It's like I know that in the end, I will encounter the situation of "seeing the Buddha and killing the Buddha".

Therefore, I always want to compare and see if the state at the moment is what the teacher calls "seeing the Buddha and killing the Buddha", or whether it is the "farther" as the book says.

So, how do I know that such a situation of "seeing the Buddha and killing the Buddha" exists?

Right, I don't know at all. All these are just the words of the teacher, and they are just descriptions in classic books. Perhaps, when I finish killing, when I look back, I will find that there is indeed such a situation, and I really need to "see the Buddha and kill the Buddha".

But, at this moment, can I know?

No, I have no way of knowing that. Well, the knowledge that I firmly grasped, always wanting to compare the situation, always wanting to refer to the map, this itself became a delusion.

This situation is no different from the distortion in the mind.

Hell, one sentence can provoke my fears.

I thought that even if I hadn't done it, I wouldn't have been manipulated by fear, or at least not so easily. As a result, the words of others make me fearful, and it is obvious that I feel fear running around my body.

I want to tell myself not to be afraid, but when I think about it, this "don't be afraid" itself is an attempt to get rid of fear, and it is itself an act driven by fear.

When I tried to let the fear in, the fear had slowly dissipated.

Looking back, I feel really sad for myself. It's a pity that I don't think that way when fear comes. The mind is full of getting rid of fear, and the mind is full of all kinds of ways to prevent things from happening, thinking that if you do this, things will not happen, and then naturally there will be no fear.

The world is not real, and I hold on to it as if it were real. Taking the character of Yuan Changwen as real, he will naturally try to make the character have more things, and strive to make the things that the character already has no longer lose.

But do you really have anything?

Everything is a perceptual picture element, even the body of Yuan Changwen's character does not belong to him, so what can he talk about? I don't know what "that awareness" is all about, let alone how this false world appeared.

But I know that the world is not real, and the non-existence of the unreal is like a carefully planned dream. After waking up from the dream, all the dreams will collapse, and all the things that are important to those who care about them will disappear.

In such a situation, why should you hold on to anything?

That's right, it's all bad things that can make people afraid. For example, the family is ruined, the wife is separated, the family is bankrupt, the humble life like a dog, the trampling of people without dignity, the inability to reach the peak of life in this life, and the eternal trapped by money......

But these things are still judged by the distortion in my head, how do I know that these situations are bad, who tells them that these situations are bad, who puts these thoughts into my head?

When I think these things are bad, I naturally want to avoid them, and at the same time I am held hostage by fear.

If you dream, do you want to have those mundane dreams? Even if you are chased by monsters, you will feel thrilled when you wake up, and it is a very good dream.

I'm relating, I'm connecting the elements of the picture that I perceive through logical associations. I thought I had a future, and I thought that time was linear, so I reasoned that it was possible for this to happen in the future.

Damn it!

I still believe in the past, I believe in the future, and I am still ruled by time. I can't be sure of the existence of the past, I don't know if I have experienced the events in my mind, why do I always think that the state of the present is from the past?

That's it, the so-called cause and effect.

I threw the apple, and the apple fell to the ground and shattered. So I claimed that it was because I threw the apple that caused it to fall to the ground, and it was because of the apple that it fell to the ground that the apple shattered.

Yuan Changwen suddenly remembered that he seemed to have discussed this issue before, that is, he couldn't determine any so-called causal relationship at all. What I can confirm is the moment, only what I see and hear at this moment, only the elements of the picture that I perceive at this moment.

Any other inference is to relate all the elements of the picture. Although this association is very plausible, it is ultimately just a guess. I don't know how everything came about, just like I don't know why the apple is broken into several pieces on the ground at this moment.

Although I am pretty sure that I just threw the apple and saw it fall to the ground, it was just a memory that I was aware of at the moment.

Yuan Changwen remembered that he seemed to think the same way before, could it be that he had not made progress at all? No, this kind of thinking itself is a kind of association, how do I know that I have not made progress?

Of course, I also had no way of knowing that I was improving. Because the word progress is based on the linear passage of time, as if there is a person moving forward from the beginning to the end through effort.

Can I confirm this?

Completely uncertain. On the other hand, you can be sure that "truth is everything", so it is natural that these limited things are not real. This illusion of the linear passage of time, then, is just one of the carefully orchestrated ones.

What can't happen? What can't happen?

There is no reason to prove that time is in a linear state, so it is naturally impossible to predict the future by logical reasoning. Although he can claim that he will pee in the next hour, this is still just a guess.

No matter how sure the parties are, the essence is still just speculation.

Things happen, and maybe you can find a lot of information to show that these things are bound to happen. But these associations are also just unfounded speculation, and they just seem very plausible.

It's like blaming me for throwing apples to the cause of a broken apple, but how do I know if it's really because I threw an apple that broke it?

At this moment, I was only aware of an apple crumbling on the ground, and the memory in my mind of "I just threw the apple, and the apple fell to the ground, and then it shattered" and related images.

Is there reason to think that these perceived elements are interrelated?

It's entirely possible that my memories were transplanted by aliens, and then the first moment I appeared was "an apple crumbling on the ground." ”

The linear passage of time is too normal, too easy to understand, and too much in line with the phenomena I observe. It's as if I never doubted the linear passage of time. Even if I knew it before, I don't seem to have discarded the "linear passage of time" at all, and it was just a theoretical discussion.

What's the use of talking about it?