed him away. I don't need the sympathy of others, and I have no other way but to admit that my life is miserable when I meet such a wonderful parent.

Looking at him shaking his head with a solemn face, I asked him with a chuckle: "Have you ever thought about why they who have always disagreed with me and Song Cheng, why did they suddenly agree to me and Song Cheng marrying?"

Tang Xi still shook his head, but I turned my face away and wiped my eyes fiercely, and sighed: "Because the doctor said that the sequelae of the abortion operation back then are that I am very likely to be unable to have children in this life." They felt guilty and felt sorry for me, so they compensated with concessions. It was a boy, with clear eyebrows and eyes that looked like me, especially the thin lips that were carved out of a mold. I buried him on the hill behind Zonghai Temple and erected a small monument. You know why I never let you go to the little room in my house, it's the room I have for my son, and I don't want anyone else to see it first. "Tears once again poured down like a flood that burst the embankment, and I buried my whole face on the pillow, I didn't want to see what expression Tang Xi's face was on at this moment.

My hands were clenched into fists, and the sharp nails pierced the tender skin of my palms, and the stinging pain was not worth a ten-thousandth of the despair and grief in my heart. I haven't been home to see my parents since that incident, and I owe them the moment the child leaves my body. Don't say I'm not filial, and please don't complain that I'm not sensible, it's fair to give one life back.

"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. Tang Xi leaned down and hugged me tightly, and a suspicious coldness slid into my neck, as if tears.

I shook my head and replied in a choked voice: "It's all gone, I don't resent or grieve, I just feel so sorry." Sitting up straight, I leaned on his shoulder and sighed heavily: "I am so sincerely looking forward to these two children, after all, I still have a shallow fate." ”

Tang Xi tightened his shoulders and said bitterly: "Don't be sad, we will still have children, there are many, many more." Our family has money, you can have as many as you want, and I am willing to pay as much as you want. ”

If it were usual, I would definitely jump up and point at his nose and scold, you are so rich and amazing, right, you dare to say such a big thing. It's a pity that at this time, I didn't have the mood to laugh at all, leaning on his arms and crying silently. Sometimes I do need a strong and reliable shoulder for me to lean on, and silently wait for the tears to dry up and transform into Super Saiyan Female King Kong again.

Leaning on Tang Xi's body, he took the tissue paper he handed over and wiped away his tears and snot, and fell asleep after being dizzy for a while. Compared with crying until vomiting and crying until falling asleep, it is inevitably not a kind of happiness.

It was noon the next day when I woke up again, and when I opened my eyes, I looked at the completely unfamiliar room, and I was stunned for a while before I remembered that I was now in the villa village of Tang Xi's hometown. The position next to him was already empty, and he reached out and subconsciously touched the cold bed, it seemed that Tang Xi was no longer here.

I got out of bed on tiptoe, changed into the clothes that were neatly folded on the sofa, tightened the clothes that seemed to be bigger, and walked into the bathroom with slippers. This is Tang Xi's home, whether it is a bedroom or a bathroom, the decoration style has a touch of the elegance of the Oriental classical aristocracy. It's a pity that I'm a layman, and I can't appreciate such elegance.

After washing, fiddling with my face in the mirror, I smiled bitterly, I really didn't know what kind of expression to put on to face Tang Xi's family. When I opened the door of the bathroom, I raised my eyes and met Tang Xi's slightly worried eyes, I didn't expect him to wait outside, which really startled me.

I took a step back, and without warning my waist hit the dresser on the side, and I stopped him from trying to hold my arm, grinning and asking, "Are you in a hurry to go to the bathroom?" ”

Tang Xi sighed, took my hand and walked to the bed, and after I sat down, he squatted on the ground to put on my socks. I looked at him dumbfounded, his head bowed and supple, and my eyes only felt dry. His supple black hair seemed to grow a little, sliding down his neck with a thrilling hint of beauty.

Suddenly, I began to fantasize that if I and his child were still alive, if I could be born and grow up safely, would I be more like him or more like me? Would I call my mother and call him father in a soft voice? If all this had not happened, would I have been able to keep him if my relationship with my child had deepened?

"Are the shoes comfortable? I asked the master to make them for you, didn't you say that you can't always buy the right shoes? Get up and take two steps to see if it's comfortable. Tang Xi looked at my face seriously and whispered to me.

I was slightly stunned, stood up and walked a few steps forward, stomped my feet by the way, nodded and smiled: "It's very suitable, thank you." ”

Tang Xi walked in front of me against the light, held my face condescendingly, kissed the corner of my mouth, and sighed lightly: "Never say thank you to me, no matter how much I do to you, I should do it to you." ”

I chuckled and didn't answer, there is never anything to be taken for granted in this world, and it should depend on what you think. Taken by his hand, I walked downstairs with a bumpy heart, following behind him and not daring to look up.

"Don't be afraid, I'm in charge. ”

The simple six words made me feel a lot more settled, it was already noon at this time, and I heard Tang Xi say that no one would be in their house at this time. But when I looked up curiously, I was completely dumbfounded, didn't he say that no one was at home, why was this living room full of people?