I stumbled out and sat on the bench downstairs for a long time, watching the curtains of Ziqing's house close, an hour, two hours, I don't know how long, it was dark, and the lights were still not on. My heart hurt like something was kneading and squeezing, and I couldn't breathe with every breath I took. Finally, I stood up and walked onto the road, along the road to the river, where the bridge was full of cars and cars, and the neon of the city was reflected in the river.

My heart is tormented, why did things develop to this point? Every time I was with Ziyue, I was reluctant, and I was sticking to my bottom line, but why did things come to the point where they couldn't explain clearly?

Walking back and forth on the bridge, I felt so small that I felt like I was going to be overwhelmed by the city, and I felt the urge to jump into it more than once. If I die, will someone bury me in this spring?

I don't know how long it took, I stopped the car and returned to Ziqing. I didn't knock on the door and sat down on the steps of Ziqing's house. As long as he comes out, he'll be soft-hearted, right? My tears came out again.

It was still a little cold in April, and in the second half of the night, I couldn't hold on. Shivering from the cold. I walked to the door of Ziqing several times and raised my hand, but finally failed to knock on the door. I don't have the face to knock. I just want him to see that I care about him. Holding my arms back and forth, it was the hardest night I could have endured. The farthest distance in the world is not that I am standing in front of you, and you don't know that I love you, but that people who clearly love each other, but are separated by the door and cannot be together. And this door was brought on by me.

The next morning, people upstairs and downstairs came and went, all looking at me in amazement. I stood up, my back ached, I almost couldn't stand steadily, and I staggered against the wall and moved slowly.

An old man asked curiously, "Girl, what are you doing here?" I had to smile: "I forgot to bring the key, wait for someone." ”

The uncle was kind: "Come and wait for me, how much you will suffer outside." I couldn't stand it anymore and smiled: "I'll knock on the door again." As he spoke, he stood up and knocked on the door, but the uncle was still waiting kindly, as if there was no one in the house who would beckon me to his house. I plucked up my courage and knocked for two minutes, and Ziqing's hair was unkempt and opened the door.

I couldn't stand the contrast between the heat in the room and the cold outside, so I stumbled and fell limply to the ground.

Ziqing ran over and shook me, I woke up, pulled Ziqing's arm, cried and said, "Ziqing, I waited for you all night, why didn't you come out to see me?"

Ziqing took me in his arms and kissed my hair: "Xiaowei, I thought about it for a day, I can't leave you." No matter what happens, I still can't bear you. We went to T City together and we got married. I cried and agreed.

I simply believed that I loved him and he loved me, and that as long as there was love, everything would be okay and would pass with time. It's just that at that time, I was too young, too simple, and I didn't know that people's emotions were not only love, but also struggles, and helplessness.

Ziqing helped me to resign, ran several times, Ziyue was not there, it has been delayed for almost two weeks, and the project in T City has been urging, Ziqing had to go first.