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I sat down in my chair a little paralyzed, looking at Ziyue helplessly, my heart churning like waves. [ His family, like an invisible siege, enclosed him tightly inside, and I could only look at each other through the wall. ]

There has never been a moment when I felt that he was so far away from me. Far away to the heart of the cone tingling, but unable to reach. I used to know that he had a family and a daughter, but after all, I had never faced it so directly, and I still deceived myself: I and his family are two parallel lines that will never intersect, and it is good that each is stable. But now, it seems that everything is intertwined and entangled, and there is only one him, but both sides are tearing him up. At this moment, I truly felt that I was a third party who intervened in other people's families. And it's a redundant third party.

Ziyue and I were close at hand, but we looked at each other for a long time as if we were looking at each other from afar, and on Ziyue's face, I saw tangled, struggling, and worried expressions. And these expressions, I rarely saw on the face of this resolute man before.

After a while, he looked at me with some difficulty and asked, "Xiaowei, do you like New Zealand or Europe?"

I was stunned, was he going to send me out? Suddenly, my heart ached, it turned out that he was really tired, and the result of being tired was to send me to a place where I couldn't see or be out of mind? I turned my head and looked at my pale and bloodless face in the mirror, and my voice was so low that I couldn't hear it: "You still annoy me, don't you?"

Unconsciously laughed at himself, "It's really annoying to have a child you shouldn't have, right?" But why, when I laughed, my heart hurt like a knife, and my face was full of tears?

He was slightly stunned, walked up to me in a few steps, and held my shoulders hard: "What did you say?" frowned tightly between his eyebrows, "I'm just afraid that you will be disturbed and affect your body." ”

"Really?" I laughed sadly, tears streaming down my face.

"Yes. His tone was firm, seeing that I was still in a trance, and I didn't feel that the strength in my hand increased, and my shoulder hurt a little, "Xiaowei, why don't you understand?" said in a somewhat painful voice: "Do you know how much my heart hurts when you see me trembling when you answer the phone?" But I can't help but answer, it's my daughter." ”

"I know, I know. His phrase "That's my daughter" pierced my conscience so deeply that I was almost hysterical, "I didn't let you take it, why do you say that about me." "My emotions were a little out of control, and for the first time, I lost my temper and pulled the bottles and cans on the dressing table with my backhand.

Looking at the glass bottle that shattered in response, I was a little stunned, is this still me? When did I become like this? I looked up at Xiang Ziyue, my eyes were a little sad and helpless.

Ziyue grabbed me tightly and didn't say anything more. The warmth of his arms made me greedy, I clung to his clothes, and said incoherently while weeping: "Don't send me away, don't, don't make it a luxury for me to even see you, don't let me be alone outside and even live to become a wait." Please, don't. ”

He hugged me tightly, his breathing was a little heavy, and his voice was slightly hoarse: "Xiaowei, it's not what you think." I'm just, too scared that you and the child will be hurt. ”

"Then don't send me away, don't. "I couldn't breathe when I sobbed, I couldn't imagine a man's life abroad, even if he came to see me, how long could he stay? His business in the country urged him to be like a spinning top that couldn't stop, how could he go to see me often? And without him, what was the difference between me and the walking dead.

Seeing that he didn't reply for a long time, he just hugged me tightly, rubbing his chin against my hair thoughtfully, I hurriedly wiped my tears, and reluctantly smiled: "Can I change it------?"

"Good. Good. He couldn't hold back any longer, and promised me, his voice trembling slightly: "Don't say it again, I'm distressed." ”

The weekend is still here in my apprehension. Early on Saturday morning, the driver sent Xiaoyou and the nanny to live in the house in the "second milk area" in Ziyue, where I used to live. Xiaoyou went to learn the piano during the day, Ziyue also had something to do, and went to accompany Xiaoyou at night, and after learning the piano the next day, the driver sent them back to Tianjin.

As far as I'm concerned, it's just that I can't see Ziyue for one night, and it doesn't affect the time. It's just in my heart that the father-daughter reunion that is close at hand makes me dare not think about it, and I feel guilty when I think about it. How would a child accept that there was a woman and child who shared his father's love dozens of kilometers away? How easy would it be to say that there was no distraction? I had to change my TV channels to distract myself from thinking about it.

When Ziyue came back on Sunday night, the corners of his eyebrows and eyes were much more relaxed. During the meal, he chatted with me: "Xiaoyu plays the piano well, and this teacher also praises her." ”

"Oh. I responded and rejoiced with him. Secretly depicted, what does Xiaoyou look like? Will she look very beautiful? I always think that girls who can play the piano are very elegant. I didn't realize that I had come up with a god.

"What are you doing in a daze?" Ziyue looked at me and smiled, tapping the back of my hand with chopsticks by the way.

