The appearance of Mr. Liu's wife and Mr. Zhang's smile reminded me of following my grandfather to herd sheep when I was a child, and the white wool was pierced into the green grass, which looked like a quiet painting from a distance, but it couldn't stand approaching, because the sheep may excrete some black granular dirt while walking, and its smell is unbearable. Life may be like this, many people and many things, can only be seen from a distance and cannot be short-sighted.

Before I got off work, I had already packed my things, and I was the first to rush out of the office to pick up my daughter, ignoring the eyes behind me.

Thinking of my daughter's bright smile, my heart overflowed with unprecedented happiness. Isn't that what people should be? They can be mature, they can be sophisticated, but they are indispensable and clear, and a dark heart is a spiritual hell that is created by deep desires, which will make people walk like walking in a swamp, sinking deeper and deeper.

As the afterglow of the west fades, the golden yellow, which seems to have been defeated in a battle against the winter wind, gradually fades into a dazzling light, and supports people's confidence to survive the cold winter with the last breath. So what is it that sustains the last color of the sky? Is it a simple natural cycle? Or is it some kind of destiny? Behind the vastness of the universe is a vast and unknown void, still waiting to be explored. Human beings in the universe are so small and as small as dust that they may not even be compared with dust. So, what is our pain and sorrow? Looking at the sky before the sunset, thinking about these boundless thoughts, I gave myself the best reason to continue to persevere, and I used the inexplicable reason of fate to create a source of courage for myself.

"Mom!!" It turned out that before I knew it, I had walked to the school gate, and my daughter saw me from afar, and I didn't see me for a day and night, and it was really like a whole autumn.

I said yes, relaxed my muscles, and gave her a warm smile.

"Mom, I'll sing you a song. My daughter said to me as she walked up.

"Okay, what's the song?" I looked forward curiously.

"Mobile phones have magic

It feels horrible

Snatched Daddy

Snatched mom

Mom and Dad

It's like magic

What are they doing with their phones all day long

Mom and Dad, please put your phone down

Play games with me

Draw together

Mom and Dad, please put your phone down

Tell me a story

Grow up happily with me

There is magic in mobile phones

It feels horrible

Snatched Daddy

Snatched mom

Mom and Dad

It's like magic

What are they doing with their phones all day long

Mom and Dad, please put your phone down

Play games with me

Draw together

Mom and Dad, please put your phone down

Tell me a story

Grow up happily with me

Mom and Dad, please put your phone down

Play games with me

Draw together

Mom and Dad, please put your phone down

Tell me a story

Grow up happily with me" My daughter's immature singing voice struck my heart every word, and a mixed sadness rushed to my nose, eyes and the top of my head.

"Do I sing well?" my daughter eagerly waited for my evaluation after singing.

"Great!Who taught?" I asked.

"Really?!

"Mom, can you play with me in the future? Don't always reply to messages, is information so important?"

"Well, I'll try, okay? Because sometimes I can't help myself. I was a little ashamed to agree.

"Mom, what is involuntarily?" she didn't understand.

"For example, if the cloud is white, we can't change its color, a colleague in the company wants to call, and my mother can't control her behavior. I tried to give examples to illustrate.

"Oh. Mom, let me tell you a secret, I used your WeChat to add your WeChat, and then I used your WeChat to chat with your WeChat, then your WeChat sent a message, and your WeChat was about to be read, which is also involuntarily, right?" she said like a tongue twister.

"What did you say?" I didn't understand for a moment.

"I use your WeChat to chat with myself. The daughter's eyes sparkled with a sly light.

I felt like I had been struck by lightning, and I looked at the little man in front of me, speechless all the way.

When he arrived at the hospital, he helped his mother to exercise his legs and feet step by step in the corridor outside the ward.

"Daddy, Grandma. The daughter ran over and hugged her grandmother's leg, and the mother was caught off guard and almost knocked down by her daughter, but she was very happy.

"Mom, how are you feeling today?" I asked, walking briskly over to me.

Mom nodded at me.

I asked the hadron to know that I would only know the results of the examination tomorrow, and the CT examination of the brain showed no symptoms of internal bleeding, and the situation was not too bad, and the strings that had been tight were finally loosened.

After my husband took my daughter away, I helped my mother back to the ward, massaged her unconscious legs, and then set her up to eat in the restaurant in the backyard of the hospital.

The restaurant was crowded and there were two long lines. In the queue, I found a back figure who was paying for it as if it was familiar, and I looked closely at it as if it was Zeng Yuqiu, and a sense of kindness and surprise hit my heart.

"Zeng Yuqiu! Zeng Yuqiu!" I couldn't hold back the excitement in my heart, and shouted loudly at the back while moving forward through the dozen or so people queuing up in front of me.

The figure seemed to hear the voice, glanced back, but immediately turned his head and left quickly. This time, I saw it very clearly that it was him. I immediately stepped up and chased all the way up, and met at the elevator door on the first floor.

