When I got home, it was already late, I took out the key to open the door, the light was turned off, my grandmother had already slept, I tiptoed back to my room, pushed the door open, all the furnishings did not change, I saw the home that I had not come back for a long time, I felt a warm feeling in my heart, because in this narrow house, there is the only old man in the world who cares about me all the time regardless of returns.

I lay on the bed, looking through the window at the empty and silent loop in the distance, my mind was full of thoughts, and I didn't know where Gao Lei had gone at this time.

Thinking about it, I felt very confused about my future.

From the beginning of Wang Xin, to Zhang Ye, and then to Kuang Siyu, and then I got off the school gate, went to Beijing to work, and the workshop director Lao Feng had friction, and later returned to Anyang, and Zhang Guoqing fight, provoked the wolf Dai Zheng, by mistake through this incident to meet Hu Wei, we went to Li Baoshan's account, Jiao Bald's account, and then Hu Wei looked down on me, expelled me from the circle, I went to Yingkou to go to a junior college, and fought with Jiang Haiyang at school, and then Lei Lei had an accident, I dropped out of school and went to Inner Mongolia to pick up Lei Lei, Fighting with the taxi driver on the road, I wanted to come back and be a waiter who did my duty, but he angered Wang Yi and Ming Jun, and after getting to know Brother Liang, he had a conflict with a big bastard like Zhou Kun, until now, Liu Zhoucheng, Monkey, Long Wu, and other groups of people are still looking for us everywhere.

Unconsciously, I have been fooling around in society for almost a year, and in this year, I have not earned a penny, nor have I achieved a single thing, but I have offended many people.

Everything I experienced is vivid, but it is like a dream, and now I wake up from the dream, and in the end I am alone.

I looked at the date on my phone, it was almost the New Year.

That night, I lay in bed, didn't close my eyes all night, stayed up until dawn, the moment the sunlight reflected in the room, I picked up my mobile phone, wanted to call Gao Lei, and asked her how she was, but after thinking about it, I couldn't help it, it is estimated that she has been tired all night, and at this time, she should be resting.

I couldn't fall asleep over and over, so I simply didn't sleep, I was afraid to get up and simply clean up the house, I glanced at my grandmother's room, there was no one in it, she should have gone to the morning market to buy vegetables, I came back very late yesterday, she was an old man, and she probably didn't know that I was back.

I was tidying up my room when the door was opened, and my grandmother walked in with a few bags of vegetables.

"Grandma, I'll come!" I saw my grandmother enter the door, and hurriedly went over to help carry things, and after seeing this familiar old man, I smiled from the bottom of my heart, and all the unhappiness was temporarily left behind.

I was really homesick.

"Yo, my eldest grandson is finally back!I still wonder why other people's children are on winter vacation, but you are the only one who has no news!" After my grandmother saw me, she was obviously happy, and she became full of red light, and it took many years for me to understand that I, an insignificant little person, was the old man in his last years, and the biggest concern in my heart.

"Well, I came back last night, but it was too late to bother you!" I put the food in the kitchen and helped my grandmother back to her room.

"I didn't know if I came back last night?" Grandma was a little surprised, and then sighed slightly: "Ah... Old, old..."

"Don't say that, you can live a long life!" I flattered the old lady, and then the two of them chatted about family life, and the grandmother asked for warmth, as if there was always an endless amount of things to say to me.

……

For the next two days, I couldn't contact Gao Lei until the third day, I couldn't help but call Brother Liang, he told me that Gao Lei's mobile phone was broken, and then asked me to have a brief conversation with Gao Lei, and after reporting safety, it was completely quiet.

I'm a person who can't make friends, this year's time, almost all of them have been with Lei Lei, although the relationship between us is good, but I always feel that there is something between us, not a friend, now Lei Lei is gone, I feel that there is an inexplicable emptiness in life.

For the next week, I stayed at home almost every day, went to bed at three or four in the morning, got up at eleven or twelve at noon, ate a simple meal, and then went to the moat on the side of the ring road alone in a daze, one stop at a time for the afternoon, day after day.

When I was two or three years old, the river surface was about dozens of meters wide, and when I was in elementary school, it became only a few meters wide, but when it rained heavily in summer, there would always be a lot of water, and I was happy to lie on the fence of the ring road to see the water after school, but then the mining industry of Anyang rose overnight, with the development of the mineral economy, the water resources of Anyang were rapidly depleted, and the moat became narrower and narrower, until now, there is only a stinky ditch less than half a meter wide, and you can cross it with one step, the former majestic moat, now only the yellow sand remains。

The merchants who opened the mines never cared about how much damage their mining would cause to the environment, because after the almost shameless ravages of the green mountains and rivers of Ayang, they could have used the money they earned and chose to spend the rest of their lives in other cities with beautiful mountains and rivers, while those who stayed in Ayang to live in this stinky ditch are still struggling.

I squatted on the endless yellow sand, as usual began to be in a daze, I held a wooden stick in my hand, writing and painting on the yellow sand, I wanted to work hard to draw Gao Lei's appearance, but my painting skills were really not flattering, and finally had to give up, I wrote the word Gao Lei deeply with a branch, and also drew a heart-shaped pattern in a particularly childlike way, and then sat on the sand, while listening to the song with the mobile phone, while looking at Gao Lei's name in a daze.

