108 The Long Way Home

On the way home, Caiyue felt that her steps were fluttering, no matter how she thought about what she was going to do next, she felt that those things were knotted, and she kept saying in her heart, "Qin Caiyue, you are a traitor." "Qin Caiyue, you are wrong. ”

But in her heart, there was another voice, small, cowardly, but unyielding, saying, "What's wrong with you? You have heard Aunt Han's words, you are helping her." ”

What is right and what is wrong with me, Caiyue, who once plagued her childhood, hopes that there will be a book that can list what choices a teenager will face, and how to do it so that she will not make mistakes, and what kind of choices will make everyone happy, but unfortunately, there is no such book.

And that year, Cai Yue knew for the first time that there were really some things in the world that there was no way to say to her father and mother, and it seemed that the word secrecy was so sacred and inviolable.

She knew that not only that, but she was too much, and even expected Xiuxiang to say to her, "Caiyue, you are right, thanks to you, I will no longer be in pain." You didn't betray me, you helped me. ”

However, her head was a little heavy, her hands were a little weak, and a lot of things were messing up in her head, so she felt that she had to be quiet before confessing to Hideka that she already knew that she was sick.

Cai Yue doesn't understand what amnesia is.

Cai Yue didn't know what was written in the book, and there were not a few times, Cai Yue had this curiosity and wanted to know what was written in the book.

Someone wrote a poem, "It is easy to disperse even more than a happy party, and the memories of old travel are even more sad." Some people also said, "Sit and look at Fangcao Road and reminisce about the old mountain village." "There's nothing wrong with what these people say, or that memories are really a burden.

However, at that time, Caiyue had no Baidu to check, no network to search, and nothing to ask for help, she needed to make a choice in such a short time, she could only follow her heart.

She just thinks that Xiuxiang remembers things so well, and her unforgettable skills are mentioned by her father every time, constantly praised and loved, and even her father sometimes asks for herself, looking for an expert to buy a bad book like "memory method" for herself, trying to reshape her daughter. Well, now that Hideka has lost her memory, I don't know if those mnemonics will be useful for Hideka. It's all so wrong, big joke, "It's okay if you have amnesia", Cai Yue couldn't learn anything in the first place. But Xiuxiang, when she thinks about studying, she feels that the bag in her hand has become heavier again, and she must treasure these books and don't lose them.

It's really strange, how can Xiuxiang, who was praised by her father, have amnesia? She looks good, there is nothing wrong with her, at most she is a little introverted, but introversion is not a disease.

Caiyue felt that she should care more about Xiuxiang, and it was from the time she chatted with Xiuxiang's mother in junior high school. "I always played with Yang Mian before, ignoring Xiuxiang, something bad happened to her, I don't know, I feel that I really did something wrong, I regret it, I will try to accompany her more in the future. Cai Yue prayed devoutly, and also made a declaration to herself, but these guiltes are actually unnecessary, after all, Xiuxiang's life does not need Cai Yue to be responsible. Moreover, Cai Yue did it later, and she cared about Xiuxiang more than ordinary girlfriends.

Therefore, in retrospect, the acquaintance between Caiyue and Xiuxiang is actually quite tortuous, and perhaps the friendship between any two people is not smooth sailing and achieved overnight. Just like Xiuxiang and Caiyue, although the two of them have known each other since childhood, they can be said to be two little guesses (a little inappropriate, but they are both childish), and their parents know each other again, so good conditions are accounted for, but there is still a period of independent life journey. Their childhood companionship was extremely short-lived, and Xiuxiang faced her own life alone throughout the whole process from elementary school to junior high school, and only after entering junior high school did the two start a close relationship in the first half of junior high school, or because of what Xiuxiang's mother said.

Even so, the world of the two is hardly purely transparent. Caiyue hasn't opened those notebooks yet, maybe one day Xiuxiang will need them. Xiuxiang needs space, and she feels that if she goes through these things by herself, she definitely doesn't want Xiuxiang to open her notebooks. Although she considers herself a person who has no perseverance - even she admires herself in this matter, she said that she has done a lot of wrong things in her life, but she still did it right.

At least one of these key things is done right, and it's worth it.

Those notebooks are still locked in a small box in Caiyue's house, and Caiyue also asked her father to buy her a box with a sturdy lock, and solemnly put away these notebooks and locked them. Keep the keys in a safe place.

As Caiyue's family situation got better and better, and her things became more and more, she rarely took out the box in a daze, and she used to occasionally take it out to see if she should return the notebook to her now. Every time I feel that "it's not time to return the notebook" is not the right time, it is inappropriate, and I have gradually dispelled the idea in the past few years.

That time will come.