On the first night home, I freshened up early and sat down at my parents' bed with my daughter in my arms.

My parents' room is exactly the same as before, except that the bed has been replaced with a vermilion Simmons of one meter eight, and there are two matching bedside tables on both sides of the bed, the desk I have used since I was a child, although the red paint on it has peeled off a lot, revealing the little white of the original bottom, the whole desktop has no previous level, and there are many more small pits, and he still quietly sticks to his post, not laid off, and quietly leans against the corner under the window.

Looking at everything in the room, I couldn't help but ask, "Mom and Dad, haven't you thrown away this table yet?" ”

Mom stared at the table for a while and said, "Speaking of this table, it's been a few years. Then he began to think about it, and then it was meaningful, and then he remembered its long history.

Mom said that this table can be regarded as my dowry, back then, when I married your father, I brought a total of two things, one is a wooden box made of the same material, used to hold clothes and quilts, and the other is this table, I married you in the second year of your father's life, you are 34 years old this year, and this table has been with me for 36 years. After you go to school, move to your room and use it for you to write, and you use it for more than ten years. When you got to work, you didn't need it anymore, and your brother had his own desk, so we moved it back to our room. Every time I want to throw it away, I always think about it and keep it.

Mom said that it was easy to change the table, and it didn't cost much, but I always felt as if I had a relationship with it, and when I saw it, I remembered that I married your father at the time, and it seemed that you could see you from it when you were not at home.

Listening to it, my eyes suddenly turned red, and my heart felt sour. How many daughters who marry far away like me fly out of the house, and every time they come back, they have to plan for a long time before they dare to make the trip. Although our parents' love for us is no longer as often as it was when we were children, every bit is the best proof of it, and it becomes deeper with the passage of time. I suddenly remembered the song "Always Go Home to See", I think it was written specifically for parents all over the world, this should be their most sincere voice, I hope that my children will not forget them, and when they are fine, they will often go home to see them.

I looked closely at my parents' faces and found that the wrinkles on their faces were deeper than during the Chinese New Year, their skin was much darker, and the white hair on their heads had begun to be incompatible with the original black, and it was more obvious on the top of their heads and temples. They seem to keep reminding me that your parents are old.

I suddenly felt a little regretful, regretting that I shouldn't have been so stubborn in the first place, and I shouldn't have only cared about myself and had to break into a different world, and never took into account their feelings.

So I called softly, "Mom, Dad, you've worked hard all these years." I am not around you very often, and I have no way to take care of you, and not only that, but I am so old that I still need your care and help. ”

Dad heard the meaning of my words, and smiled slightly, "What are you talking about? Your father, your mother, and we are fine, and we don't need you to take care of them at all." It's already good that you can take care of yourself, do your job well, take care of your children, and run the whole family well. You live in a big city, you are not as comfortable as us in the countryside, you have to do everything by yourself, and there is no one else to help, I know that it must be very difficult, and there are many sadness that we don't know. I guess a lot of times you must be afraid of us and worry, so you never tell us about the most difficult things. You're a good kid, but you're too stubborn and always like to take things to heart. ”

"Dad, I'm fine, if anything happens, I'll tell you about it. As I said this, I had to lower my head and quietly wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes.

My daughter, who had been listening to us, saw my movements and asked worriedly, "Mom, what's wrong with you?" ”

"No, no, I'm just having uncomfortable eyes, so I rubbed my hands. I deliberately feigned a happy smile and looked up into her eyes with some embarrassment.

When my father went to celebrate the New Year with us, I also knew from my mother that something had happened between me and Qiangzi, but at that time my father never asked me in private, nor did he show his worry, and he was happy every day, as if he didn't know anything.

This time, the strong son was not there, and the worry in my father's heart could not be hidden.

"Xiaolan, what is going on between you and Qiangzi? I heard your mother say that you once wanted to commit suicide, this is not your character, let alone what my daughter should be. You must have encountered something big, and there is a hurdle in your heart that you can't overcome, so you can't think about it for a while. ”

"Dad, you know everything. I lowered my head again, avoided my father's gaze, and then complained to my mother: "Mom, didn't I let you tell my father about this? It's all gone, so why worry about him anymore?"

