The essence of who I am is what I am is that can never be changed, and it is impossible to change at all.

Because, only the real exists, and the unreal does not exist.

The character of Yuan Changwen is just an illusion, and the awareness that perceives this illusion is that the truth is "I exist". Therefore, when the character of Yuan Changwen dies and all the unreality is seen through, the truth will be revealed.

There is no false obstruction, no distortion to divert my attention, and when the walls of thought are knocked down, the world will be revealed as it is.

Of course, this is just my guess right now, who knows?

What exactly do I know?

Everything is false, and what am I clinging to?

There are also people and things that are presumptuous in my head, maybe just as a background, maybe just as villains in my fantasy scenes. But it still affects me.

The sense of relief came, and it seemed that my family could no longer influence me. But I know that this ease is only temporary, like walking up the stairs and taking a breath and then cheering on.

Before, there was something that went wrong.

I have nothing to do with the character of Yuan Changwen, so it's not just about me, but why do you want to keep the character? Why don't you throw it away along with the character and its related attributes?

What else can't be killed?

I always thought that the character after the killing should be full of kindness, and when he encounters anything, he smiles warmly, without anger and temper, even if others scold him, he is greeted with a smile.

Or rather, I have to work hard to do it in order to prove that I am the one who is "on the path of truth". It's like, someone slapped me on the left side of my cheek, and I had to put my right cheek through.

What is this? Is the Jesus Imitation Society?

Indeed, this kind of behavior can consciously reduce the role, and consciously force the role to discard some self-definition. However, all this is just to push the character into a good, beautiful and kind character, still shrouded in falsehood.

Moreover, it allows the character to re-grasp other self-definitions, such as "I am a person who does not lose my temper", "I never speak harshly", "I will always smile no matter what the other person is" and so on.

It's nice and loving, but it's not real.

The key is to distinguish it from the role of Yuan Changwen. If there is no such distinction, then both good and bad people are just stuck in the fog of falsehood. And it's not just a good guy to break a template character. If you want to become a custom character, you must get rid of your fears and not be afraid of life.

But good people don't necessarily be able to do that.

Damn it!

What else do I care about? What else is there to care about in this world?

The character always fantasizes about bringing down others, whether it is force or eloquence, he must win. Even, even if you are seriously injured, you have to let the character win.

Caring so much about the character?

Everything that values the character so much?

I can't let others control me, how did this kind of thinking get into my head?

Obviously, all the thoughts and cognitions in the mind of the entire character come from others. And in real life, I am very disgusted with other people's fingers, what is going on?

Do I only allow others to brainwash me, and not allow others to direct command?

I never thought about the mainstream values of society, as if those things were being propagandized and preached again and again, so I accepted them without question, and regarded them as indisputable truths.

And when others command me on the spot, especially when my family imposes something on me, the disgust is very strong. Is it because, no one will praise the character for this obedience?

It's a stress relief!

Since the whole character is shaped by society, all cognition and knowledge are all what others say, and I believe it. So, how can you show the character's own thinking, the character's own independence?

If you can't prove this, then sooner or later you will find out that the character is just a thing of a lot of fear, not a product of thinking at all, and his life is just a mess of garbage.

So, it has to be noticed, it has to be flaunted, it has to be applauded in the crowd to prove that the character is real. And quarrels, whether with colleagues or family members, can prove the independence of the role.

It's as if the character can choose, the character has free will, the character can decide a lot of things independently, and the whole life is created by the character himself......

All this is just an illusion.

Why aren't you allowed to point fingers?

It seems to be completely instinctive, and even in the face of my superiors, even in the face of the moment when the stakes are at stake, the other party's fingers will make me feel uncomfortable. It's just that after weighing it, I chose something more important.

The character wants to get attention, and when others point fingers, the character can't get attention, and can only be forcibly suppressed. The character's survival mode is difficult to allow all this to happen.

Yuan Changwen suddenly found that he didn't seem to know the role of Yuan Changwen at all, which is the so-called "ITM don't know who I am at all". This character is very weird and inexplicable, I am entangled at the level of the character, and I can't sort things out at all.

Everything about the characters is fake, so kill them all and burn them all.

What is there to argue about, and what is there to discern?

Do you want to save some of your characters, or are you praying for survival?

I don't know what the hell the character of Yuan Changwen is, I don't know how it's composed, and I don't know how it all happened.

What characters survive, what characters seek attention, all this is just my guess.

I don't understand the role of Yuan Changwen at all, and I don't want to understand the role of Yuan Changwen. Why do you need to understand it, so that you can explain it to others? Or do you have to understand the role of Yuan Changwen on the road to killing?

The point is, what's the use of figuring out the characters?

It's nothing more than all kinds of ways to want to win, nothing more than all kinds of ways to prove that you exist. It's nothing more than piling all kinds of false things together, and then using fear to firmly condense these so that I don't dare to put them down or discard them.

There is not even room for discussion.

Yuan Changwen was very uncomfortable at the moment, and the urge to kill people came and went. After thinking about it, he has lost his mental strength, how can he kill people?

I really don't understand why I want to keep the role because I hate it so much, and what kind of force is it that induces me not to give up on the role?

I must break through this shackles, nothing can stop me. Whatever is in the way in front is an illusion. Now that I can identify the illusion as real, I can bring my gaze back to reality.

It's still a little bit closer, and it's obvious that it's like a alien hatching, just like that thin layer of bondage.