Swallow's words were intriguing, and her expression was extremely uncomfortable when she talked about Rufeng, her eyes flickered, and she stopped talking. I pondered for a moment to ask my doubts, but she glanced at me and suddenly clutched her chest, breathing heavily, and slumped into the couch with drooping eyelids. I reached out and stroked her back, Zeng Yuqiu heard my anxious voice and lifted the upper body of the swallow, told me to take a cushion and put it behind her, and then let her lean on the cushion.

The swallow's face was completely colorless, and the two eyebrows were tangled in the center of the eyebrows to form a pimple the size of an index finger, panting as if it had been choked by the throat. With every breath she takes, I can hear the rustle of gas rubbing against her throat, like the sound of fallen leaves in autumn being blown down by the wind and constantly rubbing against the concrete road. I took the quilt from my room and covered her gently, with mixed feelings. Zeng Yuqiu's left arm was placed across his waist, his right elbow was standing on it, his right hand was clenched into a fist to cover his mouth, and his eyes were melancholy.

I stared at Yanzi's face and asked worriedly, "Is she often like this?" Zeng Yuqiu said that Yanzi used to be like this often, after taking the doctor's Chinese medicine now, he has eased a lot in the past week, maybe he sat in the car for a long time today, and then said too many words, chemotherapy basically completely destroyed the foundation of her body, and it was a blessing to have today, his voice was a little choked when he spoke, and his clenched fists were clenched tightly. I could see that he was unwilling, but he couldn't do anything about it.

"Qiangzi really shouldn't have told her, she couldn't even take care of herself. ”

"If you don't say it, she will come herself, and now the speed of information is too fast......"

She herself was on the brink of danger and worried about me. Swallow, I don't know how to say that she is good. She's always disguised herself as strong. I turned my head to look at him, and my heart hurt a little.

Zeng Yuqiu put her hands in her pockets and looked up at me, "She is actually very fragile in her bones. You two have similar personalities. I used to think that you were weak on the outside and strong on the inside, but I didn't expect you to have times when you couldn't think about it. ”

Hearing him say this, I unconsciously held my hands, clasped my fingers, and squeezed out a bitter smile on my face, "Hehe, things gather like people, and people gather in groups." "In the past, I have always held the attitude that no matter how complicated the outside world is, as long as we are pure enough, for those ordinary difficulties, I regard them as problems that life gives us, and it is good to solve them one by one, and when we encounter complex problems, we will give more energy, and finally find a way to clear the clouds. But recently, I realized that life is not as simple as I imagined. Human nature is terrifyingly complex, and you don't know what will happen in the next second, let alone how long the feelings you believe in will last. Even when you go through hardships, you may find that what you once believed in is nothing more than a dream you have woven for yourself, a cone you bought for yourself, but a dream that will wake up one day, and the ice cream will slowly melt in the air. Isn't it ridiculous? In just a few days, my outlook on life has been completely turned upside down, replaced by helplessness, doubt, or sadness, and I can't tell the difference. In the leap of thinking, I kept talking to myself.

"It seems that my guess is correct, just because of the impulse of the hadron, you are not going to kill yourself. Moreover, Chenchen was in need of someone to take care of her at the time, so you shouldn't be reluctant to give up your daughter. Tell me, what's going on?"

I was a little surprised, we only met for the second time, and I didn't expect him to know me. As if to see my confusion, he continued, "Swallow mentions you every day...... and he stopped halfway through his words.

"Jiren has her own natural appearance, and if she can meet a good doctor, it means that God can't bear to accept her, and she must be able to be such a good person......" I wanted to comfort him, but my eyes were inexplicably pantothenic as I spoke.

He took a deep breath, then breathed out again and said, "Well, yes, Jiren has his own natural appearance, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, I will not give up." Don't give up. Life will not always be calm, and don't blindly draw conclusions, maybe many things are not as simple as they seem on the surface, and the hearts of people who are wrapped in layers can be seen through at once. Don't cause lifelong regrets due to a momentary misunderstanding, time will never give you a chance to do it all over again. Impulsive and unthinking blind action will not do any good, and indulging in so-called pain all the time will only become more depressed. There is no hurdle in life that cannot be overcome, it depends on what kind of attitude you adopt. "He's explaining me, and he's talking to himself.

During this time, I was indeed immersed in sadness, sighing and sighing all the time. His words reminded me that I should sort things out. The appearance of the hadron assistant, the impartial time was just right, and the ensuing Internet turmoil, especially the news about Liu Bin, the vicious intentions were obvious. Who wants to take the opportunity to give me a fatal blow in the back? Who hates me so much? I fell into deep thought, and a vague figure appeared in front of me, could it be her?

"The crowd is full of gold, and the bones are destroyed. Are you ready?" Zeng Yuqiu saw that I was thoughtful, and explained my predicament in one word.

His words were like sunshine, driving away the melancholy in my heart, "I'm going to die a pig not afraid of boiling water, let it be, I'm alone, I can't block so much, so I pretend not to hear." "I have a clear mind, and I already know what to do later, "Thank you, Zeng Yuqiu, you wake up the dreamer with a word!"

He looked at me, smiled slightly, and didn't speak.

