Keiko hurriedly helped Yuan Changwen up, a big man, who suddenly knelt beside him, always feeling so inappropriate.

Perhaps, deep down in her heart, she did not regard Yuan Changwen as a mental patient.

"What's wrong, why did you suddenly start crying?" Keiko picked up Yuan Changwen and kindly took out a tissue.

Yuan Changwen smiled reluctantly and said, "I killed my mother." ”

Keiko's eyes widened, as if she couldn't believe her ears. After a casual chat, he quickly got up and walked away, and called the police to tell the police.

If Yuan Changwen really killed his mother, then the nature would be completely different. It's not just a mental patient, it's a madness.

Of course, Keiko didn't know what the word "kill" meant.

Speaking of which, there is still a big difference between Lao Zhang and Yuan Changwen. When Lao Zhang stayed in the psychiatric hospital, he was not cultivated to the truth, but was still a character.

It's just that this character has sorted out a lot of things and cleared all the ideas that others have stuffed into their heads. The rest is his own ideas, and he walks on thin ice to practice them.

In the eyes of outsiders, this is a "real person", and it is the appearance that a person who has attained the Tao should have. Don't care about the eyes of others, don't fear worldly morality, and live only for yourself.

But after all, it's a character, living for yourself? So who is this so-called "self"?

There is no such thing as a "true self", only a "false self" and a "no self", and the "true self" also belongs to the "false self", but it is a very simple "false self".

Lao Zhang does not agree with other people's concepts, but he has always firmly grasped the definition of "true self", which is the reason why he has not been able to cultivate to the truth.

In the end, even those who cultivate the truth must be given up, and the "Tao" that they firmly grasp must be thrown away.

Who is cultivating the truth? Who is establishing the Tao?

The person on the road to cultivation, is it real?

Lao Zhang threw away the last layer of falsehood and immediately cultivated to the truth, thus showing supernatural power.

Yuan Changwen didn't take this path, he began to ask himself, "Who am I", and then wanted to find "What is real?"

There is no use of falsehood to cultivate the truth, there is no so-called "what I think is the truth", and there is no gradual removal of falsehood.

Yuan Changwen's behavior was more like that of an arsonist, setting fire to all the endless buildings in the desert, and then watching them be burned by the fire.

This is also the reason why Yuan Changwen knows the only truth, "I exist", but he still hasn't awakened.

Don't stop the spread of the fire, don't rush into the fire to salvage something valuable. He stood on the sidelines and watched his former beloved being burned by the flames.

The unreal does not exist, and the real never ceases to exist.

After the fire, the unreal will dissipate because it doesn't exist at all. It was Yuan Changwen himself who firmly grasped it and identified with these false things, thus making it real.

It is obviously empty, but it is forced to weave various definitions by the self and present it to the whole world. Without the definition of self-weaving, there would be no Yuan Changwen's existence.

From this point of view, it is still worth thanking the devil for his deception.

Wait, wait for the fire to slowly go out, it is the time to awaken. One year, or two years? Who cares?

The theater viewer mode should be turned on from time to time to avoid "self" secretly continuing to build buildings while the fire is burning. Don't underestimate the ability of the "self" to weave definitions, look at so many sincere seekers and cultivators over the millennia, and their failures are the best proof of this.

The demon is more powerful than imagined, and no matter how much you overestimate the demon, it is not an overestimate.

Fear, just this one means, coupled with its countless drag performances, what happiness, worry, anxiety, happiness, etc., is enough to make yourself anxious.

Sure enough, surrender is a good helper on the road to awakening. After surrendering, he is a puppet without thoughts, so why worry about anxiety and the like?

I leave everything to the Tao, let it do the work, and let the Tao drive the ship of life. Whether to avoid the storm with a full rudder or to rush straight into the storm is chosen by the "Dao".

And I, surrender.

Surrender your troubles to God, ha, that's what that phrase means. It's about letting go and trusting that God can fix everything for you. Is God not even able to do this? Or does the God in whom he believes not think he can do it?

And what are you afraid of?

If you think about it, on the surface, it seems that you are afraid that something specific will not be realized according to your own ideas, or that you are afraid that something specific and negative will happen.

They are all afraid of "selflessness", and the definition of self-weaving is to cover "selflessness" and prevent people from seeing this simple reality. No one wants to know that they are just a stupid background, and all thinking and choices are based on self-woven definitions.

From the moment you have consciousness, you want to be in control, and you are constantly looking for meaning to grasp and take it as reality. When a group of people are doing this, what reason do you have to leave the group?

When something concrete doesn't happen, is what you think you are still yourself?

For example, the self-woven definition, "I am a person who achieves success through hard work." ”

Then, when I work hard and success does not come, anxiety, worry, and fear will mercilessly wrap around me. The most fundamental reason is that self-definition is hurting, and for it, it is equivalent to destruction.

In this case, the former self will find other things to comfort himself and reinforce the definition woven by the other self, so that the uncomfortable mood will improve a lot.

What Yuan Changwen has to do is not to resist when anxiety, worry, and fear appear. Let them wrap around you, and let the negative emotions collide within.

Surrender, whatever the "Tao" wants to play, I will accompany you. Anyway, it's just a character, and the Grim Reaper is watching the play on the side anyway, and every breath is less than once anyway.

When faced with some small things, it seems that you can not care. For example, waiting for too long for a traffic light, such as not being able to find a parking space. In these little things, we can let the Tao take control.

And the so-called life events, we have to think and think, all kinds of anxiety, looking for anything that can give us an answer. Superstition, Science, Life Coach......

But are those big things really big things? It's all just roles, so why bother to distinguish between big and small?

Who is distinguishing? It is the character himself, the character called Yuan Changwen, who divides these things into big things and small things. Then, they fall into a near-infinite cycle of reincarnation.

Worry, if things happen satisfactorily, so the worry disappears. Then, I started to worry about the next thing. If it doesn't happen, then the worry turns into discomfort, so self-comfort finds another meaning and continues to struggle.

Yuan Changwen leaned back on the bench and relaxed. But he knew that he still hadn't surrendered, and there always seemed to be a background noise in his head.

Keep reminding myself what I should do in the future, what should I do if I don't have income, what should I do if I don't wake up?