Even though I understood all these things, I still felt very sad.

I finally lived again, and at first I didn't think that I could get anything else, love or anything like that, but it turned out to be like this, giving me hope and then disappointing me again? Maybe my life is not good! I lost him like this, and I was really sad.

Zhao Yunhai walked out more than ten meters, looked back at me, I quickly turned my head, I didn't want him to see me crying.

He said loudly: "Xiu'er, don't worry, you wait for me to come back, I will come back to you as soon as possible!"

I waved my hand, I didn't dare to speak, as soon as I spoke, I would find that I was crying, I just smiled and waved at him, watching him go, and then I walked back, constantly shedding tears, forget it, since I can't keep it, don't be difficult for myself, and I can't be difficult for him, after all, Zhao Yunhai is already very good to me. I'm asking too much and it's selfish.

I still have my grandfather by my side. Grandpa will never give up on me at any time. I believe so.

When my grandfather saw me coming back, he said, "What's the matter, his eyes are so red, he didn't come, you two quarreled?"

"No, when the two of us were talking just now, Zhao Yunhai came, and he probably heard it at the door. ”

My grandfather was stunned, and then said, "So he can't accept it?

"He didn't say it, and I don't know, but he said he was going on a business trip and couldn't be with me for a while." We're going to go alone, Grandpa, I'm in a bad mood. ”

Grandpa frowned, looked at me helplessly, and tried to speak several times, but still didn't say anything. Finally sighed.

"This is really a sin! A good marriage, ruined by that bastard! I should have killed this rabbit cub at the time, I shouldn't have let him do this to you. There is no benefit at all, he never cares about you, and now he wants to affect you, who is this? It's really disappointing!"

I deliberately smiled lightly: "It's okay grandpa, I believe I can live well." I don't have to keep him with me. Grandpa, I said it a long time ago, as long as I am with grandpa, I am not afraid of anything. We can definitely be happy, don't worry, grandpa, I'm all right!"

My grandfather smiled and said, "Come on, I'm all old bones, what else can I do, you know that I don't believe it if you put gold on my face and say these things to comfort me." You still can't forget him. Why don't I go and beg him, he usually respects me a lot, I thought, maybe I can persuade him?"

I kept stamping my feet, "Grandpa, don't do this! I didn't ask him to come back, I understand what he did, and I definitely don't blame him." Let's talk about feelings, marriage is not something to ask for, I just need to be good with my grandfather, and I am content. ”

"It's good if you can think of it yourself, let's eat, as long as the time passes, you should forget, you will forget everything, grandpa has experience, let's go, eat a good meal to ensure that you forget everything." Grandpa said and pulled me in.

My heart felt depressed and suffocated, and I couldn't eat at all, but in order to keep my grandfather from worrying about me, I still ate a lot, and joked with him, telling him what was happening in the unit.

I originally thought that this weekend, I could take my grandfather to a nearby park or something like Zhao Yunhai to have a good look, and go to the People's Department Store or something to buy a dress for my grandfather. Who knew it would be like this.

There is time, there is money, but there are no people. Blame me for not having this life.

My grandfather said, "How uncomfortable I am living in this house, but fortunately, after this weekend, I should go back, and get out of this place quickly, and I will be relieved." But it's a good thing that you don't have to do farm work anymore. ”

"Good. I smiled and served my grandfather's dishes: "Grandpa's cooking is the best." ”

"Well, he didn't seem to give you the gold you were looking for before, don't you want it?"

I paused for a moment and looked at my grandfather in surprise: "If you don't say I'll forget, it's okay, it doesn't matter if you don't give it." ”

He could have gotten this thing himself, but he had to share half of it, and he kept helping me, so I didn't want it.

Grandpa smiled, "I'm joking, people say that the two are separated, and the problem of money is the most difficult to get, but it's rare that my granddaughter doesn't care at all, it seems that it should be easy to divide...... Xiu'er, don't cry. ”

Grandpa saw that I was still crying, obviously a little panicked, and hurriedly persuaded me.

I lowered my head and quickly wiped my tears: "Grandpa is fine, Zhao Yunhai is really a very good person, it's all my fault that I can't keep him, it's me who made a mess of things." The great chef has always made me patient, but I really can't bear it, so I quarreled with my father, and fought with many people, offended too many people, and they didn't have a good impression of me. Now he hates me so much, I can't do anything......"

My grandfather said, "But this has nothing to do with Zhao Yunhai's matter, you don't always blame yourself." ”

"I mean, I'm so immature, even if I'm with him now, I don't have the ability to behave in the world at all, it will only affect him, he has a great future, he needs a woman like a virtuous helper, I will only cause trouble for him, or it's not suitable. Of course, the objects are all sweet brothers and sisters now, but in the future, there will definitely be problems, and it will be good for us to break it early. ”

My grandfather looked at me, "You've been reviewing yourself? I don't think it's necessary. Although some people don't like your character, I think it's good, don't be wronged by yourself, my granddaughter is so wronged by what she does, you just have to do whatever you want! Zhao Yunhai is a very good child, but since he can't accept what happened in our family, he can divide it if he wants to, I hope he will find a good one in the future. Grandpa knows that you're not the kind of person who can't put it when you pick it up. But never feel inferior!"

I quickly agreed: "I see." I won't feel inferior. I'll get better soon. ”

"Okay, that's good. "My grandfather gave me food to eat, said a lot of words of encouragement, and talked about the difficult times on the battlefield, but in the end he survived.

I smiled and nodded: "Grandpa, I understand everything you said, don't worry." ”

When I finished dinner, when I was washing the dishes, I leaned against the broken basin, the whole person was numb, I was really in a bad mood, sad to death, I pretended to be good in front of my grandfather, and now I don't want to pretend.

Although he keeps saying that he is fine, he is still a fool who needs other people's attention.

I kept crying that night, because I was staying with Uncle Seven, so I didn't use his futon, just covered my clothes on the sofa and covered my mouth with my hands to prevent myself from crying. But I guess my grandfather should know in that house, this house is so small, and the surroundings are so quiet. My voice Grandpa couldn't have heard.

I covered my mouth like this, almost suffocating, and I didn't fall asleep until midnight.

I dreamed of a lot of people, they seemed to be laughing at me, those people I knew in my previous life, Yang Yulan and the villagers laughed at me and no one wanted me, and Gao Haisheng, who seemed to be married. With a pregnant woman, pointing fingers at me. There are also Yang Dabao, Lin Xiaoyan, they, Fang Ming and Zhao Tao and others who have known each other in this life are all pointing at me over there and constantly mocking.

"What's wrong with you? You can't get married, right? Hehe, you really deserve it! I thought that if I could marry a city person, I could do whatever I wanted, but it turned out to be the life of a village!" Yang Yulan smiled: "I see how you brag this time!"

Lin Xiaoyan hugged a child and looked at me sympathetically: "Why do you say you have to find people in the city, and the result is asking for hardship?"

Gao Haisheng said: "That's right, what kind of person is Lao Tzu, so good, a fool like you still wants to pester me? If you want to pester others, you can only be shameless!"