The moment she closed the door, I felt like I had done a lot wrong.

I vented my irritable emotions to Jiang Yan.

Did she do it wrong?

She didn't.

I'm such a ridiculous man, a naïve man, who always matures too slowly, and always can't control his temper.

Leave me, I may really belong to the people who sit in the lonely corner at night, and the people who walk in the rain and are confused.

That sunny avenue, that eye-catching gaze, that sunrise and sunset, I never knew how to appreciate it.

You see, I went back to the dark and quiet room, and my heart became much calmer.

When I lit a cigarette, there was only one point of light in the darkness that was slightly on, like myself.

As time passed, this brief point of light slowly dimmed.

One day, I will do the same.

When I was sitting on the ground next to the bed and torturing myself, a light appeared in the night, and the mobile phone next to me lit up, it was Zhang Meng who called me.

Call me at this time, and I know she has something important to ask me.

You must know that it is already very late in the morning, and if you are not in a hurry, who can't refrain from calling at dawn.

He smiled wryly, lit a cigarette and took a deep breath, then spoke slowly.

"Zhang Meng, what's wrong?"

After picking up the phone, I tried to make myself look as calm as possible and my tone was as calm as possible.

Each of us may be pretending, pretending to be happy, pretending to be good, this embarrassment, only we can see.

"Li Yu, what's wrong with you and Li Nian?"

Zhang Meng went straight to the point, just as I thought, only this kind of thing made her call so late regardless of whether I had rested or not.

My mouth moved, and I didn't know how to answer her seemingly simple question.

This question of hers also let me know that Li Nian didn't tell her good girlfriend what happened to us.

Li Nian is a person who can't hide secrets, but this time she did it.

"Li Yu, are you listening?" Zhang Meng's voice pulled me back to reality from my thoughts.

He took a puff of his cigarette and sighed.

"We didn't have much, but it was fine. ”

"Okay, then why doesn't she mention it about you, you know, we used to talk, and you took up most of her conversation. ”

"She'll tell me interesting things about you, she'll mention how unserious you are at work, and she'll tell me about your stomach problems. ”

"Yesterday she called me all night and she said she could only stay here for a few days and she was afraid she would miss you. ”

"But today I received her, about you, mentioning you, she didn't laugh, she just looked away and didn't talk!"

"You're so suitable, haven't you noticed it yet?"

In the dark night, I smiled bitterly when I heard this, and I couldn't help but say that the two of us were the best match, and I was already numb.

Although Xu Jing and I have been together for so many years, my mother still firmly believes that Li Nian and I are the ones who can live a lifetime.

The cigarette of my finger burned on my hand, and I walked out, muttered for a moment, and said stubbornly:

"Whether it's suitable or not, I know it myself, thank you for your kindness. ”

After a long time, Zhang Meng on the other end of the phone sighed, she sighed, there was disappointment in me, and there was also unwillingness for the two of us.

"Li Yu. ”

"Well, what's wrong. ”

"Liu Yu, is he okay?"

I knew that Zhang Meng couldn't help but ask me about Liu Yu's condition.

The love-hate relationship between the two of them is so intertwined that only those of us closest to them can appreciate their bruises.

I thought about it and told her the truth.

"Liu Yu has a very bad life, he has been insisting and persistently waiting for someone, you know what I mean. ”

After a long time, Zhang Meng's low and hoarse voice came.

"Hang up, take care of yourself more, and remember to care more about him. ”

'Doodoo'

The phone came with the sound of hanging up, this night, maybe Zhang Meng and I were both in insomnia.

Time ticks by, the night fades, the light outside comes, the day dawns, I am the witness from black to white.

I didn't feel a trace of sleepiness, and sat on the floor in a daze for a long time.

Life has to go on, in order to live, and then wait to die.

This is a painful practice, there are too many worries around me, and the pain in the last body, that is, I have not practiced an iron backbone, and I have not learned the freedom of selflessness.

I got up from the floor, then walked out the door to the bathroom, turned on the faucet and turned on the temperature that worked best for me.

After splashing cold water on his face, he sobered up a lot, and spent a lot of time in the bathroom tidying up his seemingly depressed body.

glanced at the time, found that there was enough time, sat on the sofa in the living room and smoked a cigarette, and when the cigarette was halfway through, I saw Jiang Yan also push open the door and walk out.

She looked into the living room, then saw me sitting on the couch, like a stranger, without speaking, without any extra attention, and then went into the bathroom.

I waited a long time in the living room to say 'I'm sorry' to her when she came out of the bathroom.

After waiting for a while, she finally walked out.

I whispered her name, and she acted as if she hadn't heard, and then returned to her bedroom door without a moment's notice.

Then walk in, turn around, and gently close the door.

Deserve!

I yelled at myself, then got up and walked out the door.

On the way, I had a bite of breakfast at a random breakfast restaurant, and then I took the bus to the unit.

After coming to the unit, Manager Xue held a morning meeting with us, and then left me behind after the meeting.

He briefly told me what it meant for me to stay, that is, I don't have to wait for the internship to pass, and then I can go to the human resources department to sign a formal contract.

After all of this, I finally have a job that seems to be a good job.

But my mood today makes me not feel a little happy, maybe after yesterday, everything is much lighter.

The ambition that has surfaced in my heart has also been hidden in my heart for a while.

But it's already there, will it still work if it's really hidden?

I don't know anymore.

I spent the morning in the unit, and many colleagues from other departments came to me from time to time.

Of course, I'm not that popular, but they all have the same purpose, that is, to ask for Li Nian's contact information.

I smiled wryly, and then rejected them one by one.