When I write this, my mind flies, and it seems like I'm going back to decades ago, when I was a child with Swallows.

That day, we sat by the river for a long, long time, and she didn't speak, so I stayed with her quietlyIt was getting late, the sun had sunk, and we finally got up and went home amid the shouts of the adults. And I couldn't sleep for a long time with a night of confusion, and I was thinking about what had happened to her, but I knew that these things must have taken a very traumatic toll on her, and that's why she was so miserable that she didn't even want to speak.

And I could see in her mother's face that there was some kind of deep pain that was very forbearing, and that I didn't want to be known

I couldn't sleep until the next morning, when I was so tired and excited, that I woke up early

When I came to school, I looked around the classroom and didn't see any swallows. The familiar desks and drawers of the past were also empty, and there was no trace of her. It was clear that she didn't come to school.

I stared at her empty seat for a long time, imagining that she was still in pain, and my worries grew tighter. After some thought, I planned to run to her house as soon as school was over.

At this time, the discussion of several classmates next to me, although the voice was deliberately lowered, still reached my ears clearly, because I am very sensitive to the word swallow.

Did you know? Swallow's parents are divorced!"

"How do you know?"

Didn't she leave school very early yesterday afternoon? I heard that she heard the teacher's conversation in the office, and she was so sad that she scattered all the stacks of homework she had to hand in, and she didn't even come back to carry her schoolbag, so she left. ”

This news was like being thrown into a hand in an empty field, like a dumped tarot domino, which was quickly spread by other students who heard it, and the hearts of the entire class exploded, and all of a sudden, all kinds of speculation and discussion filled every corner of the classroom. And the whole classroom is no longer like a place to read, not only can you not hear the sound of Lang reading, it has become a vegetable market of philistines.

The focus of discussion is undoubtedly why Swallow's parents chose to divorce, is it because her father has another woman outside, or is there something wrong with her mother? Even many children, influenced by the usual beliefs in the village, are sure that their mother must have given birth to only one daughter, so they were abandoned.

The 100-degree boiling water that I wanted to boil was boiling in the class, and the residual heat skipped over the faces of one classmate after another, and I was uncomfortable with the roasting. It wasn't until the bell rang for class that it died down the moment the teacher stepped onto the podium.

The word divorce has completely exceeded my imaginationAll I remember was that my mom and dad had a fight, and my mom mentioned it when it was really bad, but it was very fast, and it passed as my dad comforted me and time passedSince then, they have never heard anything like it in their mouthsVaguely, I learned that divorce is a shameful thing in the rural concept, and it means that two people have not managed their families well, and it means that both husband and wife have lost a kind of morality.

Nowadays, I didn't expect swallows to face such a problem.

For a long time, in her mouth, the word dad meant infinite love, and now when this sudden blow came unexpectedly, her loss was undoubtedly like falling from the clouds to the ground at one time. And there is also a very real question, who should she follow in the future? Do you stay in the countryside with your mother, or do you follow your father back to the city? If it were me, I wouldn't know how to choose, it would be a bloody separation, and no matter which side I chose, my future life would be full of regrets and unfulfilling.

And as a good friend, I want her to be with me every day, and it's because I'm a good friend that I want her to be happy every day.

But I seem to have heard the sound of her heart shattering, and that sound irritates my eardrums and makes me feel pain along with it.

The teacher was so passionate on the podium that he wanted to break our heads and pour the knowledge straight in, but my mind had already flown back to the swallow's house, to the dark room where she wasWhat is she doing at the moment? I seem to see it again, she is sitting alone in the corner of the wall at the head of the bed, secretly weeping

I would love to reach out and wipe the tears from her face, and take her to the river again, and tell her, "Mom and Dad are separated, but I believe they still love you, and you still have me as a friend, don't you?" However, I suspect that such a statement is a drop in the bucket for her, and that it makes no sense. After all, my parents are the ones she needs the most, and I am just an embellishment in her life.

I kept thinking about what I could do that worked, but one by one I was denied by myself, just thinking about getting out of school soon, going home quickly, seeing Swallow again and seeing her again, seeing what was going on with her, what the teacher was talking about in class, and I had naturally blocked it, and I could only see his mouth open and close with his dancing hands.

I suddenly remembered the teacher mentioned by my classmates, and I felt an inexplicable hatred for himWhy is he talking about the swallow in the office? And why is the swallow heard? I, who had always been very obedient to the teacher, suddenly felt that the teacher in front of me was starting to get a little annoyingI don't know if the teacher has a keen eye, or if he has the ability to read minds, but I seem to have seen through my thoughts, and he was dancing in the middle of the lecture, and suddenly he called me by name.

