Chapter 317: Chongming's Resurrection Journey
When it was nearing the end, everyone hoped it would be a happy ending.
In fact, everyone has a lot of good wishes in their hearts, so the word consummation will make people feel the happiness it carries, such and such happiness.
Shigeaki stood right in front of me and handed me a glass of red wine. He gently motioned for me to sit down in front of him and sat down across from me. His face was full of happiness.
Today is the day of the full moon of our third child. The frolic that filled the house during the day has finally quieted down. That child, who has already been determined, is called Fu. Although we actually know that he is the bitterness of the resurrection of the vicissitudes of life, I insist on not calling him bitter anymore.
Born to suffer, born to suffer.
This is not the new life I want him to have, nor is it the difficult path he should take. It's just that this secret is only known to me and Shigeaki.
Now that Shigeaki had suddenly called me into the dining room so formally, and dismissed the servants, I knew that he had a lot of important things to say to me, and that what he was going to say must be the questions I had always wanted to know the answers to.
Shigeaki sighed softly when he saw me sit down, knowing that this didn't have to be a sigh of bitterness, but a relief that was finally about to be relieved. But at this time, I couldn't relax. I felt like a rock, so stiff that I couldn't even lift my head.
Shigeaki seemed to see what I was looking at, and he smiled and raised his glass to me, and the bright red liquid swayed through his quilt, stirring up small red waves.
Chongming took a sip of red wine and began to tell his story slowly, and I listened in a daze until the tears slowly rolled down my eyes. It turns out that I don't know anything about the heavy light, the life and the suffering, and I am the only one who doesn't know anything.
"Once, I thought I was going to leave you forever. There was a slight helplessness in Shigeaki's smile, he sighed and continued, "On that upside-down platform in Hitomi Town, I watched my body turn into thousands of golden shards, and finally, slowly fade away. I know that at this time, I am going through this process of losing my soul.
At that time, I began to regret that I didn't say a word to you and hug you properly when I woke up that day. However, it was already too late.
After that, it was endless darkness, and it was cold.
I seemed to be a very weak and nihilistic being, wandering in a much more empty and empty space.
Without the constraints of time and space, I am like a gust of wind, quietly changing my form at will. However, I never gave up, I always hoped to find a rift in this space to get out, but there was nothing.
I don't know how long it took, but I had no concept of time for a long time, and suddenly, I saw the sky inside, and it seemed to be a golden light. The light seems to be warm, which is exactly what I need right now. So, I adjusted my body as much as I could, to get closer to the light.
For a moment, I felt like a man's hand. It was a hand with a body temperature, and as soon as he grasped my hand, he made me feel very relieved.
A familiar sensation passed down his hand into my body, and for a moment, I could even feel my heart beating violently there. Those who don't know that they have forgotten the experience, including some more who don't know if they are their own experiences, are quickly skipped from their own thoughts.
After a long time, as if the balloon was filled with energy, I slowly regained my senses. In front of me, it is a bitter face.
'Little Zuo,' he called me.
I flipped out the one called Xiao Zuo from the memory that had just filled my body, and then I realized that I was actually only one-third of a vicissitudes of life. And the man in front of him is Xiao You.
I answered him, and he seemed to be very happy, and said to me, 'If I could get you out, would you be willing?'
Naturally, I am willing, because my love, you are still waiting for me outside! However, I know that it is not so simple to save me out, at least, there is a certain price.
So, I asked like this, and then, he hesitated, and seemed to be very eager to say something.
Finally, he spoke, and he said that he could swap our souls so that I could be reborn and be with you forever.
It's an act of sacrificing one person for another, and to me it's immoral. So, I refused.
I would love to be with you, but I can't choose to sacrifice another innocent person.
He laughed, and he said that no one in this story was innocent. It's like a three-petal vicissitudes of life, which is an outlier, but it makes people rush to it. There shouldn't have been a third person in the world of love, because he tried. When two people really love each other, the so-called third party is unlikely to appear in their lives.
