The plane rose above the clouds, and seeing my gloomy expression, Ziyue did not speak, but just held my hand tightly, outlining a resolute and well-defined side. I was a little distracted. This man, I seem to have known him for a long time, I know why he is happy, why he is unhappy, why he is sad, why he is angry, but he still has a side that I can't imagine, and I ask him in a daze, "How can you have so much faith to take me?"

He looked at me, and Shen Yi said, "I don't have confidence, I'm just gambling." ”

"Bet?" I twitched, thinking that he never fought uncertain battles, and that there was also a side of luck.

"Yes, bet, bet on my place in your heart. He smiled lightly, his eyes lit up, and he squeezed my hand tightly.

"Alas. I sighed and rubbed his hand up to my chin, "I don't know where it is, but my heart will answer." ”

Ziyue looked at me fixedly and said, "Xiaowei, stay with me in the future." My heart was shocked, but I nodded solemnly. has reached this point, there is no way back for me and him, even if the road ahead is stormy, let me be willful and accompany him once!

Back to Beijing, familiar place, familiar warmth. Ziyue's company is very busy, and he comes back very late at night, and he has to go on a business trip every three or five days. "Are you in a hurry again?" I was distressed to see his tired figure.

He shook his head and sighed slightly: "Business is not good. "I vaguely felt his helplessness, and I couldn't help but worry. After a few weeks, things seemed to be getting better, and he said to me, "It's time for me to go back to Tianjin." "Eyes heavy.

"Don't mention things you shouldn't mention. I couldn't help but blurt out this sentence. But it was like a stone thrown into the raging sea, without a trace of waves. Ziyue was still thinking about something. I also fell silent, and came to this point, without making a choice, I have no power to move forward, and it seems hypocritical to say such things. My heart was like a boulder, and I couldn't speak.

He went back for a week, and my heart skipped a week of panic. I don't know if he'll mention it, how he'll do it, or what the reaction will be at home. I was restless, he would call me every day, and only from the warmth of that phone call could I settle my heart a little. He and I just greeted each other as usual, and we didn't dare to touch on the question.

A week later, in the afternoon, Ziyue finally returned, exhausted. After a few casual greetings to me, he went back to his bedroom and went to bed. What kind of seven days must he have been through to make him so tired?

Pick up the phone on his bedside table and help him mute, I can't bear to let him be woken up again. Holding his phone, I was a little distracted. For the first time, I became curious about his phone. Although Ziyue never minded me looking at his phone, I never looked through his phone except for worrying that Xiaoyu would have something to do with him. At this time, I couldn't hold it anymore and swiped his phone.

Open the SMS inbox, there are so many in it, it is easy to find Lu Nan's name, I opened it with some trembling, except for some ordinary "when will you come back" and "what time will you arrive", there is no word; "Why are you arguing with Mom?" "Dad, don't be separated from Mommy, I'll miss you." Sentence by sentence, my heart was tormented until I was sucking cold.

It turns out that this is what it feels like to break up other families. The heart hurts, and the whole body hurts. The pain of a burning conscience. I bit my lip desperately, and continued to rummage through Ziyue's inbox a little numbly. But I didn't see my name, and suddenly in a very low position, I saw my mobile phone number, but I didn't have a name, and when I opened it, there was only a sentence "Happy Birthday." "The time of delivery is shown in April. I was stunned. When did that "Happy Birthday" that I had been hiding in my draft box run to his inbox?

When I think about it carefully, my mood is instantly mixed, with happiness and sadness. My text messages, like my place in his heart, are cherished, but they cannot be labeled openly. You can only be the most bitter stranger. But for the sake of that fair title, do we hurt too many people?

I put my phone back in its place and walked out silently. The pumpkins in the yard were already ripe in twos and threes, and when Sister-in-law Yu saw that there were ripe ones, she picked them off and put them in the ventilation of the kitchen.

I picked a small one and took it out. "I'm coming, what are you going to do?" Sister-in-law Yu said.

I shook my head weakly: "I'll do it myself." "The pumpkins in the courtyard are planted for him. I just wish I could do something for him to relieve his pain and my guilt.

Cut the pumpkin into small slices and simmer in a pot over low heat. I watched distractedly from the side. As twilight approached, and the pumpkin soup was ready, I took a bowl and brought it upstairs, still asleep, his brow furrowed. I put the pumpkin soup on the bedside table and sat next to him and watched him quietly.

It wasn't until nine o'clock that he woke up suddenly, looked at me, and called, "Xiaowei." Sit up, "Did I sleep for a long time?"

I looked at him distressedly: "Why are you so tired?"