"Mom, are you done talking, I'm so hungry!" the daughter came out of the room at some point. Looking at my daughter, I remembered that we forgot the time when we were just talking, and when I picked up my phone, it was already 12 noon. I apologized apologetically, but she put on a helpless expression, shook her head, and said, "Mommy's memory is so bad!" and I couldn't help but laugh at her tiny appearance like a pistachio. How simple is a child's world, never holding grudges, no matter how sad things can quickly disappear, adults can't do it anyway, is this the sadness of adults?

"This kid is so cute. Zeng Yuqiu was also amused by her daughter's behavior.

"You adults, you know how to chat, and you don't care about children. "She's even more embarrassed.

"Who cares about the children? Tell grandma, grandma criticizes him. The mother came back with a big shopping bag on her back and walked to the door just in time to hear her daughter's words.

My daughter ran to her mother, lied about it, and kept accusing me of neglecting her, and her expression seemed to be greatly wronged.

"Haha, haha-" was the voice of the swallow. She heard her daughter's voice and sat up laughing and coughing. I hurriedly held the swallow and patted her on the back. "This kid is so cute, I like it, it's a pistachio. The swallow bent over with a smile.

"Hmph, ignore you, you will know to laugh at me!" The daughter thought that we were all deliberately laughing at her, and covered her eyes with the back of her hand and cried. The old mother squatted down and hugged her distressedly, "Oh, good, let's not cry, you see grandma clean them up, see who dares to laugh." She cried even harder, and we couldn't help but laugh again.

Qiangzi didn't know when he had arrived at the door, and his daughter rushed over like a savior.

"Yanzi, are you here, how is your health?" Qiangzi walked into the living room and was not particularly surprised to see Yanzi, asked casually, and then greeted Zeng Yuqiu and sat down.

Seeing that we were talking again, my daughter moved a stool and put it in front of Qiangzi, stood on it, and covered his mouth. We couldn't help but laugh again. It seems that Qiangzi knew that the swallow was back, so he left work early at noon. Looking at everyone's laughter, I remembered Swallow's words again.

I looked outside, and a ray of sunlight on the balcony next to the living room was pouring down through the security net, scattering flowers and plants and shining brightly. I'll be watering them in the afternoon, I thought to myself. The old mother had lunch lively, the swallow consumed too much energy, and she couldn't hide her weak fatigue even if she tried her best to support it, Zeng Yuqiu dragged the swallow away half-mixed and half-helped. Thinking of the past when I laughed and played with the swallows, it seemed like just yesterday, and I couldn't help but feel a little more emotional.

The warmth of the afternoon sun slowly dissipated, and before twilight fell, the afterglow was sprinkled on the balcony, I stretched out my right hand to cover my eyes, and looked up at the sky through my fingers. A gust of wind visited, and by the way, brought some continuous flying flotsam, landed on the hand, did not feel a little weight, come or not, no one will care. If you look closely, it rises and falls with the wind, full of interest, like swinging in the air, maybe others don't care, it doesn't take it to heart. Looking at it, I actually like these little things.

After Qiangzi finished eating, watched TV with his daughter for a while, and then went into the study, I didn't have to think about it to know what to do, and I didn't want to know. Since I was discharged from the hospital and returned home, I chose to quietly avoid him many times when he wanted to talk and stopped, and before I knew it, we had fallen into a situation that looked like a cold war. There is a pimple in my heart, but I am afraid that the moment I untie it, there will be a bigger knot in my heart, and the person who pulls it will be more painful. Escape, I've never been so timid. The brave me suddenly became a coward, like a snail hiding in its shell, playing the trick of self-deception. At the end of the song, it is sad or happy, I dare not assume, let alone touch, I just hope that I can get by with my shell all the time.

Today, it is estimated that my mother has talked the most recently. She had become extremely silent about what had happened recently, from the beginning of her worries. I don't like to talk anymore, I don't go to the square dance I like anymore, I go out to buy vegetables very early every morning, and then I come back and only take care of the room and the kitchen is busy, the clothes are washed again and again, and I don't have a meal, so I start preparing meals very early, and a meal can take two or three hours.

My daughter seems to be infected by our emotions, and she is less lively and lively, and after eating, she hides in her room and talks to Barbie.

"Mom, haven't you finished washing yet?" Inside the glass door of the kitchen, Mom was still scrubbing the pot. Mom didn't seem to hear it, and began to wipe the hood.

"It's clean enough, let's take a break. ”

"Oh, it's okay, it's idle anyway. She didn't look back, she continued.

I remembered Zeng Yuqiu's words and decided to pluck up the courage to open my phone. I just opened WeChat and saw the first message, and it was like the wind. "Weilan, how are you now? Why can't you think about it, you have always been strong. It's all my fault that caused you so much trouble. What can I do? Who is that Liu Bin? You will never be this kind of person. I won't allow others to bully you like that!"

I imagined the way he spoke, and a trace of warmth rose in my heart, and now I think about it as if I don't hate him so much, and as time goes by, he seems to have gradually become a symbol, proving that I once had such a beautiful relationship in college, and my youth was once hot.

"I'm fine, you don't do anything is the biggest help to me. ”

"Weilan, you're still so stubborn! I must find out who made the rumor. ”

"No, you really don't need to help. ”

"Weilan, does your husband love you, is it good for you?"

"Love, it's good. ”

He didn't speak again, and he couldn't tell whether he was sad or happy. said that he didn't need help, but I was still a little moved by his concern, and it seemed that I saw the young and frivolous face again, and the sun shone all the way to people's hearts.