Gregariousness has always been the focus of parental education, and no parent wants to see their child being excluded and becoming a lonely person in the class.

Friends play together, go to and from school together, and have a lot of fun.

There are many people who don't fit in today's society. Some people are too poor to fit in with others.

And some people are pretentious and unwilling to fit in with others.

But people who belong to the group or are not social will find a sense of belonging in something.

It's either two-dimensional, or technological.

What Yuan Changwen did, to a certain extent, was to kill his sense of belonging.

Not a white-collar worker, not a person who has been sentenced, not a person with different perceptions, not a person who has pride in what he has done......

That year, I was a top student and enjoyed the worship of the whole class.

That year, when I encountered a natural disaster, I kept my composure and led everyone out alive.

That year, as a newcomer to the company, he broke the company's sales record with his hard work.

I used to be like magic, and every time I got together, my poker magic tricks could get the attention of the audience.

used to be very interested in Zhou Yi, and even the accuracy rate was as high as seventy percent.

I used to be funny, humorous, knowledgeable, worked hard for my family, and resisted temptation for my wife.

What now?

Are these themselves?

It's just a decoration of the "self", who wants to throw it away?

Yuan Changwen was unwilling, but he couldn't turn back now, because none of this was true. A sense of belonging allows the "self" to find attention, which can be supplemented and expanded.

When you become a part of something, you have been deceived by the devil. Think about it, when you first joined, you were just a newcomer, and then after a while, you could teach newcomers as an old man and accept the worship and gratitude of newcomers.

Kill the "self", kill the sense of belonging, kill your own identification with something.

Isn't this process uncomfortable?!

Doesn't produce melancholy or melancholy emotions?!

How to describe that anger when others denigrate their beliefs. In front of a devout believer, to scold all faith as shit, will you be beaten to death?

It's not just faith, it's what you pay for, and when you're belittled by others to the point that it's worthless, it's also extremely angry.

But Yuan Changwen wants to create this kind of pain with his own hands and deprive himself of what he has believed in for so many years.

Am I crazy?

But these are obviously not true, why don't everyone get rid of them, but have fun. Oh no, not for pleasure, but for being mercilessly whipped.

Did the Buddha also experience these sufferings?

Shakyamuni, the royal prince, gave up his identity, family wealth, and power in search of truth.

What am I?!

Still trying to control their own destiny, and trying to find the truth without destroying their own lives?

Really Nyima is ridiculous!

Family, parents, wife and children, can they compare to the Buddha's family background?

Can work, career, and money be compared to the imperial power of the Buddha?

What am I?!

Yuan Changwen was suddenly shrouded in sadness, and unnaturally felt like crying, and tears flowed down his nose.

The recognition of everything, the grasp of everything, it seems that once you let go, there will be great fear.

Do I really own something?

Yuan Changwen didn't want to speak, his heart was full of sadness and melancholy. Looking at the three people in front of him, I couldn't help but ask myself: Do these three people really exist?

How do I know if they're a real person, or a highly intelligent machine?

Control!

Everything is under the control of the "ego".

It's not content to know something, it has to know something, and the desire to control is the best manifestation. Whether it is the success or failure of control, it is a proof of the existence of the "self".

Once you let go, a feeling of fear no less than death hits.

Surrender, for the "self", is the greatest enemy. It does not surrender, it struggles, it understands the present moment as an obstacle, everything it cares about is in the future.

The "ego" deceived me into focusing on the future, as if there was a goal to pursue. And then there's a new goal. If you don't get it, you'll be miserable.

Yuan Changwen's killing of the "self" will inevitably be counterattacked by the "self".

(After talking so much, I just want to convince myself that all the melancholy and discomfort that has arisen since so many chapters is worth it.) Someday, when the "self" is cut off, these sorrows will disappear. ）

[Yes, I have no doubts. 】

(But isn't that a belief, a belief that needs to be convincing oneself constantly.) ）

[No, not to convince yourself to believe, but to convince yourself to stop believing.] Instead of believing that none of this is true, it's about stopping believing that it is all real. 】

(Hmph, what's the difference?)

Because "I exist" itself is real, and everything else is not real. I am obscured by these untruths, so only by removing these untruths can I reveal my truth. 】

(Ha, remember what you used to feel?) All justifications serve only two purposes, either "I'm wrong" or "I'm wrong, but not much.") "So, what kind of situation does it belong to now?)

[This is not an excuse, but a statement of the only truth.] 】

(How to be sure?)

[I can be sure that this is the only truth, but I can't be sure if this path is correct, whether it can really lead to the only truth, whether it can lead to awakening. 】

(Then why do you want to do this, do you want to gamble? Use the rest of your life to make a big gamble?)

[Yes, it was a big gamble. I've never heard of anyone experiencing this and being able to wake up, and every time I see someone in this state, I will play the role of a good person to persuade them. 】

(It's too late to turn back, even if we lose our jobs, we'll apply again.) Nothing to worry about, there are wives and children waiting for us at home. As long as we continue to work hard, we can return to a happy life. ）

[It's ridiculous to think about it, if someone comes to persuade me now, it's already my mercy not to beat him.] Let me give up the real and go back to the ups and downs of the unreal world, go!]

(What about the future?)

[What am I doing with it!I must find the truth, I want to awaken, even if I lose everything because of this, I don't care!Even if I beg, even if I sleep on the streets, even if I can only live humbly on the garbage, I will not give up the truth!]

(Hehe, such a heroic declaration is just to suppress fear.) ）

[That's right, but it's not that I'm afraid, it's Yuan Changwen who is afraid. I'm that stupid background, how can I be afraid? Since it's Yuan Changwen who is afraid, then it's okay to be afraid. 】

Further!

Yuan Changwen thought of this word again, no matter where he was, no matter how much insight he gained, and no matter whether he was qualified to become a consultant, he did not achieve his goal after all.

There is no shortage of beautiful scenery on the way to the top of the mountain. But those beautiful scenery are not the end, not the top of the mountain, even if they are beautiful, they can still only belong to obstacles, to the demons!

Further!

Only the top of the mountain is the end!

In my life, there is nothing else to do but this!

Let everyone who should come come, let me see, what else can happen?

Even death is not worth mentioning in front of me.

Hum!