"I'm thinking about how Xiaoyu looks, it must be cute. "I'm fascinated.

He curled his lips: "It's cute." He doesn't talk much, but he is very sensible. You'll love it when you see it. His answer made me stunned, I see her? Am I qualified to see her? Kezi's shallow and indifferent tone instantly shortened the distance between me and Xiaoyu, as if she was a princess I didn't dare to touch before, and at this moment, she is like the girl next door, I can also think about it and take a look.

"Do you have a picture of her on your phone?" I was even more interested.

"Nope. He replied sharply. I'm a little disappointed, this man is always so cold, don't expect to see photos in his wallet or mobile phone such a warm and romantic thing, I wonder if he is missing this tendon.

He looked at me blankly pulling rice, and said with some amusement: "Why don't you want to think about what the little guy will look like in the future?"

I looked at him, bowed my head and said, "I can't be like you anyway, my eyes aren't big enough." ”

He frowned: "If it's a boy, it's good to look like me." "You want a boy?" I thought.

"Yes. He simply said, "I want a noisy boy." However, I also want a girl, like you. Preferably twins. ”

When it comes to children, he has a lot to say. Twins? enough to think of. I looked down at his words, and I even wanted to laugh a little, "Aren't you jealous like me?"

"A girl like you, I'm going to love her. Ziyue held my hand, the palm was warm, and the eyes that looked at me carried too much affection, which made me intoxicated and didn't know the way back.

It's Saturday again, "Will you go with Xiaoyou again tonight?" I asked. When a thing happens repeatedly, no matter how hard it is to accept, it will gradually become a habit. My heart is not as apprehensive as it was at the beginning. And when I talk to him on weekdays, I seem to feel that she is very close to me.

"I went to Baoding in the afternoon, and I couldn't say if I would come back. Originally, he said that he would take her to eat cake. I can only ask Secretary Li to buy it for her. He responded as he changed his clothes.

"Just herself and the babysitter?" I asked.

"Well, she's used to it. Ziyue said it lightly, but my heart hurt a little, and I didn't know why I came up with a sentence when my brain twitched: "Do you want me to take her to eat cake?"

"No, I don't. Ziyue waved his hand, "Let's talk about it when I come back." But I couldn't help but take a few steps after Ziyue and said, "Then I'll go buy her a cake." I can't tell you what kind of emotions I have, whether I feel sorry for the child who was with the nanny all day, or the guilt for sharing his father's love, or the curiosity about Ziyue's very well-behaved child?

Ziyue was a little stunned, gently scraped my face, and said softly, "Do you want to see her?"

"Hmm. I nodded. Although I knew it was not appropriate to meet her, that strong desire somehow came naturally, I just wanted to meet her very much, and I would never hurt her: "I'll go with Secretary Li, I'll be very careful, just give her the cake." Won't let her know who I am. ”

Ziyue thought about it for a while, nodded and said, "Okay, let Secretary Li pick you up in the afternoon." "My heart suddenly felt like I was jumping. I don't know what psychology I am.

It was easy to look forward to the afternoon, and I wore a light blue dress and went out with Secretary Li. Secretary Li's car drove to a cake shop in the North Third Ring Road. Looking at the decoration is luxurious. The doorway is in the shape of two black swans.

"Mr. Feng designated me here. Secretary Li explained. When I walked into the store, the waiters were wearing very individual makeup, and the boys and girls were wearing black dress-like overalls, which made me look staggering. This seems to be the very expensive "black swan" cake shop in Beijing.

After turning around inside, my eyes are already a little dizzy, any small cake will cost more than 50, the cheapest 5-inch will cost 599, and the 8-inch one will cost thousands. It's just that the cake is like an artistic treasure in a jewelry store, and the black swans on it are carved with lifelike feathers.

Secretary Li followed me, and I suddenly saw a square cake with two white swans kissing on it. It's beautiful. I couldn't help but say to the waiter: "This is good." By the way, I glanced at the price tag "2499".

But I didn't feel distressed at all, it was the first time I bought something so expensive without the slightest reluctance. 2499, I haven't bought myself anything so expensive. Secretary Li took out the card: "Mr. Feng has explained to me." ”

I looked at Secretary Li and said seriously: "Please let me pay for this cake." Mr. Feng, I will explain. You can rest assured. Secretary Li looked at me and put away the card.

I took out my salary card, which still had some of my previous savings, as well as the 20,000 yuan my father gave me to pay back, and I haven't touched it recently. When the waiter took my card and swiped it to 2499, I suddenly felt a sense of relaxed joy in my heart.

When the car drove to the community of Ziyue's family, my heart became a little nervous, and I was brewing a message in my heart: Hello, I am your father's company, and I will send you a cake. Remember it over and over again, for fear that I would say something wrong.

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