The only truth I can only understand but never touch. Because when you really grasp the truth, when you really touch the truth, there is no longer the role of Yuan Changwen.

This kind of contradiction may only be solved when you stand on top of the truth.

That residual fear is still affecting me, and of course it doesn't matter, who knows what will happen?

All the importance is just what I think is important. This state of affairs itself shows that there is no "important" label for a thing. If I can think something is important, I can also think that it is not important.

Moreover, the word "important" is also based on fear. If I'm not afraid of life, is there anything that matters and doesn't matter? Is there anything else that must be done in life? All behavioral choices have completely become the unreasonable routine of "I do".

Why should you be reasonable? What is there to be reasonable? You think you are a human being, and this is the most unreasonable thing. So, who qualifies anything else to be unreasonable?

It's always said, don't be so extreme, don't get to the bottom of it, why not, because the character knows, and it destroys the character, the life, and the whole universe. If you want to live well, then the above statement is completely true and should be praised a lot.

But want to be real, or rather, not willing to continue lying, want to be an honest person. Then, you can only keep asking, and you can only keep finding that the knowledge in your head is a piece of shit.

When you find that what you believe, what you believe, and what you advocate has become a piece of shit, it is natural to get angry. If a person has been deceived by these things all his life and can not be angry, this is a magical existence.

Of course, it is also possible that in this orchestrated dream, what is impossible? To think that something is impossible to happen is in itself a blasphemy against orchestration.

It's all fear, and when you talk to someone, it's all unverified assumptions, all unfounded affirmations. And the other party seems to be very kind, very worried about my state, thinking that people should be happy when they are alive or something.

I didn't know how to deal with it, and the most important thing was that they didn't care if I liked it or not. Directly unilaterally think that this state is not good, and then turn on the self-righteous mode of kindness, and the subtext is saying "come and praise me, come and thank me" and so on.

Because if I don't appreciate it, then the other party will be angry. So the other party didn't want to dissuade me at all, but just wanted to show his own character attributes.

"I was kind enough to persuade him, alas, forget it......", is this kind of word still heard less?

It's like parents never ask, "How are you", but just start to get married in a hurry and say "this is good for you" and so on.

I don't quite understand, what qualifications do parents have to determine that these are good things and bad things? If parents are really so powerful, why are they not at the top of their lives? If the distortion in the brain is really so effective, then why are they still in fear and anxiety?

Why is there still such a thing as irritability?

Haven't decades of life experience been able to tell you that the so-called knowledge and cognition in your head are actually a piece of shit?

Alas, Yuan Changwen found that he began to want to preach again, and he really taught his disciples to get used to it.

And all the distortions in the brain, which one does not start with habit? Because of habit, I don't think about it, because of habit, I don't believe that "the distortion in my brain is just a piece of shit", because of habit, I cling to what I know and don't let go.

Even now, I still believe in the distortion in my head. The only change may be to stop fighting the status quo. Because it happened like this, it is the content of the picture that I am aware of at this moment, how can I fight against this inevitability?

Don't fight, don't fight, surrender, don't do anything, don't be afraid of life, anyway, it's the same state to describe in different ways.

It's really a little weird, but if you think about it, the content of the picture you perceive at this moment is just the content of the picture. After those people and things are no longer related, they will suddenly find out what the hell is going on in all this!

Why did the other person try to convince me, why did the other person suddenly say some unverified affirmations, why did the other person suddenly start to show their character attributes and expect my approval?

Why do they start yelling, why are they angry, why are they laughing, why are they walking, why are these people as empty as a program?

And when I don't need to understand the "why," that sense of detachment comes in. That's what happened, that's what you perceive at the moment. He no longer seems to be interested in the joys and sorrows of others, nor does he have the urge to persuade others.

Sadly, I'm still trying to meddle and meddling through the twists in my head. Because all interference starts with the same beginning, "I don't think that's right," that's why they interfere. It's as if the twist in my head is saying, "yes, it's obvious how it should be like this, how can it be like that?"

Could it be that this kind of judgment of good and bad has become instinctive, and it is impossible to get rid of it until now?

That contradiction appears again, if this thinking is not under one's control, but only the content of the picture that is perceived at the moment. So, why do I think this way, or can the character continue to think about slashing?

The character knows this, and it doesn't seem to help with slashing. So, am I going to continue to "control" my mind to kill?

I don't know, though I can say for sure that I'm going to think about killing all the time. However, this vow to the future is only speculation after all.

No, it's a rhetoric based on fear.

Obviously, I can't finish in the fear role, and I can't kill the end in the fear character, so there is this series of contradictions.

The question is not at all whether I can control my mind, but why should I care if I can control my mind, and if I'm just that awareness, why don't I let things go their own way?

How the character will think, how the character will kill, whether to give up or move on? These are no longer important, they are just what they perceive at the moment. What do I know about the future? Or, what am I looking forward to?

It's as if once I think that these thoughts are just perceived visual elements, once I think that I can't control my thoughts at all, it will become a disaster, and the character will give up the killing, and the work will be lost, and it will be a failure.

Isn't that fear?

Must be slashed, which seems to have turned into a new character attribute. Something must be found to kill, what is the difference between this Nima and the royal behavior of the Empire?