My brain is not my brain at all, and the character of Yuan Changwen is not me.

It's always about the past, it's always about the characters, but it's never about whether the stories really happened.

What else is there to say?

Chatting has become perfunctory, and the so-called interpersonal relationships are nothing more than characters feeding each other's. The so-called necessities of life, what to do without interpersonal relationships, how to lack money in family life, etc., are all just wishful thinking.

Even, all this is just a humble prayer under fear. In order not to appear humble, so I will be inspirational and enthusiastic, and use strong emotions to cover up the humble facts.

All of them are just the elements of the picture that are perceived at the moment, and that awareness is everything, which means that there are no "people" at all, and there are no characters. Everything that is seen and heard is only the visual element that is perceived.

There is no real person, no time, no space, no cause and effect, and no so-called traditional morality. That awareness is everything, so it's all that awareness. Since it's all that awareness, everything else is either that awareness or it's false.

In other words, anything that is limited is false. That awareness is just a noun, a thing that is easy to understand. All nouns are limited, right, maybe the word "Tao" carries infinite properties in itself.

But in the end, these are nothing more than wordplays, all artificially distorted. Grief, for example, seems to naturally have a derogatory connotation and a background connotation of not happening and not to perpetuate for a long time.

It's not a thing called "that awareness," but "that awareness" is used to describe something. So, it's a thing, not the four words of awareness.

How does that awareness become false? How does it become those people and things?

I don't know, but I know how I took these hallucinations as real. For example, the so-called free will is the proof of my previous thinking that I am aware of at this moment, and my thinking at this moment comes from my previous thinking.

I realized that I was thinking about the apple, and I was aware that I wanted to think about the apple before, so I declared that I was thinking about the apple because I wanted to think about the apple before. This is wishful thinking, the thinking of "not so extreme" for the sake of convenience.

It's all a visual element that I perceive at the moment, isn't it?

For example, the continuity of time is also regarded as real by the previous "perceived picture elements", so that time is considered to pass linearly.

Just like in this chapter, when the judge reads this sentence, it is natural to think that the above paragraph was read a minute ago, and think, "I must have read this natural paragraph from the first paragraph".

But in fact, the judge can only say that at this moment, he remembers that he has read other natural paragraphs above this natural paragraph before, whether he has read it, whether it has happened, the judge is actually not sure at all.

There is a key point, and I thought earlier that this comparison of the "perceived picture elements" to the relationship between the canvas and the picture elements is misleading. It's as if the canvas is the canvas and the picture elements are the picture elements.

But in fact, there is no distinction, the two are one and the same. The so-called picture elements are also the illusion of that awareness, otherwise, how did those picture elements appear?

That awareness is everything, and there is nothing that is not that awareness, so these unreal things are naturally also illusions of that awareness.

And I'm that awareness, all of you are me?

Of course, this has nothing to do with the role of Yuan Changwen, after all, he is just a member of this falsehood. If you don't understand this, the so-called "we are all one" is just another kind of belief.

It's not imitation, but seeing with your own eyes that everything in your head is just a piece of shit. Even my own existence is just a piece of shit.

Perhaps, it is precisely because of this that those who are depressed will not hesitate to commit suicide. It is hatred of falsehood, thinking that the world is not right, and then discovering that its existence itself is false, then the power of hatred and falsehood is greater than the power of fear without self, suicide becomes a matter of course.

Yuan Changwen felt an inexplicable tear, as if he wanted to separate his whole person, but it was not particularly strong. Like a drizzle, it won't drench people into soup in an instant, but it won't stop raining.

That awareness is everything, and what are you doing? conjuring up a series of illusions of freedom, and thus starting a so-called life. Why do I conjure up these things? And why do I think about these things?

In other words, why did that awareness conjure up a character named Yuan Changwen to think about the reality of the world?

All the other people are just the illusion of that awareness, and they are perceived by me at this moment, isn't it that I am just living alone on this planet?

I conjure up my body, I conjure up all kinds of emotions, I conjure up countless feelings...... Yuan Changwen suddenly remembered the problem that he had been ignoring before, that is, the table was not real, so what was this touch? Why can't the arm pass through the table?

Now it seems that these are just perceived picture elements, so what's so strange about it? Is there anything wrong with that awareness that conjures up this kind of picture element to be perceived by me?

So, can you conjure up an element of the picture with your arm through the table? I don't know, maybe you can, maybe you can't. Perhaps, this is where those so-called supernatural powers come from. It's not a magical thing, it's just a visual element that you perceive.

Fly?

Is it really flying? Or is it just a sense that the body is in a pictorial element called air, and only a pictorial element that the body is still stable when it is not on the ground?

That's all.

Blowing up the planet with one punch? It's also just a picture element, what's the big deal? Is it because you can't do a picture element called someone else, so you feel like you're powerful?

Others praise and tout that the pinnacle of one's life is just the picture element that is conjured up by awareness, is there really such a thing?

Even, that feeling of happiness, joy, and accomplishment is just a picture element. Is there really a causal relationship? Is it really because something happens that causes emotions to arise?

That awareness is everything, let me die.

Yuan Changwen's sorrow permeated from his body, and it seemed that even the depths of the lake were dyed with color, which was darker than pitch black.