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I suddenly became frightened and shrunk into a ball, but no matter what, my home was always warm and safe. [Fast update,Refreshing website pages,Few ads,No pop-ups,I like this kind of website the most.,Be sure to praise me for being an ostrich again.] suddenly remembered that Secretary Li was still waiting for me at the hotel, and I turned on my phone again, and Ziyue's text message had already jumped in: "Xiaowei, I'll wait for you to come back." ”

My heart suddenly hurt so much, on one side of the balance is a man who loves each other deeply, this love, in this life and in other lives, is so difficult to find, but on the other side, is the parents' hard expectations, social moral constraints, Ziyue's wife and daughter's resentment, that side, too heavy, so that the love between me and him, seems so insignificant.

I sent a text message to Secretary Li: "I'm fine at home, you can go back." "I wanted to turn off my phone, but I was reluctant, I looked at Ziyue's text message waiting for me to come back again and again, everything about him was like a rubber band, tying me tightly, as long as I thought about it, it would hurt. I shuddered and replied to him: "I'm sorry, my family knows about us." I can't hurt them. I wanted to post another sentence "I won't go back to Beijing for the time being", but my heart hurt like tearing, I couldn't write it at all, I couldn't do it. Tears flowed from my eyes, and I hurriedly turned off my phone again.

When I woke up the next day, my father had gone to the shop, and only my mother and I stayed at home. Mom is helping a workshop-style toy factory make plush toys, stuffing the padded fleece into the finished toy shell and sewing the zipper. You can take it home and do it.

I also wanted to help, but my mother unconsciously waved her hand: "I don't need you." "Just like when I was a child, every time I wanted to help her do something, she would say, you go study, you don't have to. My eyes were damp and I whispered, "I'm fine." ”

I'm so old that I still can't share my family's worries, just add to my worries.

My mother also seemed to come back to her senses, handed me a toy set, and said softly: "Child, your father and I will always be your support, don't talk about the past, and be a good person in the future." Let's not go to Beijing either, there are several cities in front of us, are you still afraid that you won't be able to find a job? ”

I nodded heavily. but his heart was desolate and numb. My mother's words made my heart inevitably move, I was originally a wanderer in the south of the Yangtze River, the hard soil of the Cangshan Mountains in Beijing, was it really difficult for me to grow and live? In the end, I had to rely on a little bit of water given to me by a man to nourish and survive? I smiled self-deprecatingly, and took the toy from my mother's hand, this is the life I should live.

Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, according to previous years, I should have a reunion dinner with my uncles at noon, I casually asked my mother, "Whose house is it scheduled to eat at noon?"

Mom was stunned for a moment and sighed: "I won't eat it this year." After speaking, his expression was heavy. My heart shook and I bit my lip: "Because of me?"

Mom continued the movements in her hand and shook her head: "I don't know if there is no one to Zhang Luo, anyway, no one has notified our family." We're too embarrassed to ask. ”

My heart is like a knife, in previous years, my parents were sitting in the first place, but this year it is so bleak. I suddenly became cold, stopped talking, and only numbly helped my mother with work.

Suddenly there was a knock at the door, "Who, early in the morning." Mom got up to open the door, I stood up and looked into the yard, where several aunts were shouting around my mother: "I heard that Xiaowei is back, I haven't seen her for several years." ”

I turned pale, I hadn't seen me for a few years, but now I saw it, did I come to see my joke or do something? Has the news of my return spread so quickly? I panicked and didn't know what to do.

Mom's voice was cold: "She's sleeping, go back." "Mom has always been a good person in the neighborhood, and she rarely talks to anyone. The aunts saw that their mother was really angry, and they didn't enter the house and went out, but a few words still floated into my ears: "Can people see us now, who are they?" ”

My heart pounded, my mother slammed the door shut, dragged her heavy steps back, looked at me helplessly, and continued to do the work in hand.

"I'm sorry. Mom. I whispered, I didn't expect that in this small county town, rumors spread faster than the speed of light, and I didn't expect that I could blatantly come to the door to see jokes.

Mom clapped my hand: "Silly boy." What's so sorry, I'm your mother. "My heart was sour, and I couldn't tell if it was peace or numbness.

After a while, there was another knock on the door, and my heart picked up again, and I looked at my mother and said, "Don't open the door." Mom stood up: "It's okay, I'll go see who it is." ”

This time there was no sound for a long time, I stood up and looked into the courtyard, and Secretary Li was walking in. Looking at him, Ziyue's image became clear in front of me. I was a little sad and said, "Why are you here?

Secretary Li didn't know the situation at home, and said with some hesitation: "Nothing else, entrusted by someone, come and see, are you okay?"

I knew in my heart, looked at him and said, "You go back first, I'm going to stay at home for a while." Looking at Secretary Li's appearance, I couldn't help but think about Ziyue, everything in the past rushed into my mind, my heart was almost suffocated, and I raised my feet and walked to my room.

"This kid, why didn't he finish his words and left. Mom sighed, seemed to have guessed the identity of Secretary Li, and asked him: "Sit and drink saliva, Xiaowei won't go to Beijing in the future, just stay at home." ”

Secretary Li didn't speak again, and went out after saying goodbye to his mother.

