The sun in early spring does not have the anxiety of summer, nor the indifference of winter, and it is extremely gentle. However, this warm time could not soothe everyone's calm hearts, and it seemed to have become a hotbed for the rapid growth and diffusion of all kinds of information. In this comfortable soil, rumors grow like weeds arbitrarily and frantically, "What else can I say?" I've never had any resistance to these things, and the only thing I can think of is to hide in silence. So for the next week, I stayed at home almost every day, and I rarely even went to the downstairs neighborhood. And at home, my favorite place is the balcony where the sun can shine in during the day.

The balcony at home is not big or small, about ten squares, rectangular, there are no cement railings around, only the welded half-human high stainless steel pipe as a fence, connected to the top is the invisible protective net that leads directly to the roof, the line of sight is very open, and the sunlight can be sprinkled all over every corner through the invisible protective net on a sunny day. The balcony is full of my favorite flowers and plants, and in the humid air of the south, jasmine and branches have always grown very well, and the sweet fragrance of flowers often overflows the entire balcony, and even goes straight to the house. But after so many days, because of neglect, many leaves have begun to turn yellow, drooping their heads. Although I couldn't bear it, I just didn't want to take care of it. I look at these dying flowers and leaves, and I always feel that they are very similar to me. No matter how beautiful the flowers are, there is a time when they wither, what about people?

Frustrated, I move a small bench and sit on the balcony every day, or stare at the flow of people passing downstairs, or look at the tall and tall trees in the community, or look up at the sun, trying to absorb the sun's brilliance, hoping to dispel the haze in my heart and drive away a little chill. However, no matter how hard I tried to dry it, I still shivered from time to time. Although I tried my best not to think about the previous episode, the deep memories were like imprints that would come out to remind me from time to time, making me experience the unforgettable pain again and again, and the chill on my body became stronger and stronger.

The moment I saw my daughter fainting in the subway station, I couldn't stand the stimulation and fainted. When I opened my eyes, I found myself lying in the emergency ward of the hospital, and in addition to my mother and Qiangzi, there was another person standing next to the bed - like the wind. "Xiaolan, you're awake!" "Weilan, you're awake!" the two men nervously called out my name almost simultaneously, and then looked at each other meaningfully with their eyes met. Then, the whole air condensed with a depressing calm, and the scene became awkward. I nodded slightly at them and didn't speak. Then, thinking of my daughter, I trembled and took Qiangzi's hand and anxiously asked her if she was injured and how she was doing. Hadron held me by the shoulders and looked down to tell me that my daughter had broken a bone, but it was not life-threatening. Rufeng quietly left in a sad mood between me and Qiangzi, without saying a word. Although I saw the moment he turned around, because of the sensitive relationship with him before, I was also afraid that Qiangzi would be misunderstood by his appearance, so I just pretended not to see it and deliberately acted unconcerned.

After Rufeng left, Qiangzi finally couldn't help but ask me why I was with Rufeng, his bloodshot eyes were full of doubt, as if I had done something unsightly behind his back. His eyes stung me deeply, and I knew what he was thinking, angry and humiliated by his suspicions. In order to avoid causing a deeper misunderstanding, I told him that he had met Rufeng by chance, that he had not met him before, but that Hadron, who had been scorched by the fire of jealousy, did not believe my words at all. Then, he took out his phone and showed me a photo, which was the hug I hugged with Rufeng in the subway battle. The moment I saw the photo, my mind instantly stopped, and I was stunned. When I saw Hadron's angry eyes, the protruding bruises in the corners of his forehead, and the extremely painful expression he tried to control, I knew that no explanation was useful. Then, I suddenly remembered what the girl had said. If I was still skeptical of her words before, now I am very sure that Hadron is indeed very familiar with this girl. So we are like two * bags with the same wire, and our hearts explode at the same time. But on the surface, we didn't quarrel loudly, and Hadron trembled and said in a trembling voice, "Xiaolan, let me ask you again, is this true?" Although I was in great pain in my heart, I deliberately pretended to be calm and stubbornly replied, "Does truth or falsehood mean to you? Aren't you sure you believe it? And do you still care about that?" As soon as the words fell, I heard a "snap", and a hot and painful feeling instantly spread from my cheeks to my whole body. I covered my cheeks and stared at him with wide eyes, and through the tears that were rolling in my eyes, I saw a vague but angry face. This slap in the face hurt in my heart. My mother, who had never had a chance to speak, was stunned, the doctors and patients around me were stunned, and Qiangzi was stunned when he looked at his hands, maybe he didn't expect that he would do something to me one day. He suddenly felt apologetic and put his hand on the hand I was covering my face. I didn't appreciate it and just brushed his hand away. The hurt self-esteem and the anger in my heart overwhelmed what little reason I had left, and I stared into his eyes and said viciously, word by word, "Everything is what you think, are you satisfied?!

