Chapter 658: The First Step 58
Yuan Changwen obviously felt that he was back in the role again, which was obviously discovered by the comparison between the two, but thinking about the previous state carefully, it seemed like being wrapped in slime and struggling desperately, and he finally broke through a hole, and was instantly pulled back.
It's not that the previous slash has gotten rid of the character. Strictly speaking, the previous slash allowed me to have a small distance to watch the characters perform. Or, as if struggling with mucus, has left the central position.
Unfortunately, now, I clearly feel that the character is wrapping me again.
Is this the end of it?
My slash is over before it even starts?
In this life, you will always be enslaved by the role, and you will always make choices in fear?
Can't those self-definitions be killed? Are those distorted views and opinions going to stay in my head for the rest of my life?
Oh no, go on!
Further!
I should have expected this situation a long time ago.,How can the character be a general?That's the ultimate boss of the universe.,There's no other evil that can compare to the character.。 Any Great Demon King will have an entity, even if it is the existence of a spirit, it is a range after all.
And the characters are everywhere. No matter where I am, the characters are controlling me. Ignoring time, ignoring distance, I'm just being toyed with.
I'm praying for the slaughter to be over quickly, and I'm delusional that I can quickly solve the character and be free again. This kind of thought is originally driven by fear, as if you are learning something new, and then you can quickly change the whole person and become a better version of yourself.
It's just a fart.
There's no better version of yourself at all, and if there is, it's just a plump character.
I was pulled back and that's it. Won't you continue to kill?
Of course, I have to continue, I am not prepared for the worst, and I will not be able to succeed in this life. Why is the current block an excuse for me to divert my attention?
Along the way, do I face fewer obstacles?
It's all your own fantasy, whether it's any opinion or the person or thing in your head, it's all fantasy and it's unreal. And the character itself is the greatest unreality, the aggregate of all falsehoods.
So, there is no blocking at all.
It is one's own choice to deceive oneself, it is one's own choice to turn a blind eye, and all obstacles are just self-definition.
It is I who choose to believe, "life must work hard", "life must achieve a certain goal", "life is only once, so you must be presumptuous", "you want to buy a house, get married and have children, so that your parents will not worry", "not playing with colleagues will affect your work career", "accompanying the leader is more important than accompanying your parents", "my mother has worked hard all her life, I want to accommodate"......
These baseless affirmations affect my words and deeds.
What kind of high-minded talk is not aimed at attracting attention? Opinions and opinions are desperately trying to distort the world, and the so-called summary itself is a thing that has no logic at all.
If you can't look at things holistically, then any summary is false self-righteousness.
Everyone is self-righteous, because the character is enough of these things, so much self-definition, the brain is full of noise, and the worry never stops.
I'm still worried that this thing seems to be my only identity, and when I touch it, it's a panic that I don't know what to do. Fear of losing what you have, fear that after losing your dependence, life will become worse than death.
These are all just speculations, but I always assume them to be true and believe them all without any doubt. I didn't know anything, but I acted like I knew a lot.
You only need to be honest and you will find that everything you know is speculation. And this state of believing in oneself turns falsehood into truth, deceiving oneself to the point of having no doubt at all.
In addition, there is fear chasing and threatening behind, and it seems that "life is going to end" has become the mantra of the character. Regardless of whether it will be over, it is impossible to determine whether this life is mine or not.
I have left everything behind, leaving only this one identity, and I will be terrified if this identity is also destroyed. That's my next step, killing the only identity.
The character will have countless reasons to worry, what is the end of the cultivation and he is finished, what is the lack of mental energy and he can only beg on the street, think about the high spirits when he left, will he go back and become a beggar, what starship suddenly disappears, he is permanently left here, etc.
If I had to persuade one reason at a time, as I had done, and repeatedly told myself that it was all a self-woven fear, then there would be no progress in this life.
No roles, it's as simple as that. Everything about the characters is, all perceptions are distortions, that's all. I don't know anything but "I exist".
It seems to be worrying about life, but in fact it is worrying about the survival of the characters. I always think that there will be a better tomorrow, and I always can't let go of hope, but these are all noises and delusions.
"Persistence, you will succeed", oh my God, how much shit like this is still in my head? No wonder I can't stop worrying at all, so much shit in my head, how can I stop worrying?!
I'm a cultivator, so naturally I have to care about my own practice. This kind of illogical affirmation is so easy to sway my thoughts. I am from the Empire, so I should care about the Empire, and all kinds of big and small things are involved in the future of the Empire.
That's one of the attributes of a character.
On the other hand, caring about practice is nothing more than being afraid of failing in practice, not daring to let go, and wanting to use your mind to control the development of things. So, find out the deficiencies in your practice and then improve it. In fact, it was the fear that I couldn't move forward, how could I fail as a character, so I worked hard.
Is that so?
Then my slashing, has it become another character attribute?
What would I have been without this?
First of all, I recognize the role of Yuan Changwen in my head. Then, I set a self-definition like "you can't fail in life." Then, in terms of what makes me successful, I once again set up a self-definition of money, career, pinnacle, etc.
That's it, the whole person runs forward like a mad dog. I don't need to be too complicated at all, just a few simple settings can affect my whole life.
The character of Yuan Changwen is false, and any attributes associated with it are naturally false, which is completely artificially distorted. They are all self-deception, identifying these falsehoods as true. Whether it's fear or coolness, it's all about plumping up the characters.
When did it become so difficult to be an honest person? I saw the falsehood, but I just didn't let go. Knowing that it was a twist, he still clung to the twist, and then desperately fed the character's hunger.
There has never been a moment when I was so disappointed in myself. What about the pride, what about the strong, hot-blooded, and the characters, is it so difficult?
So much so that I couldn't even find the direction to take a step.