Therefore, the so-called left-left, heart-to-heart and right-right are actually a kind of pathology at all, and it is a kind of torture.
His tone was very sad, and I learned from his words how deep his love for you is. Even in front of him, I was a little unsure if he loved you more or me.
However, he is willing to sacrifice himself in exchange for my rebirth, just to make you happy. Although I am sure that I can sacrifice my life for you, I will not sacrifice myself in exchange for the resurrection of my rival like him.
However, his tone was resolute. He told me about the lives he had chased after you, but in the end he said that it wasn't until this life that he finally understood what you wanted. In fact, you only have the left left who was taken away at the beginning in your heart, and the entanglements that follow are actually just the process of waiting for the left left to appear.
In front of me, in front of the left. Loving you deeply is just an indispensable part of living together at the beginning.
Suddenly, I seemed to feel my heart throb. It's something I haven't felt in a long time, because in this world of hypocrisy, I don't even feel my body and my heart.
This throbbing pain made me empathize with this sadness of his moment for a moment, as if the two of us were using the same heart at this moment.
At last, after the most violent throbbing of his heart, he continued, 'No matter what, I only want my heart to be happy.' Even if I was just a spectator of her life in this life, I was very satisfied to be able to participate in it. However, what she needs most is you, and if you agree to exchange souls with me, you can be resurrected now. You and I are two of the three petals, so it's easy to do that. ’
Yes, it's easy. If I just thought he was my rival, then everything would be so easy. But not now, because he's right-right, and I'm left-left.
I told him that I could not sacrifice my brother's life for my own happiness, that I would not be so selfish, and that I could not do such a cruel thing.
So, that's my heart.
So, that's his heart too.
We confront each other like this, like two chivalrous men who are about to fight it out, it is a matter of life and death, and we will never back down.
Actually, I also want to see my heart happy, as long as she gets the happiness that belongs to her, I will be happy. And now, her happiness is your resurrection. Because of you, she tried many methods and suffered a lot. If you still don't agree to swap with me, can you be worthy of her efforts?
Besides...' His voice suddenly lowered, a little desperate, 'Xinxin once made a pact with the Buddha that when she killed the Nine Infants, the three petals of the vicissitudes of life would return to their original positions and be together forever.
Do you know what that means? It means that you and her unborn child will disappear without a trace, everything will be back to square one, and we will still be back to the vicissitudes of the three petals, and there will still be a day of separation.
Have you ever wondered if we were separated again, would we repeat it all over again? those separations, those despairs? Would you really like to do it all over again?'
Finally, I was still moved by these words of his, yes, all this cannot be done again. We can only experience this once!
And he smiled, a little bleak, but full of hope, 'Come, love well, for yourself and for me.' ’
I held his hand tightly, and though I still couldn't do what he said about the exchange of souls, I could see a huge red fireball approaching our surroundings little by little.
He shouted for me to squeeze his hand, saying that this was our last chance, and if we failed this time, we would go back to where we came from.
Just as the fireball was burning all over my body, I agreed!"
Chongming paused, took another sip of red wine, and I saw that his head was covered with fine beads of sweat, as if he had just described the picture, and he had experienced it again.
I stood up and handed him the tissue, and he reached for it, but his hand was trembling slightly.
I know how hard it was for him to make this choice, because, we all know it.
He calmed down for three minutes before he began to speak again, "It was a very warm feeling, like your embrace." It seemed to me that there was a ball of wind, and suddenly hands and feet grew, and then, I could clearly hear my heart beating violently. At that moment, I knew that I was alive.
But I'm not in the form of a human being now, and although I've grown hands and feet, it's as if I'm being imprisoned in something, and there's always been a faint floral fragrance in it.
I don't remember if I ever smelled it, but it quieted me down.
My eyelids gradually sank, as if all of a sudden all my strength had been drained, and I closed my eyes in weariness. ”