The day of leaving my hometown was approaching day by day, and my cousin secretly gave me 10,000 yuan and told me not to tell my aunt. When my cousin came back, he found a temporary job and rarely went out to mingle, which made me very happy. My cousin's money once again brought my mind back to the man thousands of miles away, yes, I still owe a lot of debt. But this debt, I can't talk to my son.

After staying in Beijing for a long time, I was not used to the damp and cold weather in my hometown, so I shivered for a holiday, and finally fell ill with a cold in the last few days. Originally, I could take it until the fifteenth day of the first month with annual leave, but the twelfth son of the first month called me back. Ziqing also went directly to T City.

The next day, I dragged my feverish body to the company, and because I hadn't officially gone to work, there were few people in the company. Ziyue arrived early in the morning, and there was an annual report to be sent to headquarters for me to check the text and data. For the whole three hundred pages, I read word by word for a day, and in the evening, I had a fever and overuse of my brain, and I was already dizzy.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, I finally finished reading. I sent the sorted report to Ziyue by e-mail. After more than half an hour, he called me from the inside line, and there were only two cold words: "Come in." ”

His tone is always imperative. I felt a sudden thought, did he see another mistake by him? I walked in nervously, only to see him leaning against his desk and smoking a cigarette, and the room was full of smoke. I choked on the urge to cough and held back tears in my eyes.

"No problem, printed and stamped to the headquarters. He commanded without expression.

"Good. "I responded, but I didn't have much energy. Seeing that he had no other commands, he was about to turn and leave. He suddenly said, "How are you thinking?"

I was stunned, and my mind raced for a few seconds before I realized what he meant, and my cheeks couldn't help but burn. After settling down, I said in a low but firm voice: "I'm sorry Mr. Feng, I will pay back your money." ”

The air seemed to freeze as if it had frozen, and the already quiet office was even more audible. I didn't dare to look up at Ziyue's expression. Just quietly waiting for his reaction.

After a while, his voice sounded flat: "I don't have time to play a half-push trick with you." I was stunned for a moment, and raised my eyes to meet his playful look, as if what I said was a joke. Isn't it inconceivable for him to be unwilling to sell his body for a few months for 600,000?

I tried to calm down, and I returned the same calm: "Mr. Feng, I will repay you a little money every month, I have calculated, 600,000 in 30 years, 20,000 per year, less than 2,000 per month is enough." As long as you don't want to ......" Looking at his gradually gloomy face, walking towards me step by step, my voice gradually lowered, and my heart began to beat wildly, not knowing what he wanted to do.

"It's clear enough. His voice was cold, and he lifted my chin hard, the look in his eyes seemed to be a little hurt, and his voice became more and more gloomy, "Do you need to put the number of times I want you?"

My heart is torn hard, my cowardice and I dare not resist, it does not mean that I am willing to do this kind of skin and meat trade. I shook my head with difficulty. His expression became even more gloomy, and he pushed me against the wall behind him, and stopped talking, only venting his hatred with rough movements.

I struggled hard, but my whole body was hot and weak, more like I wanted to welcome or refuse. His sneering remark: "Is it interesting?" made my heart twitch, in his eyes, how can I have any shame and self-esteem? I had a headache as if it was about to crack, and I pushed him weakly a few times but couldn't push it, dizzy and let him vent.

When it was over, he got dressed and snorted coldly in my ear: "It's better not to pretend in the future, the more I pretend, the more interested I become." ”

His voice was like floating in my ears, almost in the left ear, out of the right ear, I didn't have the heart to touch the meaning of his words, just numbly sorted out the clothes, walked out of his office, to my seat, took out a card from my bag, and turned back to his office, my brain was dizzy, I rushed in without even knocking on the door, put the card on his desk, tried my best to insist on my trembling and shaking body, and said calmly: "Mr. Feng, there are 10,000 in this card, which will be repaid to you first, and I will pay the rest back every month." ”

The expression on Ziyue's face, from the banter at the beginning, to the surprise, to the frown, passed in my dizzy eyes like the slow motion of a movie, and finally became angry, he threw the pen holder on the table, almost roaring: "Get out!"

I was relieved, I didn't know how I moved back to the rental house, and I went back to sleep. All the dirt, all the unbearable, I really hope it will end when I open my eyes.

When I went to the company again, Ziyue had a business-like attitude towards me, except for signing, commanding tasks, and I didn't have a superfluous word. The expression on his face is also always cold. I gradually breathed a sigh of relief, and perhaps, he really let me go.

I started working part-time online, and I paid 2,000 a month, which was impossible for me. Except for rent and food, there is almost nothing left in the salary. My cousin will give 800 to the card every month, which is already the limit for him. I have to find another job to pay off this debt.

After searching the Internet for several days, the salary of a translator is okay, and you can earn 30 yuan for 1,000 words. It is to translate foreign patent applications and other materials in the medical and biopharmaceutical fields for a patent company.

I was given a sample and asked to translate it within three days. There are only 5,000 words, it looks very easy, but in actual operation, I found that it is a big steamed bun, nowhere to eat, and it looks like a very simple word, but because I am not a medical professional, it just can't match the professional vocabulary, so I have to go to Baidu word by word to search for the closest meaning.

I stayed up for three days in a row, staying up until two or three o'clock every night, and then I barely finished translating and sent it over. The other party was quite satisfied with it, and gave me another 30,000 words of material for me to complete the translation within the specified time limit.

