The character always likes a pre-set gadget and then follows that premise for the rest of his life.

Maybe it's hard work, maybe it's strong, maybe it's indifference.

The character has unconsciously changed the concept, "Okay, the character is not real anyway, and all this doesn't exist anyway, so I shouldn't be sad" or something like that.

Perhaps, after the slaughter is completed, I will become unscrupulous because I have seen through the reality of the world. But at the moment, I'm not done, then this kind of thinking is just another self-definition.

Also, I can't do it by mimicking the state of the slash after it is completed. Therefore, it is important to kill rather than imitate the state after the kill is completed.

When I finish killing, I will naturally have the corresponding state, I don't need to imitate, I don't need to deliberately, and I don't need to remind myself all the time, as if these things are a practice. At that time, I was supposed to be natural, like, naturally without the slightest distortion in my head.

Characters are always fake, whether they are benevolent or evil, irritable or peaceful, they are all false. When you work hard for what kind of role you are, you have become a slave to the role and have fallen into a certain level of entanglement.

And to kill is to break all the layers and make it all disappear.

It's all an obstacle, and the current situation, whether it's going with or against the current, is all an obstacle. Because none of this is true, it may make sense and maybe it will make life better, but unreal is unreal.

I will not give in, I will not fall, take up arms and fight to the death.

My parents are my enemies, my family is my enemies, friendship, love, morality, ideas, and dreams are all my enemies. Including myself, this thinking is still the enemy. This battle is suicide, and it is to see that what you are pursuing is a piece of shit.

That feeling of powerlessness, that sense of sadness, that pain of falling into the abyss but not wanting to reach out to save myself, is my best companion.

Why don't you break yourself? That hard shell isn't hard at all, and the reason why I can't break it is because I'm constantly putting energy into it. It is I who keep these distortions alive, I who constantly inject the energy of emotions into self-definition, who is pulled by fear and does not dare to discard those self-definitions.

But what is there to catch?

My mother must not be killed? Filial piety must hover in my head?

Is there anything great about filial piety? In the end, it's just a transaction. It's just that this kind of trade is crowned with supreme glory by society, and it is highly respected by people and adds countless warmth and tears to it.

Is there any basis for this sentence, "To be a man, we must be filial"? Or is this sentence true? Even if my mother treats me very well and raises me with hard work, it does not mean that I must be filial.

The so-called filial piety, how much is just to make oneself appear filial, and how much is to make one's image more brilliant? Is it really to make my mother happy? Or, first to make me happy, and then on the basis of my happiness, if you can make my mother happy, it is filial piety, if you disagree with your mother, of course you will choose to be happy.

After all, it is based on oneself and will always choose important things to do. In other words, they always choose what "I think" is important.

The distress caused by not being filial, such as not being able to go home for the New Year, such as parents who are sick but not around, this distress is just to show the character attributes. It seems that as long as you are distressed, no one will blame you, and you will forgive yourself.

"I'm not unfilial, I'm just ......", there are many reasons for this.

"I'm also in pain, but ......" is a lot of this kind of sentence.

At the end of the day, it's just a matter of choosing something more important. Why keep preaching it? Why elevate this dilemma to an inexplicable level?

It's like eating lobster and thinking about steak in your heart. What is there to promote this kind of entanglement, this kind of pain, this kind of words and deeds that sacrifice the other for the sake of one side?

My mother is not qualified to be arrogant in my head, and as for whether I will be filial in the future, this is a later story, and no one can be sure. However, at this moment, all kinds of filial piety are not qualified to become the force that influences me.

Why should I think about my mother? In order for my children to be as filial to my mother in the future? So why do I need my children's filial piety?

In order to repay my mother's hard work, why should I repay? Or why do I have to repay? It is always just an emotional answer, maybe for social stability, maybe for the happiness of the family, maybe for the sake of beautiful moral traditions, but still there is no answer why we must be filial?

What do those things, what kind of society and the like, have to do with me? Are they real? When can artificial distortions reach such a point that falsehood is directly recognized as true and no one is allowed to refute it?

However, because of this, it is also proved that filial piety is only a distortion and a falsehood. Truth is everything, no one can get rid of reality, so there is no need for any mandatory regulations or public opinion in society, who can get rid of "I exist"?

Mom's tears, Mom's crying, are entirely caused by the conflict between her own self-definition and reality. Even, I'm not sure if my mother is a real person, if she has these self-definitions, I just saw her crying and saying things like that because I'm not filial.

However, these are only the visual elements that I perceive at the moment. "Mom is crying", "Mom is sad and I'm not filial", I can't relate these two picture elements at all, but the picture elements show that these two are cause and effect.

And in order to keep others from accusing, this kind of filial piety is clearly to maintain the image of the character.

Why filial piety?

That's a really good question, of course, what can I say because I want to or something. However, it is not that I am willing, but that I am forced by a distortion in my head. I didn't do the same filial piety as I would like to eat apples, and I wanted to eat oranges tomorrow, so I easily ignored apples.

Yuan Changwen didn't know why he put filial piety in his true position, maybe because of the education in the New Year, or because everyone was like this. When you start to kill, you will find that your brain is not your own at all, and those thoughts and ideas are completely nonsense.

Since it is one-sided, it should be discarded.

It's not that you're not filial, so why not? It's not filial piety, it's not filial piety, it's not being unswayed, it's not being swayed by these thoughts.

Don't choose sides in duality, just choose a side when you need to.