I'm always looking for a way to get the best of both worlds, as if I can touch the truth while retaining intimacy with my family.

I don't know what kind of state I will be like after touching the real thing, and I don't know if I will be able to retain my intimacy with my family after touching the real thing.

However, my family is not qualified to quarrel in my head. Those ideas about family, those aphorisms about family, are shit.

"How can you treat your family like this?"

This sentence seems to have endless lethality, as if he has been judged a loser before he can fight back.

So, I ask rhetorically, why not?

In addition to strong emotions, it is nonsense like "this is definitely not okay". No one can explain the cause and effect relationship in this, and no one can explain the relationship with the family members for granted. Whatever you interpret it, it will ultimately come down to the fact that "all this is just a social agreement" and that "this is just a transaction".

Well, I admit that I'm a bastard, I'm inhuman, I'm a scumbag of society. Well, there is still nothing to change the outcome of the above problems, even if the whole world condemns me, it is just emotion.

Of course, there is no whole world at all, everything is in my head. All of them are the elements of the picture that I perceive at the moment, and there is no one else at all. Every time I talk about an element of a picture, I have to be careful to remind myself that I'm not human.

What exactly is family?

I don't spend as much time with my family as I do with my dog, what is the position of my family? Why does the word "family" seem to have infinite magic, as if it doesn't need to explain anything at all, just these two words are enough?

I can't continue to be fooled around, spread out the questions, and lay out the answers. Then I found out that there was no theoretical support at all, and it was completely a product of emotion. I can't answer at all, why is family important, and what is important?

Give me life, raise me as an adult, work hard, go hungry, always save the best for me...... If the discussion continues in this way, it will not solve the problem, but will lead to an answer, "The so-called family affection is just a transaction." ”

Of course, no one will accept this, including myself. If I can easily accept it, I will not return to the self-definition of family again at this moment, and kill again.

If it is admitted that this is a transaction, then the question arises, why should I abide by this transaction, or why do I have to comply with this transaction as socially agreed?

It can be said that we should pay attention to rewards as a person, treat our parents well as children, and we will have a day when we will be old...... However, these are just baseless affirmations, and what is sacrosanct?

Why do you have to pay attention to returns? Is it because I don't reciprocate, and I am worried that no one will repay my efforts in the future? In this case, it is not only about fear, but also about the sake of return. In other words, there is no such thing as selfless giving.

If I don't ask the other party for anything in return, I just give because I want to give, and because the act of giving makes me comfortable, I give. So, why should we emphasize the other party's return? Even, gratitude has become the foundation of a person's life.

Excuse me, who is evaluating the fundamentals of being a human being, and who is qualified to evaluate?

There is only one answer, it is just the propaganda of the empire, it is only the convention of society.

That's all.

There is no difference between family and, in fact, everything is no different from. I should treat anything like I would.

Tsk, there will be a faction in the next book, crisscrossing the continent or something.

Of course, it's not that I'm trying to "see everything like," the act itself doesn't feel like. It's about seeing the twisted absurdity in your head, and then nature will become as natural as.

There are too many noises in my head, the accumulation of all kinds of things, and the lies from childhood to adulthood are all in my head. If I had a barren desert in my head, I wouldn't know anything. Well, all kinds of beautiful buildings in the desert at the moment are distorted.

I twisted the desolation into buildings out of thin air, and I still maintain them at all times, so that others don't easily break them. Even if it's new, I can't let the old one break, and I have to do this kind of thing myself.

The so-called cognitive upgrade, but that's it. Who can throw away all the old ideas? Often in another scenario, the old ideas are used.

Family, why are you still presumptuous in my mind? Why do I have to think about my family? Isn't this kind of weighing a habitual method that is twisted in my mind?

Sure enough, he was still controlled by fear. You don't need to worry about what you're afraid of, and you don't need to dwell on what you're fearing. Because I'm not killing fear at the level of fear content, in that case, I'm already losing before I even do it.

For example, I am afraid that I have no money, and I will still be like this in the future, I can't afford to buy a house to rent for the rest of my life, I don't have a stable home, etc. Then, I can comfort myself that there is hope for any effort, that there will be no time to disappoint me, and that maybe no one will buy a house in the future just like no one buys a bicycle now.

It doesn't work, or rather, it's reduced to a lamb of fear. Because the content of fear is indeed possible, and it is very likely, why not admit it? Who fears the killing of aliens on a daily basis, or the destruction of the universe?

Admit that you are afraid, see yourself in fear, and don't resist fear.

I always think that I can make changes by doing this, as if I really have free will. I change because I can only change. This happened this way, and it was also because this thing can only happen this way.

I just like fear, what's wrong with being manipulated by fear?

Yuan Changwen found a misunderstanding, his opponent did not seem to be fear at all, but false. Fear is nothing more than the emotion of wanting to kill the false after passing it as real.

For example, I think of myself as a person who owns a family, and when I kill the influence of the family in my head, I feel fear. So, why dwell on fear and not let go?

When you recognize that these are false, there will be no fear. Instead of finding ways to reduce fear. It's just thinking at the role level, thinking about the false on top of the false.

Why reduce fear? Why look for joy?

These two questions are one essence, as if "staying away from fear and finding happiness" is the fundamental attribute of being a human being.

Unfounded affirmations.

Shit.