I stood up in confusion and looked at him blankly, not knowing what I was trying to do.

Shen Weilan, please answer the question I just asked. ”

"What?" "I said, please, answer the question I just asked. ”

‌‌我‪懵住了，‌‌因为一直在神游的我，‌‌思想一直在燕子身上，‌‌根本没有听到他提的问题，更不知该如何回答。 I stood in my seat, dumbfounded.

The teacher looked at my face with a sullen face, raised his voice, and asked, "Shen Weilan, what are you doing in class?" I didn't even hear my question”

I didn't answer, I bowed my head, my hands gripping the hem of my shirt tightly, rubbing the corners of my clothes.

The teacher stepped down from the podium, slowly walked up to me, and asked again, "What were you doing just now?"

I lowered my head even more, and I didn't dare to look him in the eye. At this moment, I seemed to feel that the teacher's eyes, like a 360-degree scanner, could scan me from top to bottom, from the inside out, and even saw the thoughts that I hated him.

I remained silent, unafraid to speak.

The teacher suddenly sighed, stood next to him and said, "Shen Weilan, I have always thought that you are a good boy, a very serious and well-behaved childUnexpectedly, even you started to stop listening carefully in class. ”

The teacher's words struck me in the heart. I was so sad that I almost burst into tears.

Then the teacher said, "You children, do you know how difficult it is for your parents to send you to school, and the teacher is here to give you a hard lecture, but your heart is flying out of the cloudsIt's a waste of your parents' hard work. We grew up in the countryside, we can't change our environment, the only thing that can change our destiny is to study hard, so that we can go out into the outside world and open another door to ourselvesOtherwise, we will end up like many of our friends, who will honestly stay at home after junior high school, work, earn money, get married, and have children. Since then, like our ancestors, we have been facing the loess all day long, with our backs to the sky, and the sun against the skyGuarding his own two acres and three points of land, watching the wonderful world on TV, listening to outsiders tell about their brilliant life.

The teacher also said that if you don't work hard, the legendary bright future will not be with youAs your teacher, I can only pass on a lot of experience and knowledge that I have learned, but if you don't have the right attitude to learn and can't learn the real skills, that's your businessAs a teacher, I hope that you will be able to study hard, and one day, if not to mention getting ahead, at least you will be able to have a decent job, which is also an account you have to your parents and yourself. Whether you recognize me after many years, whether you remember the sweat I used to put on this podium, that's another matter.

The teacher's words, although not loud, were extremely heavy. 我的心‌‌受到很大的触动，想起了‌‌正在田里干活的父亲，‌‌到处忙着帮别人做活的母亲，‌‌‪一时‬之间，‌‌眼泪再也不受控制，‌‌哗啦啦流了下来。

The little friends next to him also seemed to be infected, and they were all silent.

Only one of my classmates suddenly stood up and said to the teacher, "I know why she didn't attend, she was thinking about her good friend Swallow. Teacher, you see, Yanzi didn't come to school today, and everyone was talking about her parents getting divorced. ”

Unexpectedly, this classmate suddenly picked out this matter, and everyone watched the teacher's reaction with wide eyes, expecting to be verified positively whether this was a rumor or not.

The teacher was slightly stunned for a moment, then turned back to the podium, looked at the class thoughtfully, and then said in a deep voice, "Students, classmates, should care for each other, and should not take things that are not imaginary to hurt other people's self-esteem and affect other people's learning." ”

The classmate didn't seem to give up, and he was sure to get the answer from the teacher, and continued to ask, "Teacher, haven't you noticed?" She's been skipping class since yesterday afternoon, and there's definitely something wrong with that. ”

The teacher smiled slightly again and said, "Does not attending class mean that his parents are divorced?" This classmate, subjective assumptions will kill people”

Hearing the teacher's answer, although this matter was not directly related to me, I really felt some warmth.

As soon as the teacher's words fell, the student seemed to say something more, but the teacher directly motioned for him to sit down and did not let him speak. Then he said, "Rumors stop at the wise, and the friendship between classmates will be your lifelong wealth, please cherish it." Maybe you can't feel it now, that's because you are still young, but many years later, when you look back on today, I believe you will be deeply touched. I hope you will remember the faces of your classmates and remember my words today. Moreover, divorce is only a matter between adults, just like you children feel inappropriate when you are playing, you have different aspirations and do not conspire with each other, you really can't be together, and separation is just a life choice. The times are advancing, and only by reading more can we broaden our horizons and look at many things objectively. ”

I remember this teacher's words deeply.