I have a memory card swapped with Gao Lei on my mobile phone, and she only has three songs in her card, a "Marshmallow", a "Love Focus", and a "Missed Lover", listening to these three songs every day, I almost vomit, I also want to go over and download some other songs, but I don't have a computer at home, if I go to the mobile phone store, it costs five yuan to download 20 songs, but at that time, I didn't even have five dollars on me.

It may be the relationship of circumstances, I looked at Gao Lei's name and listened to the song "Missed Lover", and my heart was very uncomfortable, because I felt that the lyrics of this song were written for me and Gao Lei:

How bitter it is to love someone

Only you know best

Giving all the youth has been barren

It turned out to be just a mistake

Young and ignorant are too hasty

And you go to the point of no return

It's hard to dream last night, it's hard to have a dream tonight

Me and you are both on the show

I don't want to pretend to be confused

But he had to admit defeat

Missed lover

Who else will be able to keep

......

A gust of wind blew, Gao Lei's name was buried in the yellow sand, I listened to the song, and the tears flowed down again, I didn't know what was wrong with me, but during that period of time, my spirit was indeed too fragile, I was alone every day, suffering huge loneliness, crying, as if it was the only way for me to vent.

I sat in the moat until the evening as if I was mentally ill, then got up and patted the dirt off my body, and prepared to go home.

'Ring, ring, ring!'

My phone rang, I looked at it, it was the local landline number, I frowned, and then I connected the phone.

"Hey?" As soon as the phone was connected, a female voice came from the other side.

"Daughter-in-law?!" I heard just one word, and it was Gao Lei's voice coming from the other side.

"Husband. After Gao Lei heard my voice, she was silent for a while: "I miss you......"

I glanced at my phone again, and after making sure that it was a local number, I was overjoyed: "Daughter-in-law, are you back?"

"No ......"

I was stunned: "No, didn't you go to Beijing? Then how can you use the local number to call me?"

"Husband, we didn't go to Beijing at all, we ...... in Changyang City"

"Changyang?" As soon as I heard the name of this place, I immediately had a feeling of being deceived, because Changyang is next to Anyang, only less than a hundred kilometers apart, and if you take a train, a ticket is only eight yuan, and Brother Liang went to such a close place, and he didn't even take me with him.

"Well, after leaving that night, I also thought I was going to Beijing, but Brother Liang took us and came to Changyang directly, he said that the money in his hand was not enough, and he wanted to stay in Changyang for a while, and when we earned enough money to go to Beijing, we would leave ......"

Hearing Gao Lei say this, I was slightly relieved, and then thought for a while: "Then has your phone been repaired?"

Gao Lei was silent for a while, and slowly spoke: "Actually, my mobile phone is not broken at all, but after arriving in Changyang, Brother Liang took Xia Xiaoxuan and Xiaole's mobile phone cards away, and did not let us contact the outside world...... During this time, we have been staying in the hotel except for work, and I am now also using the excuse to go downstairs to buy things and call you at the supermarket. ”

I knew that Gao Lei was short of time, and I didn't have time to talk about love: "Then how are you doing? No one bullies you!"

"No, Brother Liang is very good to us, he buys us whatever we want to eat and drink!"

"Well, that's good!" Hearing Gao Lei say this, my hanging heart slowly fell.

"Husband, it's almost time, I can't tell you anymore, I just want to tell you that I love you! If Brother Liang doesn't pick you up after a while, I definitely won't stay here!!"

"I love you too!"

"Husband, take care of yourself!"

"Duh... Duh..."

After hanging up Gao Lei's phone, my feelings were very complicated, but what made me feel relieved was that Brother Liang and Wan Peng were not the same kind of people, he did not bully these girls, but I felt sad that I was only an hour's drive away from Gao Lei, but I couldn't see her.

A distance of 100 kilometers, I don't know if it's far, but I, a 'bastard' who has been mixed up for a year, can't afford a round-trip ticket of 16 yuan, and I can't imagine if I went to Changyang without permission, Zhang Zongliang would be angry.

Pathetic, or ridiculous?

……

Four days later, I received a call from Brother Liang again, who told me that they had gone to Beijing, and then, for three months, between me and Gao Lei, it was like suddenly losing contact, I couldn't find her, and she never called me again.

Before you know it, it's the New Year.

With the sound of firecrackers at twelve o'clock, I am twenty years old, and I am no longer the carefree teenager with my school bag, I long to move forward, but I don't know where to go.

Brother Liang and Lei Lei didn't even come back for the New Year.

This year, only me and my grandmother have passed, my uncles and aunts, none of them called my grandmother to go to the New Year, on Chinese New Year's Eve, grandma made a lot of dishes I love to eat, but I was worried and didn't eat a few bites.

On the third day of the Lunar New Year, I walked alone, went to the Internet café, after opening the machine, on the notification bar of the QQ space, more than a dozen messages popped up at once, I clicked on it and took a look, all of them were messages from Lei Lei to me, the message is as follows, I opened the QQ space, the original text was copied, word for word:

I know that you miss me, what do I taste, don't you, wait for me at home, wait for me to go back, wait for me, pick you up, buddy...........................

After seeing Lei Lei's message, I suddenly felt very sad, because Brother Liang had been in Beijing for more than three months, but he had never mentioned that he wanted to take me to Beijing.