I don't allow anyone to be arrogant in my head, these are no one else, it's all my own perception of others. It's all me, it's all the product of thinking.

They pretend to be real, they pretend it will happen, they pretend that all this is not the result of my thinking, but the objective law of the development of things.

It's all noise, whether it's positive or negative, it's all noise.

Can I really be sure that awareness exists?

Can the characters in the dream really deduce the existence of the dreamer through reasoning?

Infinite existence, non-existence of limitations, that's all.

The devouring sensation was always there, and I didn't have any reason to drive it away, nor any other emotion, including fear and happiness. None of this is real, it's just a presentation of the elements of the picture.

Come as you like, feel free to come.

I don't want to do anything more, I let go, I accept my fate, I'm going to die while I'm alive.

The characters are not real, and this kind of thing is not qualified to manipulate my life. I am honored to be able to experience the role of Yuan Changwen with the help of it, but I will definitely not be bound by the role. I'm not interested in those crazy words and deeds that are generally sure of the real words and deeds of the characters.

I've had enough of pulling me with fear and tempting me with coolness. Unreal is unreal, and if I need to, it should be me who chooses to believe, rather than being directly bound and forced to believe.

It doesn't matter what the character is, the fear comes, whether the character is fighting fear or surrendering to fear, it doesn't matter. However, if you can't see all this as not yourself, then you are falling into falsehood.

I fight against fear, I don't surrender, but I know that these actions are not me at all. It's just the performance of the characters, it's just the drama on the stage.

The strange thing is that after knowing this, they will often surrender and accept their fate.

Maybe I don't even have the interest to think about these things. What does not accept fate can give birth to struggle, and what does not accept fate can resist in order to fight. If you accept your fate, can you still stand at the peak of life?

It's a very difficult time to deal with the distortions in your mind. Can we stand at the pinnacle of life by accepting fate? Maybe, maybe not. If pooping every day is also an effort and persistence worth preaching, then I have nothing to say.

Do I have someone I have to convince? No.

Am I talking about how to become a better version of myself? No.

If it's not true, there's no need to continue the discussion. Whether the so-called resignation and surrender should be substituted into life, how should they be substituted, and how should they interact with real life...... I'm not interested in these questions.

Breaking through the unhindered barriers, discarding all falsehoods, that's what I should care about. Wanting to be logical, trying to convince others, wanting to put something into practice in my life will only hinder my killing.

All this has nothing to do with life, on the contrary, the killing is to destroy it.

Whether the character wants to surrender or not, it has nothing to do with me. Whether the character will still do things according to the twist in his head, I don't know.

My existence is falsehood, and falsehood is the thing that hinders me from pulling me, why should I keep it? Completely throwing away the character of Yuan Changwen is a kind of killing in itself.

To lose one's mind is to kill the distortion in one's mind. To lose memories is to slash the pull of the past.

What is the future, what is my mother, who is qualified to be arrogant in my head?

That sense of realism about the future can't seem to be broken anyway. Is it brainwashing not to believe in a thing that is completely unprovable?

I can't prove that this moment has anything to do with the previous "now". I can't prove that what happened here is the result of the accumulation of countless previous "moments".

There's no causal relationship, it's just picture elements explaining picture elements. The same is true for the future. I'm worried about the future, not just because I think the future is real, but because I think my actions now can affect the future.

For example, if I throw an apple now, it will cause the apple to fall to the ground and shatter in the future. So, I have to think carefully about my choices in the moment to avoid going where I don't like in the future.

Can I really influence the future? Will the future really happen because of my actions? Is it really free to choose?

It may seem like the causal relationship is unassailable, but that's just a conclusion based on the linear passage of time. I can't be sure if the memories in my head actually happened, and I can't be sure if the memories of the apple falling to the ground and breaking are real.

I'm standing in the past, that's why I think it's hard to destroy. But when I'm in the moment, only in the moment, those thoughts that all become the now.

This moment is this moment, there is no such thing as the previous moment and the next moment. Even, even if you think that the past and the future are real, it is only the idea of the moment, and it is still in the moment.

All are the elements of the picture that are perceived at this moment, only at this moment. It's not that we shouldn't worry about the future, but that this worry itself is only a visual element that is perceived at the moment.

Is this appeasement?

Yuan Changwen was very at a loss, his previous self, his previous killing, was completely destroyed like a madman. It stands to reason that I should continue to destroy the future, my mother, and other things that are arrogant in my head.

If you directly thought that the characters were all fake, the characters' words and deeds didn't matter, and the characters could do anything, can you kill them in this way?

The point is, I'm not indifferent. I would think I should be worried about the future, and I would think that I would be very uncomfortable not worrying about the future.

What kind of thing is this?

I can choose to worry about the future, but "worrying about the future" can't force me to worry about the future.

Whatever it is, it's not qualified to be arrogant in my head. All this is just another means to put me to sleep. Right, I haven't finished the slash yet, so how can it all be okay?

My existence is false, and that's the biggest problem.

Obviously there is no future, but I am worried about the future, is this any different from other character attributes? Mom is still in her head, as if it is a natural thing to think about Mom, isn't this the character's self-definition?

"It doesn't matter what the character is", the use of this sentence is not at all to stop the killing, nor is it to appease everything that is okay. The only effect of this sentence is to remind me not to go in the wrong direction, and it is not necessary to be a good person to touch the truth.

Whether a character kills or saves people will not affect the truth, nor will they be eligible to affect the killing. Everything is a distortion in the mind, and none of it can exist, whether it's positive or negative. Neither the warps I've been grabbing, nor the twists I've used to destroy others, are eligible to exist.

It's not over yet, further afield.