I agreed to go outside, but I happened to see Zhao Yunhai's back, he hurriedly walked downstairs, walking too quickly, so his steps were a little embarrassed, and he was about to hit the wall next to him several times, and his arm rubbed the white ash on the wall. He probably didn't want me to see me, but I opened the door too quickly, and he tried to dodge but failed.

When I saw him walking in such a hurry, I felt as if I had been slashed by a knife.

The whole person also felt empty, and he didn't know what he felt, and there was a burst of bitterness in his throat, he had already heard everything he had just said, right?

Yes, as long as you are a normal person, it is absolutely impossible to accept that the father of your object is a robber and murderer, right?

My family's secrets scared him away?

I hurried after him and called his name.

He didn't speak, he walked quickly to the front, I didn't speak, staggered down the stairs to chase, even if it was over, I also wanted to have an end, I heard him say in person, we are yellow, we can't lose him like this, in this life, I don't care if it's good or bad, I must be clear.

I rushed over and grabbed Zhao Yunhai's arm: "Wait a minute! I have something to say to you." ”

Zhao Yunhai lowered his head and avoided my gaze: "I don't know how to face you now." I want to think about it quietly for a while, okay?"

I said, "I know what you mean, and I know you can't take it." You come from a normal family, it's normal to not be able to accept it, you are from the town, your father may also come home soon, you know the situation of my family, it is not worthy of you, you don't accept it, I won't blame you, I will bless you, and thank you for what you have been giving me, I am really full of gratitude. ”

Zhao Yunhai looked at the people on the street with a sideways face, it was dark at this time, but there seemed to be a lot of people on the road, all walking in a hurry over there, it was always raining during this time, and it was estimated that it was also drenched in the rain on the road.

After a moment of silence, I said with difficulty, "You don't want to talk to me, do you?" ”

"It's okay. Zhao Yunhai said: "You don't have to apologize, you haven't made any mistakes." ”

After that we were silent again, there had never been such a time when I simply didn't know what to say and he looked at me.

"What are you going to say? Is that just that?"

I was a little at a loss, I was the one who stopped him, but I found that I never knew what to say. looked at him with restraint.

Zhao Yunhai didn't leave in a hurry, he kept looking at the people on the road, and he didn't seem to be in a hurry.

After a while, I noticed that my voice was hoarse: "Do you want to break up with me?"

Zhao Yunhai was stunned for a moment, then looked at me and said, "What are you talking about, I don't mean to ask you to break up." I was just a little shaken by such a big news...... Forget it, you have to think about it, I'm really a little scared. I need time to digest these now. ”

I smiled, "You're such a kind person, even if you can't accept it, I can understand it, if you and I change positions, I guess I can't accept it, it's okay......"

"Not really. Zhao Yunhai frowned slightly and looked at the crowd on the road, many people rode bicycles past us, they were almost all wearing the same clothes, gray and blue tunics, their hair was also the same, with a numb and vigilant face, quickly shuttling through the town, the loudspeaker of the factory came out of the passionate articles in the newspaper, trying their best to evolve to find our hearts, as if we were about to become the first person in the universe.

I sometimes forget the era I live in, and now suddenly there is a cold war, this is the seventies!

In an era of isolation and backwardness, the thinking is rigid, and the slightest sentence is not good, which may cause a catastrophe.

And my father is such a person, who has done such a shocking thing, what qualifications does he have to ask the other party to accept me?

Sometimes I really think of myself too well, Zhao Yunhai is very good to me, but he is such an honest and principled person, why is it necessary to take such a risk with me?

My mind was split into two parts, one was to hope that he could reconcile with me and continue to live as before.

On the other hand, I can understand him, and if I hope he has a better life, it is right to leave me.

Zhao Yunhai looked at me and said, "I know you are sad and innocent. But anyway, I'm a little uncomfortable right now, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I'm so sorry. I can't react to this blow for a while. ”

When I saw his reaction, I didn't know what to say.

I said, "It's okay, you've worked hard and taken care of me all the time, and I don't know how to repay you." ”

"You don't need to repay me. Zhao Yunhai looked at me: "Everything I do is voluntary, and I never have other ideas." ”

"Are you hungry? My grandfather made something delicious and said he would wait for you to eat together. I forced a smile.

Zhao Yunhai didn't speak, looked at my face, and suddenly stretched out his hand to touch: "What's wrong, it seems that someone beat me?"

I dodged: "It's nothing. It's not serious, are you hungry? Why don't you go and have a meal?"

"Did your father beat you? why, why is he so bad!"

I said, "Nothing. It's just a general contradiction. Go up and eat. ”

Zhao Yunhai shook his head and said: "I don't have much time, I actually want to tell you when I came today, my unit let me go on a business trip for a while, about half a month." I'm a little worried about you, so come and have a look. I'm ready to go right away. ”

I was surprised: "Ah, I've been going for so long, so where are I going?"

"I'm going to the provincial capital to do some errands, and I'm going to buy a train ticket in a while. He looked at me and smiled, "You can do it while I'm away, right? I'm actually worried about you." ”

I said it was okay, but I felt half of my body sink into the water, and the cold feeling that seeped out of my bones suffocated me, and I suddenly wanted to open my mouth to tell him not to go, and now I really need him.

I've been with his help for so long, he's always there for me whenever I need help, and I'm used to his presence. But all of a sudden, he told me he was leaving.

Is what he said true? Or do you want to part with me, embarrassed to say, using a business trip as an excuse? But if he wants to leave, what right do I have to stop him?

I just ended up saying, "Okay." You have to be careful. I don't know what to bring on a business trip. Take a look ahead and don't forget to bring something. And then... You have to eat more good food. Isn't there a lot of good food in the provincial capital?"

Zhao Yunhai smiled and nodded: "Yes, there are a lot of delicious food, I will take you to eat delicious things in the provincial capital when I have the opportunity in the future." You're waiting for me to come back. ”

I'm going to cry, will you have this opportunity? Would you be willing to take me to the provincial capital?

I had a feeling that he and I wouldn't see each other again after we parted, and that we might find a chance to separate.

"Then I'll go first. Zhao Yunhai said to me: "Don't worry, there must be a road before the car reaches the mountain, your father never dares to do anything to you, can he shoot you? ”

I nodded, "Okay." I'll talk to him. ”

I stood in place and watched Zhao Yunhai stride forward, with mixed feelings in my heart, and tears couldn't stop falling.

Am I out of love? Because my father was that kind of person, the people I like don't want me anymore.

How aggrieved I am, but I can't help it, no one can say that I am innocent, if this matter is exposed, our family is finished, he will also be affected, how can I harm others.