Hadron was completely enraged, the whole person went crazy, his eyes were glowing red, one hand forcibly grabbed my neck, and I could hardly breathe, and the feeling of death was palpable. The old mother next to me tore Qiangzi's clothes, broke his hand around my neck and cried, and the doctor was also persuaded by the side, but I was completely desperate, I didn't resist, and I didn't want to resist. I gasped and gave him one last cold look, then closed my eyes tightly, silently waiting for the last moment. Just when I was already having a hard time breathing, he suddenly let go of his hand, turned and walked away, leaving me slumped on the hospital bed. The old mother cried and scolded Qiangzi in distress, "The one who killed a thousand knives is too ruthless, when did my daughter suffer such a crime!" while holding me in her arms and gently patting me on the shoulder, helping me wipe away the tears on my face. I was at her mercy, extremely tired, and secretly laughed at how boring life was. So, I told my mother that I wanted to go home and have a good rest, and I bought a bottle of sleeping pills in the pharmacy on the way home, pretending that I often had insomnia, and then freshened up after dark, and then vomited with a glass of water, I wanted to say goodbye to the strong son and the world.

Thinking of this, I involuntarily swallowed my saliva, and the taste of the medicine was still so clear.

And at this moment, my daughter, who had been confined at home all day, had lost her initial excitement and ran to me and began to be coquettish. She pouted and said, "Mom, will you tell me a story? I'm going to listen to the dinosaur story." Although he was not in the mood at all, he couldn't bear to refuse when he looked at those eager eyes, "You can find a copy." She clapped her hands and jumped up, turned her head and ran away, and after a while, she brought a book, "Love You Forever and Forever" by Tatsuya Miyanishi.

This is a story full of warmth, embodying the most primitive kindness and gentleness, and also telling the power of love. My daughter listened with relish, but my mind sank into a heavy swamp. Why have I witnessed so much "evil"? Why did I have no love? Why was I about to be drowned before I could see the power? The pain wrapped around my heart again, and the words in front of me blurred little by little.

"Mom, why don't you talk about it, there are so many. The daughter flipped through the pages that were still half in the back and urged.

At this time, the mobile phone rang, it was the voice of the swallow, and it obviously had some confidence and vivid feeling. She was right at the door, knocking on the door for a long time without answering. I threw the book to my daughter, and despite her long, disgruntled and complained in a long voice, I walked quickly to the door and opened it.

This time, jumping over the trap of death, we are infinitely emotional and extremely cherish the rare encounter, hugging each other tightly, and not wanting to be separated for a long time. The swallow's face has grown some flesh and has a healthy color. The moment we held hands and entered the door, I noticed that Zeng Yuqiu was following behind. In his eyes, I saw a little bit of hope and a little bit of vitality in his eyes. Maybe his heart is tormenting every day, a person who was so bright before, I can't help but sigh in my heart, but fate, who can say for sure.

"People are too immoral nowadays, aren't they? Dare to talk nonsense! Not at all responsible!" said Yanzi indignantly, then turning to her daughter, who was still angry, "Poor little one, you are to blame for your mother for such a good child's fall." Tell Auntie what good things you've done?"

The daughter's anger was not gone, so she gave Yanzi a disdainful expression, and then walked away without looking back, and locked herself in the room with a "bang". The swallow was extremely confused and puzzled.

"Ignore her, I'm spoiled, I didn't finish the story just now, and I'm angry. I shook my head helplessly and explained. "Oh, haha", Swallow laughed as she covered her mouth. I let them into the sofa, Zeng Yuqiu sat for a while, then got up and walked to the balcony.

"Xiaolan, how can you do something stupid?" Yanzi looked at Zeng Yuqiu's back, and his tone deepened.

"You already know? That day I did have the idea of dying, and I wanted to end the pain in my heart with a bottle of sleeping pills. ”

"Xiaolan! Life is precious! Don't play stupid! Qiangzi called me and said he was worried about you. ”

"What did you say? What did he tell you to do? Am I not fine? Tell you this, you're still sick!"

"Don't blame him, he's doing it for your own good! ”

"But he shouldn't have done it!"

"Because of what?"

"Didn't he tell you?"

"No, I asked him, and he just said that he would see you. Why on earth is it for the sake of the child's fall? You are not a fragile person, you must have suffered a great deal to take this path. ”

"A picture, a picture of me and Rufeng! It was sent to him by a girl, his assistant. ”

"What?

I deliberately ignored some details to not let the events of that day affect my emotions again. If everything is a foregone conclusion, I can only reluctantly accept it, either choose to leave, or choose to forbearance and forget.

"He shouldn't have beaten you! I handed you over to him so that he could give you happiness, not let him bully!"

I looked at her quietly, stunned for a moment, and searched in my mind for the picture of Qiangzi and Yanzi being acquainted, but I couldn't connect the two together, so how could they intersect?

"Like the wind, like the wind—is he okay?" the swallow suddenly narrowed her eyes, her eyes a little misty.

"Oh, he's not married. I said with a pause, as if I didn't understand what the swallow had just said.

"What did you say?!"

"It's true that he's not married. ”

"He's so stubborn!"

"When I saw him, I felt a sense of guilt. ”

"It's me who should be guilty—"

She and Rufeng are classmates at most, but it sounds like there's an indescribable connection. Today's swallow made me completely confused.