"Zeng Yuqiu!" I gasped and shouted happily.

The moment he turned to face me, his eyes were full of sadness, sadness, even despair, yes despair. The hair grows long, and the beard is stubble.

"Xiaolan?" he was very surprised to see me, and a flash of joy quickly disappeared in an instant.

"Why are you here?!" we both asked in unison.

"I didn't answer, what about the swallow?" I smiled and asked the question I wanted to ask.

"Swallow her...... What are you doing here?' Who's sick?" He changed the subject in the middle of his sentence.

"My mom, a minor stroke, was hospitalized the next day today. "I try to pretend to be relaxed.

"Auntie is sick, then I'll go back and see her. His face was even more gloomy.

"Thank you, no need, it's much better today, there's only recovery left, it's not too bad. Aren't you married, and I'm still waiting for the wedding!" I asked politely.

"Oh, that, a friend of mine is hospitalized here, I'll turn around, turn back and ask her to contact you, no, I haven't seen her in a long time. He was incoherent for a moment, the elevator opened, and he turned and walked in.

"Zeng Yuqiu! I've been looking for Yanzi! Is something wrong with her? I'm worried about her!" Before I finished speaking, I looked at the elevator that closed mercilessly, leaving me at a loss.

"Xiaolan," just as I was about to turn around and leave, the door of the elevator sounded behind me, and then Zeng Yuqiu's sad voice, "Yanzi, Yanzi, she is sick." ”

"What did you say?!" I jumped around.

"Swallow is sick!Lung cancer!" he squatted on the ground with his head in his hands, sobbing in pain.

The scene in front of me could not be connected with the calm, calm and energetic person I had seen before. It was as if my brain was short-circuited, and I didn't understand what he meant.

"No kidding, how old is the swallow!" I said with a smile, "You're deliberately teasing me, aren't you?"

"It's true! I actually went to say goodbye to you on her behalf that day....." He couldn't hold back any longer, and his tears burst into tears, as if he had been holding back for a long, long time.

"I, I don't believe it! How could it be!" I said with my legs limp, my head dizzy, and the familiar grinning face of the swallow in front of me, and my ears seemed to hear her calling my name again.

"I don't believe it either, but it's true! She's been going on chemotherapy again, round after round!" he wiped away his tears, his eyes looking ahead, but unfocused.

"She's been in this hospital?" I asked, heartbroken.

"Hmm!" he still looked ahead, his eyes empty.

"I want to see her. I crouched down next to him, feeling weak.

"She actually wanted to see you all the time, but she didn't want you to be sad, so she chose to hide. He said quietly.

"Swallow, you are so stupid!" his words pierced my heart like an awl, and I buried my head in the crook of my arm and wept bitterly.

"Let's go, I'll take you to see her. He stood up and put his hand on my shoulder and said, his voice shaking.

Following him to the door of the swallow ward, there was a strong pungent smell, as if some chemical agent had knocked it over. We cautiously slowed down and walked in, to a hospital bed by the window. There was a man lying on the bed, his hair had fallen out, and his thin face was as pale as paper. She curled up on the hospital bed, frowning, clutching the quilt with both hands, panting with her eyes closed, and occasionally letting out a slight *.

I was completely struck down by this image, and sat down on the white chair in front of the bed, covering my mouth, pinning my head to the side, trying to control my choking that was about to go out of control, and let the tears run sideways, dripping down my chest and soaking through my clothes.

"Why, why, swallow, swallow!" I cried out hysterically in my heart.

"Swallow, swallow", Zeng Yuqiu lowered his head and called softly.

Swallow* snorted and twisted his head to the other side.

"Don't disturb her, let her sleep. I interrupted Zeng Yuqiu quietly.

"Xiaolan, is that you?" a faint voice asked, as soon as my words fell, it was the swallow who opened his eyes, his eyes pale and weak.

"Swallow, why didn't you tell me?!" I grabbed her hand, my heart tingling again.

"Am I ugly, don't cry. She struggled to speak, and struggled to raise a hand to wipe my tears from my eyes.

"I know that you love to cry, who dares to tell you. She moved the corners of her mouth, smiled, and became mischievous again.

"At this time, you are still easy to change, and your nature is difficult to change!" I deliberately teased her.

She twitched the corners of her mouth again, and we both looked at each other and smiled with tears in our eyes.

At night, I finished scrubbing my mother again, and when my mother fell asleep, I didn't feel the slightest sleepiness after a busy day. I quietly came to Yanzi's hospital bed again, and saw that she had also slept peacefully, Zeng Yuqiu sat in front of the window and looked at her silently.

I went downstairs to the hospital courtyard and looked up at the stars in the cold wind. I asked, "Why is life so painful?" What am I doing wrong? Am I missing out on a lot? They just look at me silently and don't speak.