Yuan Changwen stood on the desert and looked at the castle called "Relatives", which was huge, solid and beautiful.

Slash?

Are you kidding!

That means that he will be a person without filial piety, and he will not bear the corresponding responsibility for his children.

There is also the tower, which is the attention that the "self" needs, and this tower and the castle echo each other from afar.

I remember saying to my ex-girlfriend, "My mom doesn't approve of us being together, so let's break up." ”

Yuan Changwen knew that it was not the deepest reason at all, nor was it a reason to break up.

Just because of the self-woven definition, "You see, I gave up my girlfriend for my mother, and look, I'm a filial child." ”

Because of this filial piety, I struggled and suffered, but I had to smile.

Listening to the aunts around praise the mother, "Oh, you have a good son, obedient and good work, you are blessed!"

Or, "The boy is good, he knows that for the sake of your mother, he is a filial child!"

At that time, although his expression was shy, his heart was still full of joy.

And the feelings of missing and indebted to his ex-girlfriend have gradually dissipated.

Yuan Changwen gently touched the castle wall, it was so strong, it was not something that could be killed with one punch or two kicks at all.

Not just for the vanity of the heart, this castle has countless childhood memories.

My mother cooks the food, my mother is seen by herself in the middle of the night, and my mother comes to pick me up from school every day, but my mother spends a lot of money on me......

These, also want to be killed?

Killed, am I still human?!

What's the difference with brutes?!

No, Yuan Changwen shook his head, this is not right.

Who is defining "if you kill family affection, you are not human"?

Who secretly put the definition of "unfilial piety like a beast" in my head?

It is a social convention, it is the education of traditional culture, and it is a demand for no reason.

Never asking, "Why should I be filial to my parents," is a moral taboo. If it's a child, it's okay, it's a time for education.

If I were to ask, I would definitely be disgusted, despised and cursed, and perhaps the officials who read this would subconsciously frown.

The reason why people are human beings is because of the definition of self-weaving, or hard work, or being at peace with encounters, or taking away against the sky, or resigning themselves to fate.

But, no matter how you interpret it, none of this is me.

These are all additives to the background, and they are all self-woven definitions!

As long as you keep it, almost all of it will be kept, so what's the difference between that and before?

And how can I get out of the emotional pull?

Yuan Changwen is so uncomfortable, this feeling is like the choice of who to save first when his mother and wife fall into the water at the same time.

Moreover, it is not my girlfriend who asks this question, how should I answer.

It seems that the two of them really fell into the water at the same time, struggling desperately, the first to save will definitely survive, and the later one will definitely die.

How to choose?

I'm so stupid!

Why put yourself in this environment? Why do you have to deal with the definition of self in this way?

When others encounter this kind of emotion, they want to run away immediately, enlighten themselves or divert their attention.

Just for that truth?

Am I worth it?

"Alas......"

Yuan Changwen sighed helplessly, did he encounter this kind of choice again?

I only met it this morning, and I will meet it again now.

The devil's deception of me continues!

I'm fed up with falsehood, I hate those egos, I hate being pulled by emotions.

Sorry, Mom......

Yuan Changwen gently touched the walls of the castle, and it seemed that he could still see his mother's smile at different times.

I'm sorry......

Yuan Changwen turned around and no longer paid attention to the castle.

Tears spread slightly in the eyes, reflecting the fluorescent lights in the office area, crystal clear.

My filial piety shouldn't be a deal, my mother raised me, so I should reciprocate.

My filial piety is not for the eyes of others, let alone for the sake of satisfying self-concerns.

Also, my mother's vanity should not be my responsibility.

My actions should not be shackled, everything must be killed.

There is only one reason for filial piety or unfilial piety.

Lao Tzu is willing!

…………

Boss's office.

"Xiao Yuan, the project you are in charge of is good, good in all aspects. ”

Yuan Changwen said modestly: "Thank you, boss." ”

Is that it?

In the past, I would seem to say that the boss was well led, and everyone's credit.

However, in fact, all this is their own efforts, and it is good for colleagues not to make trouble.

Is it the rules of office again?

The world is "uncertain about the truth", and it is ridiculous that my former self is struggling on it.

Is it ridiculous?

Not ridiculous at all!

Those who work hard, those who move forward even if they fail, and those who are sad and painful but get back up again.

Not ridiculous at all!

Hum!

It's another self-woven definition, "You're all scum, I've discovered the truth of the world, and you're still struggling, haha." ”

Slash!

See how much more you can do!

The boss's face suddenly turned into a demon's beautiful face, smiled slightly, and disappeared in the blink of an eye.

"It's an affirmation of your work, keep working hard next time. ”

The boss took out a red envelope and handed it to Yuan Changwen.

Depend on!

There are red envelopes!

Yuan Changwen smiled and said "Thank you boss, thank you boss!"

"Well, let's get out of here and keep up the good work. ”

Yuan Changwen: "Don't worry, boss, you must be!"

I put the red envelope in my pocket and walked quickly into the bathroom, this is the first time I have received a red envelope in several years of work.

It's so cool!

Yuan Changwen opened it and saw that it was three thousand yuan.

Not much, but this is an affirmation of yourself and a recognition of your own work!

"Yay!"

Yuan Changwen lowered his voice and cheered happily in the toilet cubicle.

False!

Well?!

Yuan Changwen was stunned for a moment, this is a happy emotion, the result of the interaction between the definition of self-weaving and reality.

Definition, "I strive, I struggle, and in the end I succeed." ”

Realistically, my boss recognized my efforts.

So, I'm very happy and happy.

Is there anything wrong with that?

Of course not, all this is a self-woven definition, and it is all false.

Once you accept this definition, it means that you will still be stuck in the devil's lies.

What should I do? Could it be that this happiness will also be killed?

Am I crazy?

Yuan Changwen had to doubt himself, helping others early in the morning was also a pleasure, and his current work must be the same.

Before the happy mood unfolded, it was cut off by himself.

Although at the beginning of the reasoning, I knew that once I started to slash the self-woven definition, then I had to face some hard core definitions.

It's like those tall and sturdy buildings, standing tall in the desert, solid and strong.

But when I really faced it, in addition to being uncomfortable, it was heartache, and I forcibly deducted that happy moment, and stood there at a loss.

I want to let go of my thinking and experience the happy mood again, but I can't get back the original emotion.

There is a voice in my heart silently telling that this is false.

Yuan Changwen could only watch as the happiness gradually dissipated.

What's the difference between this and suicide?

My name is Yuan Changwen, what is my job, I went to college there, what glory I have achieved, what ups and downs I have experienced, I am married, I am the father of a nine-month-old baby, I like to be affirmed, I hate what people say......

That's life.

But, is this me?

Obviously, I'm not my name, I'm not my body, I'm not my experience, I'm not my preference, I'm not my story.

Who am I?

After these false definitions aside, what is left?

Yuan Changwen believes that after killing these self-woven definitions, what remains is truth.

It is the truth that I have been searching for.

And beheading these definitions is not suicide?

If a person is deprived of work, it is a more painful thing for ordinary people.

Being deprived of marriage is even more uncomfortable.

If you are deprived of money, it is estimated that most people will feel that it is no different from death.

Yuan Changwen suddenly remembered that the deprivation of the Doom Orb was just that!

The fact that it can be taken away proves in itself that these things can be taken away.

If you keep these self-woven definitions, then one day, something happens in reality that creates unbearable emotions.

Do you still have to pray that you have the courage to continue to kill yourself, to continue this suicidal mission?

Yuan Changwen counted, and he had already determined that objective things, emotions, self-definition, and the body all belong to "the truth cannot be determined".

Hey?!

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