I've seen the world since I was born, and I take it for granted that it really exists.

However, I have not seen a world that does not exist, so how can I determine that this world really exists?

For example, I've seen water since I was a child, but is there such a thing as water? There's no reason to claim that water is real just because I've been looking at it.

It seems that all the discussion is based on the assumption that this world is real.

That awareness is everything, and what else is there to say? All the killings are just to see clearly how you relate those picture elements, how you believe in some unfounded affirmations.

That's all.

The sense of ease is gone, and there is not the slightest trace of it. Perhaps, the only thing that has changed is that I suddenly find myself heavy again.

I don't know why, maybe it's the character's instinct to survive, maybe it's the failure to completely abandon self-definition, maybe that's the way to kill. There are so many possibilities, but thankfully, I don't need to figure out what's going on.

It's all happened, that's the way it is, why why?

I've always wanted to know why, and I've always wanted to find a perfect explanation. Unfortunately, the explanation is speculation, and this kind of thing is better to stay away from me. The paradox is that I don't know but I think I should know, and that's what caused all the problems.

Why should I know? Why should I know? So many years of education seem to have been instilling the principle of human supremacy incessantly, as if it is a necessary and great thing to make things clear.

But is it really possible to figure it out?

No matter how far human civilization goes, the assumption that objective things are real will always be a hypothesis. However, in this orchestrated dream, these assumptions are very necessary. If everybody starts thinking about reality, how can they still dream?

Perhaps, there is such a world, where everyone thinks about the truth, and everyone finds that they belong to the false. There is no social conflict, no evil and no good, everyone just lives and waits for death. Moreover, in the process of waiting for death, there will be no complaints and discomfort.

Yuan Changwen felt uncomfortable, what a familiar feeling, since the previous sense of relief appeared, Yuan Changwen thought that he would not have this uncomfortable feeling again. Now, the content of the picture he perceived tells Yuan Changwen how naïve his thoughts are.

It's true that I don't know anything, so it's just wishful thinking to think that the discomfort won't come again. Like, "Good people have good rewards", "There is a rainbow after the storm", "You can only meet heaven after going through hell", etc., are all wishful thinking and humble prayers.

I'm still believing in the twist in my head, what the hell!

Is this the setting of Yuan Changwen's character? Set it up like this? Set it up like a series of chaotic states of slashing and going around in circles?

Yuan Changwen wanted to cry, especially wanted to cry, but the tears were taken away by the lake before they could be shed. The lake was originally a little warm, but it became cold after feeling the tears.

I don't know why I'm still alive, and I don't know why the character of Yuan Changwen hasn't died yet. What is the situation of all this, why is the sense of relief gone, why is the discomfort coming again?

The point is, there wasn't anything that made me uncomfortable, as if it was all forced to happen like a movie. The characters simply go with the flow and have no power to resist at all.

I allowed this discomfort to appear, without any resistance, but I always felt a little inexplicable. It's like a person who was already eating ice cream and suddenly started eating again, what kind of situation is this.

Nothing is a must, and nothing is important. It doesn't matter what Yuan Changwen's character does, what is there to forcibly distort?

Fate, are you talking about this?

I don't know, and there's no need to explain these things. These are not at all behaviors that a character can try to emulate, but something that comes naturally when the character is not afraid of life.

There is no need to imitate the saints, there is no need to take some books as holy decrees, and there is no need to live one's life according to the deeds of the saints. The world is mine, and imitating anyone else's behavior is tantamount to putting the cart before the horse.

I can't be sure if the other person is real, and I'm not sure if the saint exists, so why make myself a parody show? Be the inner state of the other person, not imitate their actions.

Could it be that a person who lives his life according to the Buddha's actions can become a Buddha? If it really could, then there would have been countless Buddhas in the world long ago, and after all, everyone can imitate and endure hardships.

What am I still writing about? There is simply nothing to continue to kill, and nothing to be killed yet. None of these fake things exist, I just believe in these fake things.

Nothing is worth believing, including the words "I am a human being." Nothing is certain, I can only say what I think is certain. All descriptions are almost an extension of the subjective state, and in fact it is, because the whole world is subjectively seen.

There is no evidence that what I see is objectively real.

That awareness is everything, so the world that appears at this moment is only what is perceived. Including the character of Yuan Changwen, his body and thinking are all just the content of awareness.

There are fears everywhere, some look big and some look small, but these are fears. And the so-called distinction between big and small is itself a trick of fear.

"It's good to buy a house, and now I can rest assured. ”

"It's good to be married, there's nothing to worry about. ”

"If you have a job, you don't have to worry about it, and it will get better. ”

Isn't this a reprieve? If the fear is pressed too hard, will the character collapse? And when the character collapses, anger will inevitably burn the fear and seek the truth, and the dream will be destroyed.

This is not the state of fear desire, so all fears are done in batches. It's like a big goal, when broken down into countless smaller goals, it's no longer so out of reach. Breaking down the fear into countless small fears gives the character hope.

Then, the character will only encourage himself, "there is still a little bit, it will be over soon" and so on. And comfort yourself, "With this, you can relax, you don't have to worry, you can do what you want to do freely" and so on.

When you think you are free from one fear, it won't be long before another one arises. So, try again to get rid of another fear.

And the whole cycle is called "upward".