"I, I'm just worried about you......" Mom was a little unreasonable, and swallowed back halfway through her words.

"Don't blame your mother, it's her fault that she didn't tell me about such a big thing. If you want to have three long and two short in the future, I definitely can't forgive her. ”

"Dad!"

"Tell me, what's going on? And what about you and Hadron now? From the time you got out of the train station until now, you have never mentioned Hadron once. If my guess is correct, the contradiction between the two of you is still unresolved. ”

Since I couldn't continue to escape, I had to tell the truth and tell my dad what happened at that time. As for what happened a few days ago, including the decision I made, I deliberately concealed it, lied and told him that our relationship is as good as ever, and I didn't mention that he was too happy when he just came back, and looking at everything familiar at home was like going back to before he got married.

After listening to this, Dad didn't make any judgment on the matter itself, nor did he say how Hadron was wrong, he frowned and was silent for a long time before he said: "A person's path is chosen by himself, and he should be mentally prepared for anything he will encounter on this road." Although you are a victim of this matter, it seems that you are very wronged, but you also have to think about it from the perspective of a strong son. ”

"You are confused, he is going to strangle his daughter to death, if Xiaolan is not too sad, how can he choose to commit suicide. Mom immediately opened the conversation, and her emotions became excited.

She said that I always had a problem with Hadron and that I never thought that he was such a person, too cruel. When I was in Shenzhen, as a mother-in-law, I was afraid that my participation would lead to more conflicts, so I didn't say anything. Speaking of this, he must be wrong, no matter what, he shouldn't be so ruthless. Our own daughter has never lifted a finger since she was a child, although life was indeed very difficult before, but she has not been wronged at all, where has she been treated like this.

I didn't know that this matter had become the biggest hurdle in my mother's heart, and once I mentioned it, it became a topic that I couldn't stop overnight, and finally my father decisively ended the conversation, in order to prevent such emotions from affecting our mood.

In the next few days, under the arrangement of my parents, my daughter and I became authentic foodies, and the main task of each day was to eat all the meals they cooked and the many things they asked to eat. The lazy appearance described in the book is that the clothes come to reach out and the food comes to open the mouth, I think that's what we are.

I know that this is because my parents feel sorry for me and deliberately want me to have a good rest at home and recuperate, so I didn't insist on it anymore. Every day, I see them busy with a satisfied smile on their faces, and my heart is full of warmth. Parents are always the safest harbor, always open, when we get tired of running outside, come back to the shore. This harbor is our most solid foundation, and the cornerstone of our courage to fight outside at all costs.

Life in the countryside is very simple, without the hustle and bustle of the city, without the hustle and bustle of people, everything around has become very quiet and comfortable. You don't have to relax here, and your whole body and mind don't get tired.

I have lived in this place before, I have never been out, I have never been compared, and I have never felt that there is such a big difference between the city and the countryside.

Because of the relaxation of my whole body and mind, my spirit seems to be much better, and every morning, as long as I hear the sound of my parents getting up, I naturally wake up. My daughter seems to be very sensitive, and even though I don't call her every time I get up, she seems to be able to feel it. So soon, we got into the habit of waking up early every day.

My parents' living habits have always been very good, for decades, the daily breakfast never falls, and basically very punctual, except for the busy farming time to take advantage of the cool morning, the work in the field is done first. In their words, a meal in the morning is equivalent to gold, which is very precious to the human body, so they are almost never lazy in the morning, even if it is a bowl of porridge, they have to put a lot of materials, all kinds of red beans, black beans, soybeans, corn, peanuts and so on.

And when we got home, in addition to such a rich porridge, some steamed buns and various stir-fried dishes were added to the table in the morning. For us who often live in the city, this is almost the standard of a Chinese meal. It's not that we don't pay enough attention to this meal, it's not that we don't have such conditions, but we don't have enough mood to sit down and have a good breakfast. For office workers, ten minutes in the morning are quite precious, so many times, they prefer to eat while walking, just to save such a little time.

In addition, one of the things I do every day after breakfast is to go to the familiar river.