"I haven't slept in days. He wiped his face, looked at me and said lightly, "Expected." ”

"How many days?" I was stunned, and couldn't help blurting out, "She won't let you sleep?" Ziyue didn't answer, and turned to look at the pumpkin soup on the bedside table with interest: "You got it?"

"It's cold, I'm going to heat it. "Before I finished my sentence, he had already eaten a bowl of it. My eyes were a little damp, and I took the empty bowl, "I'll go and serve it again." "I walked downstairs quickly, but my heart was very sore.

Ziyue also came in with me, I warmed the pumpkin soup and served it to him, he ate it very much, and smiled at me: "It's very fragrant." ”

I curled my lips and didn't say anything, just quietly watching him eat. After a while, he raised his head and said to me: "Xiaowei, it won't go well, you have to wait for me, give me time." ”

"Hmm. "My tears have fallen, if I see Xiaoyu's text message, I feel heartache for the child who resembles him, guilt for the family that we cry for, and seeing Ziyue so physically and mentally exhausted, I really hurt, and I said in a hurry: "Ziyue, let's do this, isn't it okay?"

Ziyue shook his head, and his voice was very deep: "I can't go on." ”

I tried hard to remember the people I knew, Mrs. Ma, Mrs. Guan, and Mother Xu----- trying to find an example that I could walk on, but I found that I couldn't think of it even after racking my brains. Even Xu's mother failed miserably. Who can escape? A woman who has either broken up or turned positive, and has not walked on this marginal road all her life. I was silent.

Ziyue took my hand, looked at me deeply, and said, "Not only for you, I also want a home." Have your home. ”

An earth-shaking heat wave rolled over my heart, with my home, do men also want to have a harbor of promises, love, and vows? I shook his hand tightly, did I hold his hand tighter, so that I could give each other some strength to persevere?

I couldn't help but call home again, but no one answered my father's mobile phone. Mom's will secretly pick it up, but she just sighs all day long. Tell my dad that he wants to work in a relative's factory in a neighboring county. "Where's the shop?" I blurted out, but suddenly remembered the 200,000 yuan that my father wanted to pay back Ziyue, and my heart ached, and I asked in a trembling voice: "Did Dad sell the shop?"

Mom sighed for a long time: "I sold it, but it didn't keep you." "My heart was blocked, and I was so ashamed that I couldn't say anything.

What did I do to make my loved ones abandon their homes and careers and leave their hometowns? I tried my best to persuade: "Mom, you persuade Dad, let's bring the shop back." You don't have to rush to pay back the money. ”

Mom said, "You and your father, I can't persuade anyone." Let him be. "After hanging up the phone, I feel a little sad, have I driven myself to a situation from which I can never recover?

A few days later, in the afternoon, my sister-in-law was going to the supermarket to buy groceries, and asked me if I was going to the mall. The weather was also good that day, the breeze was cool, and the mood of staying at home was barren, so I went out with her.

The supermarket where she often buys groceries is above the mall, and I used to go out with her occasionally. So I didn't care about it that day. When I arrived at the mall, I was bored and went up and walked around, and I didn't really like anything. It wasn't a weekend, and there weren't many people visiting the mall, and there was an older lady in a purple coat who was also shopping, and I met four or five times in different stores. I couldn't help but feel fate, and looked at each other and smiled. The eldest sister looked nearly fifty years old, dressed very ordinary, with kind eyebrows and kind eyes, and smiled very gently.

After shopping for a while, my sister-in-law called me and said that I had bought it, so I went downstairs to the first floor. I was walking through the parking lot in front of the mall with my sister-in-law, and suddenly there was a horn sound, and I couldn't help but turn around, a car stopped beside us, and the driver poked his head out, and Sister-in-law Yu was stunned: "Cousin-in-law, why are you here too? After speaking, he looked at me and introduced: "Miss Zhao, this is Mr. Feng's sister-in-law, you don't know each other yet, do you?"

I was also stunned, it was clearly the eldest sister in purple clothes in the mall just now. I just didn't know each other, and I was busy greeting: "Hello." ”

Ziyue's sister-in-law stepped out of the car and said with a smile: "I came here to shop today, but I happened to run into it." Let's have a meal together, shall we?"

I was a little embarrassed and said, "You're welcome, why don't you sit down at home, you're already here." ”

Ziyue's sister-in-law spoke very affinity: "Then let's change the day." It's not too early. Chatting. With that, he got into the car. I watched her get into the car, glanced back, the color of the car glass was not dark, and I could see a woman sitting in the back seat, in her forties, her shirt was dark green, her skin was a little yellow, and her facial features were still upright. It's just that his expression is very cold, and he glanced at me twice and turned his gaze forward.

Those eyes seemed to penetrate people's hearts, and I suddenly shuddered.

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