Again, the mood shift was so sudden.

The tears on Yuan Changwen's face had dried up, and the sadness had quietly dissipated, replaced by pride.

The three people on the opposite side just watched Yuan Changwen change his emotions, and even the woman didn't know what to say.

Each person's experience, knowledge reserve, and educational background can almost determine a person's personality. By virtue of their mastery of this art, the catchers were able to find the information they were looking for in the interrogation.

But here in Yuan Changwen, he has repeatedly hit a wall.

Not just because his thinking is different from ordinary people, nor because he is judged insane. In fact, before the arrest came, he checked all the information and thought that he had mastered Yuan Changwen's thinking mode.

How do you know that Yuan Changwen is killing "self", how can a person who doesn't even have "self" be grasped in his thinking mode?

In fact, Yuan Changwen himself couldn't grasp and control this state, because there was no guidebook to tell him where it was and what to do next.

None of them!

Yuan Changwen's education since childhood is to abandon negative emotions, and once negative emotions appear, it is best to immediately let go and shift attention to positive emotions.

Moreover, after the killing of "self" began, Yuan Changwen's emotions were no longer under his control. Sometimes it's uncomfortable, sometimes it's sad, sometimes it's clear, sometimes it's light.

Surrender to this moment, then the emergence of these emotions also requires surrender yourself.

Let the "Tao" control your own life, instead of using your own little brain to judge and screen a choice that is good for you. We don't know anything, how can we determine what is good?

What is good now, is it good in the future?

Is this time good, is it a good life?

Who dares to guarantee it, who dares to be sure?

If you can't be sure of anything, why always want to be in control?

Yuan Changwen can figure out this kind of thinking, but it is not easy to do. More than 20 years of education have built a solid line of defense for his mind, and the buildings in that desert are not ornaments.

Every brick and tile of the building was put up by Yuan Changwen himself, maybe consciously, but most of them were put on without thinking.

If your own mind is not considered, what else does this life belong to you?

It's all someone else's!

The words and feelings that others think of, they directly use them themselves, and they are proud of it. If it happens that this perception is unique to me among my colleagues, then it is amazing!

Say it casually, enjoying the admiration of others. Emphasis is on arguing loudly to gain more worship.

Cognitive upgrades, phew!

It's just a trick of the "self", all of which is for the purpose of enriching the "self", and it is all about adding various things on the basis of the unreal, in order to gain the admiration of the other person's "self".

After listening to a sentence, I had a feeling of sudden enlightenment.

Who's suddenly opening up?

Whether it is for Chicken Soup for the Soul or against Chicken Soup for the Soul, it is a trick of "self", and it is a choice of one of the opposites.

I don't want it!

Only truth is your own pursuit.

No, only to eliminate the untrue is to pursue yourself.

"What do you really want? Say it, I believe there are few things that my Zhang family can't do. ”

The woman said again with pride.

For the only person who can talk to Lao Zhang and make Lao Zhang change, this woman will definitely not give up easily.

Yuan Changwen looked at her and didn't speak.

How do you say you want to be real?

What is there to say, no one understands when you say it, no one understands, everyone will persuade themselves, there is no point in this path.

Indeed, this path does not make any sense, does not allow oneself to gain supernatural powers, and does not make the world peaceful.

Hating falsehood and being tired of being untrue is the reason why Yuan Changwen embarked on this road.

And now, it doesn't matter what the reason is, because there's no going back.

No one knows how long this will last, and no one even knows if there will be an end to this road.

The only few characters are legends from more than 2,000 years ago, Jesus, Buddha, and Lao Tzu.

What am I?

Trying to stand side by side with these guys?

Trying to reach their heights?

But why not? Who put this impossibility in my head?

If no one can get to their heights, why do they still leave writings, just to show off and mock mortals?

Can I really?

Is there really an end to this road?

Can I stand on the top of that mountain in my lifetime?

If not, then my life is not ridiculous or wasteful, and even the lowest people are better than themselves.

Hum!

Even so, will you give up?

On second thought, no one understands that I am the best state, and I don't want to communicate with others and make progress together. So if someone really understands me and even embarks on the same path, so what?

I'm not sure if the other party is real, what does his situation have to do with me?

It's all my own universe, all the happenings are in my head, is there anything out there?

No!

It's all inside, it's all inside of you.

My perceptions of others are in my mind, and whether they are real or not, these perceptions are within me.

Mature, glamorous, atmospheric, responsible, tall, rich...... All these labels, I put them, they are all here.

What's not?

I am aware of this table, and it is impossible to determine whether it is real or not, and it does not matter at all, because I am aware of it, and I am aware of it.

I am aware of happiness, and it doesn't matter what causes happiness, the key is that I am aware of it.

A responsible person will show that he is responsible through his actions, but all this is in my awareness.

My preferences, my family, which one am I not aware of?

Do they real?

It can't be determined, and it doesn't matter at all.

Everything is my awareness, and my awareness is everything.

And myself, this person named Yuan Changwen, this white-collar worker who works in sales, this person who has experienced the illusion of the jewel, is it real?

It doesn't matter either, because it's still what I'm aware of.

So, what exactly am I doing?

Or where else can I go?

Yuan Changwen was confused again, but he knew that what was really confused was "self". When ordinary people encounter this state, they will struggle to get out of it, and they will find a target to divert their attention.

Right, we have mortgages to pay, jobs to do, and all sorts of relationships to deal with, and things that make us happy and happy.

There are so many things to do, how can I have time to get confused?

What am I, fuck off!

Yuan Changwen couldn't do this, he had to let himself do nothing, and let negative emotions such as confusion and sadness spread in his body.

Is there really so much going on out there?

Is there really an outside?

Surrender yourself to the Tao and surrender yourself, after all, there is nothing outside of this world at all.

What else is real besides "I exist"?

Who is it that makes me devote my heart and soul to these untruths, and I can't let go of them and keep cutting them.

"Ahh

Yuan Changwen suddenly roared and stood up suddenly.

However, Zhu Kuai had already paid close attention to it, and immediately stepped forward to press Yuan Changwen down on the sofa to prevent him from making any more trouble.

Yuan Changwen didn't resist, what is there to resist, and what can he resist?

Come on, let me see what else I can do.