I barely earned 1,200 yuan in the first month, but I got it at the cost of staying up until midnight every night. I put the money into the card, and I felt a sense of relief.

But God often likes to joke, and just when my gradually lighter mood gets better and better with my gradually light body, he will give me a hard blow again.

At the end of March, my good friend didn't come. My heart tightened, and I hurried to the hospital for a check-up. I can't live because of my own sin, I'm three weeks pregnant, and according to the time, it's Ziyue.

I was completely confused, I had taken medicine before, and I didn't know how I got pregnant. When I got the list of results, I only felt that the sky was falling, and I was a little nervous and curious. For the first time, I had a child with a man, and it became a little life in my body. I covered my stomach with my hands all day, wondering if he would be a boy or a girl.

Delivering documents to Ziyue's office during the day, looking at the man sitting on the chair frowning, I looked at him unconsciously for the first time, I have never looked at him so seriously, thin cheeks, blue hawthorn, he is not handsome, but there is a kind of man's perseverance and clear edges and corners, and a kind of momentum that looks at everything. What will my child look like him?

He looked up sharply after signing, looked at my daze and stunned for a moment, and then there was a hint of softness in his eyes, and I hurriedly walked out with the document in my hand.

After a moment of stagnation in his seat, he summoned up his courage and sent a text message to his son: Is it okay to have dinner together in the evening?

He quickly replied: Okay.

Looking at him at night, I couldn't help but smile, this man is the father of my child. He frowned at me, "What are you laughing at?" I still looked at him and smiled, and he couldn't help but smile and asked where I wanted to eat?

I went to a restaurant with a lot of atmosphere, I drank a little red wine, and my face quickly turned red. He looked at me, thought I was weird, and asked, "What's the matter?"

I smiled at him, "It's okay." I just want to eat with you. "I secretly said in my heart, baby, do you see, the one on the other side is your father.

couldn't help but feel a little sour, raised the wine glass in his hand and smiled: "Ziyue, cheers!"

He grabbed my hand and smiled shallowly: "Xiaowei, follow me, I will treat you well." ”

I didn't say a word, I threw up my head and swallowed the tears that were about to come out and the red wine.

The next day, I took a day off and went to the hospital on my own. I cried when the cold instrument was in my body. I came out of the hospital and I was retching non-stop. Trembling all over the body. When I came home, I felt a little burned, so I fell asleep. There were a lot of people in my dream, I couldn't see their faces clearly, they were all pointing at me, and I could only keep crying.

In the evening, it was slightly better, and I ordered takeout to eat. Remembering that there were still materials that had not been translated, as if tomorrow was the deadline, I was busy and struggled to get up, lying in front of the computer, looking at the English letters strung back and forth, my mind was buzzing, and I didn't know what I was typing on the computer. I don't know how long it took, but after all the typing was done, I e-mailed the materials to the company, and I lay on the table as if I was being evacuated.

It was a long time before I slowly regained my strength, groggy and fell asleep in bed. I don't know how long I slept, but I faintly heard the alarm going off, but I didn't have the strength to get up at all. Gradually, the alarm clock was no longer audible. I slept unconscious.

I was sleeping soundly, the phone rang again, I fumbled to pick it up, and Zi Yue's cold voice: "I can't go to work anymore to do private work?"

My mind didn't seem to turn, but I couldn't respond: "Hmm." Hum. ”

Hearing that something was wrong with my voice, he asked again, "Where are you?" I had a splitting headache and thought "at home", but my hand couldn't help but let go, and my phone slipped on the ground. I didn't want to bother with it, so I continued to sleep.

After sleeping for a while, I could only hear the sound of the door slamming, and I put the quilt on my head and ignored it. The sound of slamming the door became more and more urgent, I shook my head and got up to open the door, looking at Ziyue standing at the door, I was a little dazed.

My body was a little weak, and I didn't care about greeting Ziyue and walked towards the bathroom. There was still a lot of blood, and I was dizzy for a while, and I reluctantly went out, and saw him coldly rummaging through the list on the table in my room.

Seeing me come in, his voice was cold: "My child, isn't it?"

I nodded, groggily sat on the bed, and said nothing.

He sprang to his feet, slammed the slip in his hand into my face, and almost roared, "And what is this?"

I didn't answer, what it is, haven't I seen it?

His voice trembled, and he shook me hard: "Why don't you say it?"

I waved my hand, annoyed, and shot back at him: "What if I told you? Can this kid have it? Can you be his father?"

He shook his fist and I closed my eyes: "Fight, fight, fight." ”

He slammed his fist against the wall, gritted his teeth and said three words: "You are such a bastard." ”

I lay on the bed weakly, mixed up, I don't want to think about it, I just want to sleep. He lifted me out of bed, pulled my coat over the chair, and dragged me out of the house.

"Where are you going?" I asked in a low voice. He grimaced and didn't answer. The soles of my feet were weak, so I had to follow his steps.

He drove me to a neighborhood where the house was simply furnished. Leave a sentence: "No need to go to the company anymore." And he turned and departed.

The previous babysitter came over in the afternoon to take care of me. I slept hard for a few days, and under the careful conditioning of the nanny, I gradually gained some strength. Zi Yue came once, casually asked a few words about his physical condition and left.