I rushed back to my room and lay down, and that was the end of it. Can time and the warmth of family protect me? I don't have to suffer the pain of love in this life? But how can my tears keep flowing? Why does my heart hurt so much? I can barely breathe?

My eyes flashed deeper and deeper into my eyes, and I said strongly "don't even think about it" The cherishing behind it, the firmness of holding my hand tightly, the moment of life and death to the right of the steering wheel without hesitation, seeing the child's white head overnight, my tears have already overflowed.

After a while, my mother walked into my room, looked at me with tears on her face, touched my forehead, put a thin quilt on me, and said, "Xiaowei, sleep for a while." ”

"Mom!" I cried and cried to protect my mother's waist, wailing, "I'm uncomfortable." "Thousands of grievances, thousands of reluctance, all came to my heart, and I couldn't stop crying.

"Mom knows. Mom's voice was a little choked, "You never cried when you were a child, and Mom knows that you are really uncomfortable." But Xiaowei, it's better for you to be uncomfortable for a while than for a lifetime. Do you say?"

I cried and didn't speak. Mom said: "Your father and I, just you, the only seedling, have been afraid of melting since we were children. Don't dare to take care of it carefully, I hope you study hard and find a good family. This year, you brought Zhou Yi back, and your father and I finally put this hanging heart on the ground. I didn't expect this incident to happen again, Xiaowei, you have wronged yourself, save your parents worry, we are also for your good, you are young and ignorant now, and you will regret it in the future. After a few years of mixing with others, you have no name and no points, and you are the one who suffers in the end. ”

The relationship between children and parents has always been wonderful. That kind of blood relatives, I have been educated by them since childhood, so that their words, I always accept them easily. The sadness on their faces, their sighs, is the last thing I can bear to see. My crying was quieter, and I just sat still on the bed.

In the afternoon, my aunt and cousin brought me some snacks and dumplings. It finally warmed my heart. It's just that I was in a trance, and I casually said a few words to them and went back to the house to rest.

My cousin leaned over and asked, "Sister, is the boss they were talking about?" I glanced at him and didn't say anything.

"That's it. My cousin patted me on the shoulder, "Sister, don't think I'm talking nonsense, you don't have to worry about those who put arrows behind their backs." It's not that the boss helped me, so I said good things. When I helped that year, I said that as long as I released people, money was not a problem. Listen to the special masters. Hundreds of thousands of dollars were lost without blinking. ”

"Not a hundred thousand, it's six hundred thousand. I sighed, "The hundreds of thousands are to find a relationship to revoke the case record for you, and the rest is to compensate others." I didn't tell you for fear of scaring you. ”

My cousin was stunned, and asked me in a daze: "Sister, are you with him, is it because of me?"

"It's not. I shook my head, maybe at first it was because of you, but then it wasn't. An accident, let me and him be able to get along in an instant.

The cousin scratched his head and said, "It's good if it's not." Anyway, I've been working part-time for the past two years, and I've seen people who have followed the boss as juniors, and they've all been doing well. Sister, isn't it okay to be happy, what do you want to do so much?" Seeing that I didn't squeak, my cousin sighed: "I'm not educated, and you don't like to listen to what I say." But it's all the truth. Seeing my uncle and aunt unhappy, and seeing you cry, I feel uncomfortable. With that, he walked out. I smacked his words, just be happy, I am happy, what about others?

This Mid-Autumn Festival is the most lonely one I have ever had, and the family had a reunion dinner in the evening. The parents prepared some fruit mooncakes and put them on the offering table in front of the window to worship the moon.

I silently returned to the house and sat in front of the window for the night, staring at the moon. Looking at the bright moon in the sky, thousands of sorrows, pay for the breeze. In front of a round of jade pots, many images swirled in my mind: Ziyue who stood side by side with me on the bank of Ruoye River, Ziyue who knocked my head with a book under the begonia tree, Ziyue who helped me tie a wishing belt under the apricot blossom tree, Ziyue who stood beside me to comb my hair, Ziyue who helped me peel hazelnuts and hooked my hands, Ziyue who smiled at my Ziyue with a lantern------- all said Thousands of miles together Chanjuan, Ziyue, where are you at this time? I miss you so much.

The next day, I was weak and just wanted to lie down and sleep. The phone never turned on again. In addition to eating, I didn't dare to go out, for fear of being seen by acquaintances and asking long and short questions. During the break, several groups of classmates came to see me, but they were all blocked by my mother.

After lying in a daze for two days, I was still dizzy, and I couldn't get into anything in my mind except for the bits and pieces of the past with Ziyue. Mom was a little anxious, and said to Dad, "It's not a way to do this all day." ”

Dad's anger is not small: "I am willing to abuse myself, let her go, and she can't sleep dead." ”

I buried my head in the quilt and sobbed silently.

On the afternoon of the third day, there was another knock at the door, and I was still lying in the house, and the wind was blowing through the latticework of the window, and I still felt weak. Listening to my mother get up and open the door, a familiar low male voice said: "Hello, I'm looking for Zhao Xiaowei." ”

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